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The first thing Inej noticed was the sound.
A faint whisper of leather against skin as Kaz tugged at the fingers of his glove. The attic room was close and dim, lamplight pooling gold across the slanted ceiling. Dust floated in the air like lazy constellations. She had followed him up the narrow stairs without question—there were ledgers to review, shipments to tally—but she hadn’t expected this.
He closed the door behind them. Quiet. Final.
Then he began peeling off his gloves.
Inej stilled where she stood near the window.
She had known him six months. Six months of rooftops and schemes and the low murmur of his voice in darkened corridors. She had watched him command a room with nothing more than a glance. She had watched men twice his size step back when he shifted his cane.
She had never seen his hands bare.
The first glove slipped free, turned inside out in one smooth motion. Pale skin emerged into the lamplight—long fingers, sharp knuckles, faint blue veins threading beneath the surface. Not delicate. Not soft. But unguarded in a way she had never witnessed.
Her breath caught before she could stop it.
He removed the other glove with equal precision and set them aside on his desk, already moving on. There was no ceremony to it, no hesitation. As though he had not just altered something fundamental.
He rolled up his sleeves.
The movement drew her gaze despite herself. The lamplight caught on the black ink of the Dregs’ crow etched into his skin, vivid against the pallor of his forearm. The muscles there were lean and defined, shifting subtly as he flexed his wrist. There was nothing ornamental about him. Everything about Kaz Brekker was made for function.
He crossed to the washbasin and poured water into the bowl. The splash sounded too loud in the small room. He scrubbed his hands methodically, jaw tight, eyes distant.
Inej knew better than to stare.
She stared anyway.
Water slid along his fingers and traced the inside of his wrist. Tendons shifted beneath his skin as he flexed. The sight unsettled her—not because it was grotesque or unexpected, but because it felt intimate. Like glimpsing a seam in something usually seamless.
When he finished, he dried his hands and returned to the desk, already reaching for a ledger. He perched on the edge of the wood, one leg braced, pen poised between his fingers.
He began to write.
The scratch of the nib against paper filled the silence. His hand moved quickly, numbers flowing in neat, controlled lines. Inej found herself watching the motion—the slight tightening at his wrist, the way his forearm flexed with each stroke. The crow tattoo shifted with the movement, the ink seeming to ripple across muscle and bone.
A smudge of black bloomed along his index finger.
He frowned faintly but kept writing.
Her pulse quickened.
It was absurd. She had seen his hands do worse things. Seen them strike and calculate and dismantle. She had watched him hold a pistol steady without tremor. She had watched him count coin so quickly it blurred.
But this was different.
This was quiet. Unguarded. Almost ordinary.
The ink spread across his thumb. A darker streak marked his palm where he had shifted his grip. He muttered something under his breath and finally set the pen aside.
When he stood to retrieve a handkerchief from his coat, the movement was fluid and economical. As he wiped the ink from his skin, the muscles along his lower arms tightened and released. Lean strength coiled beneath pale skin. Controlled. Precise.
Her thoughts slipped before she could stop them.
She wondered what those hands would feel like wrapped around a blade. Around her wrist. At the small of her back, steadying her at the edge of a rooftop.
Heat flooded her cheeks.
The realization struck harder than the thought itself.
She was looking at him.
Not assessing. Not anticipating danger. Not calculating escape routes or weaknesses. She was looking, and there was no fear in it. No recoil.
Since the Menagerie, she had been to afraid to think of men in physical terms. The dread crept up like spider legs across her skin whenever the slightest inkling even brushed the edge of her thoughts. Desire had been something used against her, twisted into a weapon. And the emotions and reactions had become entangled into one inextricable mess since then. So she had folded that part of herself away, sealed it behind prayer and discipline and the clean, sharp wind of the rooftops.
And yet here she stood, watching the flex of his forearms as he cleaned ink from his skin, imagining the warmth of his hands.
She turned toward the window abruptly, forcing her gaze to the canal below. The night air beyond the glass felt distant. She inhaled slowly, steadying herself.
This was nothing.
Surprise. That was all. Anyone would be startled to see something so unexpectedly… bare. She had simply grown accustomed to a certain image of him, and this disrupted it. That was all.
Behind her, the chair scraped softly as he sat again.
She glanced back before she could stop herself.
He was already absorbed in his numbers once more, sleeves still rolled, hands resting openly against the ledger. As if he did not notice the shift in the air. As if he had not revealed something he kept hidden from the rest of the world.
Six months.
Six months at his side. Six months of careful distance. She had seen him refuse handshakes. Seen him avoid even accidental contact in the crowded club. He moved through the world like someone perpetually braced.
And yet he had taken off his gloves while she stood in the room.
He had not asked her to leave. Had not turned his back to shield himself. He had simply done it.
The thought settled slowly, heavy and bright.
He had never done that before.
Not once.
So what did that mean?
Did it mean she was the first person he had taken his gloves off for?
That couldn’t be right.
Right?