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TC: aNd ThEn MaYbE mAkEoUt A lItTlE
TC: ;o)
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AT: ,hAHAHAHAHAHAHA
AT: oH, mAN, yOU AND YOUR SILLY CLOWNING AROUND, i ACTUALLY THOUGHT YOU WERE SERIOUS THERE FOR A SECOND,
AT: tHAT WAS A GOOD ONE
TC: :o( It WaSnT a JoKe
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AT: oH, gOD
AT: i DONT, i DONT UNDERSTAND GAMZEE
AT: i NEED A MINUTE
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AT: i THOUGHT WE WERE TIGHT
TC: wE aRe TiGhT, rIgHt?
AT: nO, mAN I THOUGHT WE WERE BROS, yOU KNOW?
TC: We ArE bRoS
AT: ,,,
AT: gAMZEE DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT BROS WHO ARE TIGHT, tHEY DO NOT USUALLY MAKEOUT WITH EACH OTHER
TC: nO bRoThEr I dO nOt GeT mY uNdErStAnD oN aT tHaT nOiSe, WhEn YoUrE aLl Up AnD tIgHt AnD sHiT, tHaTs WhEn YoU wAnT tO bE mAkInG oUt WiTh A mOtHeRfUcKeR rEaL sWeEt LiKe :o)
TC: HoNk
AT: ,,, i JUST, i CANT FATHOM THIS THOUGHT PROCESS FROM YOU, i JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND, aRE YOU CONFESSING FEELINGS? aRE YOU FLUSHED, oR DO YOU JUST WANT TO INAPPROPRIATELY KISS YOUR BEST BRO BECAUSE YOU WERENT SCHOOLFED PROPERLY, nO OFFENSE?
TC: :o(
TC: wHaT iF i DoNt KnOw WhAt I aM uNtIl I gEt My MoThErFuCkInG kIsS aLl On?
AT: oH
AT: wELL I DONT THINK ITS A GOOD IDEA
TC: WhY nOt?
AT: gAMZEE, yOU ARE A HIGHBLOOD, aND IM ABOUT AS FAR FROM THAT AS YOU CAN GET, pLUS, uH FORGIVE THE SENSITIVE SUBJECT MATTER, bUT THIS IS ALREADY PRETTY SENSITIVE OF A SUBJECT, sO, nOTHING BELOW MY WAIST WORKS, i CANT BE ANYONES MATESPRIT, eVEN IF I REALLY WANTED TO BE
TC: i ThOuGhT bEfOrE aNd In OuR rApPiNg I mAdE iT cLeAr ThAt Im NoT fOnD oF tHaT hEmOcAsTe ShIt WhAtS aLl MeAnT tO sEpArAtE aNd DiViDe Us, ShIt Is StRaIgHt Up WhAcK, fUcK tHaT mOtHeRfUcKiNg BuLlShIt RiGhT iN tHe WaStEcHuTe, JuSt GeTtInG mY tHiNk On AbOuT tHaT mAkEs Me FeEl So ANGRY HONK
TC: Do::o|
AT: nO, yOURE RIGHT, gAMZEE, i HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT, i AM ABLE TO ADMIT THAT TO YOU, eVEN IF I AM A LITTLE, nO, vERY, rELUCTANT TO DO SO, bUT I AM GOING TO REMIND YOU OF A PAINFUL FACT
AT: i KNOW THAT FEELINGS ARE IMPORTANT IN RELATIONSHIPS, tHAT FAITH AND TRUST ARE IMPORTANT, tHAT ONE SHOULD BE BEST FRIENDS WITH THEIR MATESPRIT
AT: tHE THING IS, tROLLS LIKE ME GET CULLED
AT: i AM BROKEN }:(
AT: tRUST ME, tHIS HASNT BEEN EASY FOR ME TO ACCEPT EITHER
AT: bUT IVE HAD TO, nO, iVE BEEN FORCED TO ACCEPT THAT THIS IS MY REALITY, i WILL NEVER HAVE A MATESPRIT, oR A KISMESIS, tHE TIME WILL COME, aND THERE WILL BE NO BUCKETS, aND I WILL BE CULLED
AT: eVEN IF ITS POSSIBLE FOR ME TO FILL ONE, dID YOU EVER THINK, mAYBE I DONT WANT TO DO IT WHEN IM LIKE THIS?
AT: aLL THE FANTASIES I HAD? bECAUSE YES, i HAD THEM, jUST LIKE YOU DO NOW, tHEY ARE DEAD THINGS TO ME, gHOSTS IN MY MIND THAT KEEP HAUNTING ME, tORMENTING ME, tHEY ARE IMPOSSIBLE, i CANT DO WHAT I WANT TO DO OR WOULDVE DONE, i MEAN SEXUALLY AND ROMANTICALLY, i AM TALKING PURELY ABOUT MY SEXUAL AND ROMANTIC FANTASIES HERE, i AM STRAIGHT UP PHYSICALLY INCAPABLE OF DOING WHAT I SO DESIRE, sO ID RATHER NOT DO ANYTHING, eVER, wITH ANYONE
AT: sO PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT
TC: AnD i Am UnAbLe To AcCePt ThIs AnSwEr, ThAt YoU KNOW fOr A sOlID fAcT sOmEhOw ThAt ThErE iS nO sOluTiOn To YoUr CuRrEnT sTaTe? YoUrE wIlLiNg To JuSt WrItE oFf EvErYtHiNg JuSt LiKe ThAt?
