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1. am i making you feel sick? by softnotspoken

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   26 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Anya | Ilya Rozanov's Dog
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Medication
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Domestic Fluff
   • Light Angst
   • Slice of Life
   • Introspection
   • Self-Acceptance
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Implied Sexual Content
   • Sexual Dysfunction
   • Internalized Victim Blaming
   • Non-Sexual Intimacy
   • Depression
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Sexual Frustration
   • loss of libido
   • antidepressants

   Summary

   Shane rests his head on Ilya’s shoulder. “Is it the medication, you think?”

   Ilya hates the question, but he nods anyway. “Probably, yes. I was not like this before.”

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   Or: Ilya Rozanov used to know exactly what he wanted and how to get it. Now, after months of being on antidepressants, desire feels like a stranger to him, and not even Shane Hollander is able to bring it back.

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