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I heard you in the wind with my face toward the sun
And I said the blinding light was hurting my eyes
But truth is, the wind hurling in my ears
Sounded like your voice screaming
And the tears welling up underneath my eyelids
Had nothing to do with the sun
Sparrows danced above my head and dived on their way home
A passing thought
“If I were as light as a bird…”
Left me as quickly as it came
I can’t call this place home
Can’t fly out of my own dark pit
“Be careful what you wish for”
I should have taken these words to heart
Because I wished for you to survive
And you begged me
To end your life
How could you?
And one day She will come
And when Death came, Newt
You welcomed her with open arms
And a quiet “please”
As your eyes locked with mine
How could you?
Like the day when I saw you and my past was gone,
The day I saw you last marked the beginning of my future.
From the day I showed up in the fake shelter that had become your house
From the day your eyes fell upon me and your hand touched mine
Though my past was missing I started picturing a new life with you by my side
Until a gunshot blew it all away
Down by the water, all the lights surround me
I can see the flashes of dozens of lanterns a few feet away
Where they all dance and drink and laugh
Lying down by the lake, I can see blurred lights
Above my head, a million miles from here
Where stars are slowly burning away
I thank you for the pleasure, all the treasures I have seen
Now that you can’t hear me anymore
I thank you, because you shone so bright
I had forgotten what it was like
To be alone in the dark
I’m getting tired of waiting for the sun to rise
Today I woke up on the bank of the river still
Birds were singing and I rolled over, sighing
And the wind whispered words in my ear
“You won’t always know I’m there”
Without thinking I answered to the sound of your voice
I said “all I can I give you and all I am I share”
It’s true, I will share with you everything I am
If in return you promise to hear my call
And to let me enjoy your whispers in the wind
Your eyes looking down upon me from the night sky
The sound of your laugh echoing in my dreams
The memory of your smile, I want it all
Roses in the wind, bridge from falling in
May not always know you're there
But all I am I share, with you
With you, Newt