AT: gAMZEE MIRACLES DONT HAPPEN FOR TROLLS LIKE ME
AT: yOU MAY NOT UNDERSTAND, bUT ITS EASIER FOR ME THIS WAY, tO JUST NEVER GET INVOLVED ROMANTICALLY OR SEXUALLY, iM SORRY
TC: tAvRoS, i WiLl MaKe ThEm HaPpEn, I wIlL dO aNyThInG tO hEaL yOu, Id Be ThE mOsT fAiThFuL mOtHeRfUcKeR tHaT eVeR dId ScUtTlE hIs FiLtHy CrAwLeRs On ThIs LaNd, I wOuLd CuLl AnD kIlL aNyOnE iN mY wAy, YoU aRe ThE oNlY cReAtUrE i CaRe AbOuT, yOu ArE tHe OnLy OnE iD sPaRe My WrAtH, i WiLl DeStRoY tHoSe FuCkInG dRoNeS, eAcH aNd EvErY oNe WhAt CoMeS uP tO yOuR hIvE, i WiLl KiLl EvErY tRoLl ThEy SeNd ToO, eVeN mY fElLoW fAiThFuL fUcKeRs ThAt CoMe At YoU wItH tHeIr ClUbS, i WoUlD dO aLl ThIs AnD mOrE, wItHoUt A sEcOnD tHoUgHt, TruSt
AT: sEE, aND THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT BEFORE, aBOUT REALITY, aND THINGS BEING REALISTIC, wHICH IS NORMALLY NOT A THING I CARE ABOUT, bUT IN THIS SCENARIO, tHERE IS NO WINNING, tHERE IS NO SOLUTION, nO ESCAPE, yOU CANT KILL EVERYONE ON ALTERNIA GAMZEE, iTS JUST NOT POSSIBLE
AT: oKAY, lETS BE REAL, lETS THINK ABOUT IT, lETS SAY YOU AND I START THIS CURSED MATESPRITSHIP, yOU DO START KILLING DRONES, KILLING LAUGHSASSINS AND SUBJUGGLATORS, yOU KILL THRESHSECUTIONERS BY THE HUNDREDS UNTIL THE OUTSIDE OF MY HIVE RUNS WITH RAINBOW COLORS, dO YOU REALLY THINK YOU COULD BE THE BEST? tHAT YOU COULD EVEN BEST THE ADULT ELITES THAT WOULD COME FOR ME EVENTUALLY, tROLLS THAT HAVE SPENT MORE THAN YOUR LIFESPAN TRAINING AS SOLDIERS, aS ASSASSINS, lITERALLY DAY IN, dAY OUT, tRAINING FOR LONGER THAN YOUVE DRAWN AIR OR SOILED YOUR DIAPER STUBS? dO YOU THINK YOU COULD KILL HER IMPERIOUS CONDESCENSION?
TC: :o( i WoUlD tRy JuSt FoR yOu, I wOuLd DiE tRyInG, jUsT fOr YoU, wItH a SmIlE oN mY fAcE
AT: gAMZEE,,,,,
AT: tHERES MORE,
AT: lETS SAY YOU REALLY ARE THAT BADASS EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE CONSTANTLY HIGH AND CONSTANTLY LAZY AND PROBABLY REALLY REALLY OUT OF SHAPE, lETS SAY YOU KILL EVERYONE WHO ISNT ME AND ISNT YOU
AT: wHERE ARE THE DOCTORS TO HELP ME WHEN I START TO HAVE PROBLEMS? dID YOU KNOW I HAVE TO TAKE MEDICINE FOR PAIN AND EVEN TO USE THE LOAD GAPER PROPERLY, wITHOUT THAT SYSTEM IN PLACE, wHO WILL MAKE MY MEDICINE FOR ME? nEITHER OF US ARE CHEMICOMMISSARIES, aND WE DONT EVEN KNOW ANYONE WHO IS TALENTED AT THAT.
AT: dID YOU THINK I WAS FINISHED, tHAT MAYBE ID LET YOU TELL ME THAT YOUD LEAVE ONE OF THOSE GUYS ALIVE SO THEY COULD MAKE MY MEDICINE, pLUS SOME TEAM OF OTHERS THAT ID REQUIRE TO HELP ME, aND YOUD RULE OVER THEM NOT UNLIKE HER IMPERIOUS CONDESCENSION OR OTHER HIGHBLOODS FOR THAT MATTER, iN FEAR-BASED AND CLASS-BASED SYSTEM SIMILAR, aLBEIT SMALLER, tHAN THE ONE YOU CLAIM TO HATE?
