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1. i pray for forgiveness to a god i don't believe in by solacebur

   Fandoms: Lovejoy (Band), Video Blogging RPF  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   13 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Ash Kabosu (Lovejoy)
   • Wilbur Soot
   • Mark Boardman (Lovejoy)
   • Joe Goldsmith (Lovejoy)
   • James Marriott
   • Religious Guilt
   • Past Child Abuse
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Physical Abuse
   • Emotional/Psychological Abuse
   • Angst
   • Emotional Hurt
   • Sexuality Crisis
   • Childhood Trauma
   • Guilt
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • Blowjobs and Breakdowns
   • There's not really fluff yet
   • just trauma and angst filled porn
   • Drunk Sex
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Sexual Assault
   • Past Sexual Abuse
   • Drug Use

   Summary

   Loving someone is one of the purest and most beautiful things in existence.
   Yet he felt nothing but shame and guilt about it, he was terrified, terrified of something he was sure he didn't even believe in. Or didn't want to believe in.

    

   OR

    

   Ash's struggle with internalised homophobia, trauma and religious guilt.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   24,647

   Chapters:

   8/?

   Comments:

   7

   Kudos:

   5

   Bookmarks:

   1

   Hits:

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