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“Shion…”
Kissing in the car, we come out after dark
Breathless sigh left his lips as he mutters the older male name, he broke the kiss as he coughed up the smoke from his airway as a tear stray from his eye, the older male simply chuckled at his reaction.
The older men left the room leaving the younger sitting there covering his blushing face with his arm.
Fingers interlaced under the checker tablecloth
I put your jacket on, you make me take it off
“Shiki you’re not cold, are you?” Shion tapped his shoulder giving that usual stupid smug smile of his. Shiki just cocks his head to the side in confusion, unconsciously gripping the jacket draped over his shoulder. Shion’s jacket, his boyfriend’s jacket.
Shion just took it off him as he draped it to the blonde girl beside him. “I mean Mii-chan’s cold, yer’ a guy you could stand the cold, can’t you?” He simply raised an eyebrow, the chewing stick hanging lazily on his lips.
Shiki just bit his lower lip and look away.
You'd rather I'd be cold and never dare to show me off
Keep your head down as you walk down the road
Shiki ignored the stares of his friends as he watches his boyfriend placing his hand on another girl shoulder leaving the room. Silently gripping his pants, before any of his friends could say anything Shiki forced a smile. “It’s fine…” As they watch him walked away unsure.
I say "I love you" just in whispers
Making out with him in the middle of the storage room in the middle of the night knowing damn well he shouldn’t, yet he clung tightly at the older man shoulder as he pauses to whisper, “I love you.”
He continued kissing the younger man as those words fell into deaf ears, while the raven let him have his way.
But I don't wanna be your dirty secret
I don't wanna be your love affair
Shiki felt it, the way Shion let his hand go immediately after realizing the others entered the room, sucking it up like usual, like nothing happened, like it’s a routine. Starting the conversation with his friends like nothing happened.
Ignoring the way his stomach drops every time Shion drop his hand.
I don't wanna be your favorite person Only when no one is there
His phone buzzed-At 3 am, he didn’t have to look at his phone to see the caller, he knows he shouldn’t answer, shouldn’t pick up, yet he answers it without hesitation on the first ring-Even if he knew he only matter to Shion when he’s just bored, high, drunk, got no one to fuck with, and alone. He matters when he’s convenient for Shion.
And I don't wanna be your sweet escape
“Shiki! It’s been a long time since we last each saw other.” Shion laughs out loud as he wraps his arm ‘round the raven’s neck, bringing the younger one frame closer to his as he drags me away to his apartment…” I missed you, let’s go ‘out’ yeah?”
Shiki smiled at the attention-even though he knew he was being used by the older male, yet he continues to let it happen every time. He went along, he still stayed. How pathetic.
And I don't wanna say we're best friends
I don't wanna be your lover undercover
When you see me at a party and we're strangers again
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah
Shiki clenched tightly as he let out breathless moan…smell of sex and sweat filled the room, gripping the sheet tightly as Shion gripped his hips tighter, bringing his other hand to the back of Shiki’s neck. Wrapping his finger around it as he leaned in as he bit down hard leaving a mark. A mark of ownership, he continues roughly stirring Shiki’s inside.
Body’s trembling as he gripped the sheet tighter till his knuckles turns white, Shion placed his hand on top of Shiki’s, leaned closer to his ear “Did your body miss me that much? You’re coming like a girl.” He taunts the younger man, his breath tickling Shiki’s ear as he mewled-chanting ‘cumming’ like a mantra.
(And we're strangers again)
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah
(Lover undercover and we're strangers again)
Shiki brings his hand up feeling his bruised neck, fingers grazing the uneven texture of his skin from the bite. Shion simply lights his cigarettes with a serious look, he glances at Shiki who’s resting in bed, as the moonlight shone his bare body.
Cobalt coloured eyes watched as the older figure left the room…Like he usually does.
Tell me, is it me?
Do you not wanna be seen with somebody as young and unassuming as me?
“You never showed me off!” He raised his voice as he tries to hold back his tears-he felt a sting in his chest, gripping his pants like a habit…A bad habit, trying to swallow down the pain in the back of his throat. Pretending like he’s fine, like how it usually is. Shiki said voice trembling “Is this because I’m not good enough? Do you think I’m too young?..too immature…is that why you don’t wanna be seen with me?”
“You always left me crying, wondering what I did wrong….” The younger one mutters as he wiped away his tears angrily. Shion just stood there with alcohol in one hand, while smoking his cigarette on the other- snubbing out the cigarette as he walks towards the younger man and kissed him. Having his way again, breaking apart the wall that Shiki countlessly mended.
Carrying Shiki to the bedroom thinking an apology sex would fix everything, every time they had an argument Shion never resolved it normally. Shiki knows he doesn’t mean it, yet he can’t push the older one away.
Or are you being strange, so other girls my age
will hit you up and give you the attention you crave?
He knows damn well he was being kept a secret so that Shion could still appear available to others…As he left and go around with a new girl in his embrace every fucking time, fucking around as he please leaving Shiki in the dark.
Looking at him in disgust every time those girls thinks we’re dating. Even though we are. Saying “He’s not my type” in a mocking tone like it was a joke. “You’re more of my type, go on a date with me.” He coos as he seduces the girl infront of the teen.
I'm tired of meeting you at the back door
I don't wanna say "I love you" in whispers anymore
Shion interlaced his pinkie with Shiki’s under the table mid-meeting as he moves his hand to the younger one’s thigh, giving it a gentle squeeze as he works his way up. Shiki body tenses up as he tried to remain calm. Shiki glances at him-while Shion simply just gave him mischievous grin through his purple tinted glasses.
After the meeting ended the two stayed behind as Shion trapped his against the desk and bit his ear. Shiki just squirms at the touch while gripping the clothes on the older one’s chest. Shiki tried to push the taller male and dash out the room flustered, leaving the older male alone.
What is it that makes you do this?
Thinking that if I were different
“Shion…”
A voice rung out calling a name as if he’s tired while clinging to a thread of hope for reassurance.
The male simply raised an eyebrow while chewing stick still hanging on his lips. The teen bit his lip telling himself not to say it. “I don’t want…to continue this any further…” The words slips out as he curses himself mentally.
“I’m not a fucking beauty…Nor the pretty one for you to fucking romanticize. If I were a girl, you wouldn’t kept me hidden.” He clenched his teeth as he avoids eye contact.
You'd kiss my cheek in public
Shion gave his signature smile as he holds up his cigarette, pocketing his hand as he kissed the younger one’s lips in public.
Shiki can only dream as he doze off
Maybe I'm a secret you can keep
Sometimes Shiki questions the point of their relationship, why does it need to be kept a secret if he really loves him…He knows this relationship is doomed yet he kept holding on to it like it’s the only thing he had left, holding on the believe that it could be something more.
Being kept hidden because Shion doesn’t want to be seen with someone younger, he’s sick of being his embarrassing secret. He doesn’t want to care of what people think of them.
I'm your lover undercover and we're strangers, we're strangers again
They kissed passionately as Shiki drags his nails down engraving the older man’s back, digging it deeper each time. As both broke the kiss gasping for air a sting of saliva connecting them, Shion pulls away taking off his glasses and press his lips back onto him devouring the younger male.
Spending the nights tangled in sheets, pressing body, bite marks and hickeys littering their bodies. Shiki muffled his moan with the pillow as Shion came inside of him umpteenth time that night. Dozing off in the older man embrace praying that this time Shion stayed by morning came and not become ‘strangers’ who spend some time together.
End.