AT: tHAT ISNT EVEN WHERE SHIT HITS THE FAN MY FRIEND, sHIT HITS THE FAN WHEN YOUVE KILLED EVERYONE BUT ME, bUT I STILL DIE, mAYBE I DIE NATURALLY, cOMPLETELY OF NATURAL CAUSES, aND I DIE AT A RELATIVELY RIPE AGE OF 30 SWEEPS, wHICH IS A DECENT TIME FOR A BRONZE BLOOD TO LIVE, lET ALONE A CRIPPLED ONE, aND THEN YOU ARE ALONE, uTTERLY AND COMPLETELY ALONE, fOR THE REST OF YOUR EXCRUCIATINGLY LONG HIGHBLOOD EXISTENCE, a SPAN OF TIME THAT WOULD DWARF MY ENTIRE POSSIBLE LIFETIME, eVEN IF I WERENT DISABLED
AT: tHAT IS THE TRUTH
AT: sO YOU ASK ME MY FEELINGS ANYWAY, bECAUSE I KNOW YOU WILL TRY TO IGNORE ALL THIS, yOU WILL TRY TO MAKE THIS ABOUT RIGHT NOW, wHATS IMMINENT, aND MAYBE YOU REALLY DO LOVE ME, mAYBE YOU LOVE ME MORE THAN ANYONE EVER HAS AND MORE THAN ANYONE EVER WILL, aND MAYBE THAT LOVE IS ACTUALLY THE TRUEST LOVE THAT HAS EVER EXISTED INSIDE A TROLLS HEART, bUT THAT LOVE AND MY LOVE, wHICH I DO FEEL FOR YOU, yES, tHATS RIGHT, i AM TELLING YOU RIGHT NOW THAT I FEEL FLUSHED FOR YOU, aND THAT I HAVE FELT FLUSHED FOR YOU FOR SOME TIME, i WILL EVEN TELL YOU THAT YOU WERE THE SUBJECT OF MY EVERY SEXUAL FANTASY BACK WHEN I STILL INDULGED MYSELF, aND ALL OF THAT IS TRUE, pAINFULLY TRUE, bUT IT DOES NOT CHANGE ANY OF THAT OTHER BUSINESS THAT I TOLD YOU ABOUT, tHE MOST IMPORTANT OF WHICH IS THAT I DECIDED I WOULD NOT PARTAKE IN ROMANTIC OR SEXUAL RELATIONS, i DECIDED THAT MY ANSWER WOULD BE NO, tHAT I DO NOT WANT TO PROCEED LIKE THIS, eVER, aND IF YOU LOVE ME, yOU WILL RESPECT THAT, sO PLEASE GAMZEE, sTOP HURTING ME WITH THESE CRAZY PROTESTS AND OBJECTIONS, aND RESPECT MY DECISION
TC: I wAnT tO rEsPeCt YoU bUt Im CrYiNg, Im So SaD, i WaNt MoRe TiMe To TaLk AbOuT tHiS, iTs NoT sInKiNg In, YoU sAiD yOu LoVe Me AnD yEt AlL tHiS nEgAtIvE iS sPiLlInG oUt, I jUsT dOnT uNdErStAnD
AT: aLSO, iM VERY SORRY, bUT I DONT THINK I CAN FACE YOU AFTER ALL THIS, iM NOT SURE I CAN BE BROS ANYMORE WITH YOU, iM NOT SURE I CAN CHAT WITH YOU ANYMORE, iTS TOO MUCH, kNOWING HOW YOU FEEL, wITH HOW I FEEL, aND EVERYTHING BEING LIKE THIS
TC: nO pLeAsE dOnT,
AT: iM SORRY GAMZEE BUT I HAVE TO
TC: NO MOTHERFUCKER DO NOT
AT: i LOVE YOU BUT I CAN’T
TC: NO NO NO PLEASE DONT
AT: iM SO SORRY
TC: PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU JUST LISTEN JUST STAY TALK TO ME MORE PLEASE
AT: tHIS IS FOR THE BEST
TC: NO!
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TC: NO NO NO NO NO
TC: WHY
TC: No please, please just come back
TC: I’ll be normal, I’ll quit the sopor and the faygo
TC: I’ll even quit my faith
TC: I’ll be the most realistic motherfucker that ever got his reality on
TC: Please Tavros, come back
TC: I’d do anything even to just be the one who takes care of you
TC: To hold you, even just if it’s once, I’d do anything
TC: Can’t I just have one kiss
TC: A kiss goodbye
TC: I love you so much
TC: Please
TC: Please
TC: Please
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TC: now I guess nothing matters anymore
TC: NONE OF IT MATTERS ANYMORE
TC: you are dead
TC: AND SO IS MY HEART
TC: and every motherfucker left alive
TC: IS GOING TO PAY FOR THE SIN OF YOUR DEATH WITH THEIR BLOOD