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1. A Sadness in the Soul (I dreamed it long ago) by heyhospiderman

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   26 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Cliff Marlow & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Cliff Marlow
   • Shane Hollander
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • not graphic
   • Depression
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • ilya rozanov is not okay
   • self harm is not graphic but goes into detail about why he does it
   • please be mindful of yourselves and your triggers!
   • Coming Out
   • Bisexual Ilya Rozanov
   • Good Friend Cliff Marlow
   • Hurt Ilya Rozanov
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • cliff and ilya have an honest conversation
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • shane and ilya have an honest conversation

   Summary

   Cliff thought that in the three years since Ilya Rozanov had joined the team, he knew his best friend pretty well. He knew how the guy liked his coffee, what his favourite car was, what his type in women was and more. But Cliff also knew a different side of Ilya, one he had never intentionally shown him, a side that struggled.

   It seemed though, that Ilya struggled more than Cliff had ever thought. 

   New chapter where Ilya talks to Shane about it!

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   TW for description of self-harm and depression!
   PLEASE take care if yourself. do not read if this triggers you. Stay safe.

   Title from Sundowner by Fontaines DC

   Language:

   English

   Words:

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   Chapters:

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