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1. Everything to Lose by Deffo_Not_Me

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Not Rated
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   12 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Luca Haas
   • Wyatt Hayes
   • David Hollander
   • Yuna Hollander
   • Troy Barrett
   • Harris Drover
   • Evan Dykstra
   • Chiron (Game Changers)
   • Anya | Ilya Rozanov's Dog
   • Galina (Ilya's therapist - Heated Rivalry)
   • Post-Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Top Ilya Rozanov
   • POV Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Married Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • POV Shane Hollander
   • Bottom Shane Hollander
   • Anxious Shane Hollander
   • Hurt Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Depression
   • References to Depression
   • Passive Suicide
   • Therapy
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Domestic Fluff
   • Smut
   • Shameless Smut
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • Spoilers

   Summary

   Married, out, and still drowning, Ilya plays reckless hockey, carries old grief, and tells everyone he’s fine while getting dangerously close to proving he isn’t. But after a loss to Boston, alone in the middle of the night, he comes closer than ever to making a choice he can’t undo.

   Shane loves him. But love, terrifyingly, might not be enough.

   This fic takes place after 'The Long Game' so spoiler warning in case you haven't read that.

   Series

   • Part 1 of My Heated Rivalry fics

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   22,617

   Chapters:

   4/10

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