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Yushi had joined Riku and Sion’s live while bored and waiting for Daeyoung who was in the bathroom.
Riku and Sion were hotel roommates for the night and decided to go live. Ryo and Sakuya also joined earlier to say hi but left quickly again. Yushi watched it the entire time since he didn’t have anything else to do. To be honest it wasn’t just because he was bored but also because he was missing Riku.
Even though they see each other every day, Yushi always finds himself missing Riku – though he hates admitting that to himself.
Of course he knows it’s normal to miss your close friends, but for some reason it has begun to feel stronger than just that. He can’t help but feel completely warm every time Riku touches him or even says his name.
What is this feeling? What should i do. He knows he’s not supposed to feel this way about his fellow member, but still he can’t seem to ignore it.
Riku was calling him cute the entire live – looking at him like he was his entire world.
“Cuteee, what should i do?” Riku is giggling. “Cuteee~” He says for the millionth time.
Yushi felt his stomach turn every time. He nervously kept touching and brushing his frizzy hair that made him look like a hedgehog. Probably the reason why Riki kept calling him cute and smiling at him.
Riku didn’t take his eyes off of Yushi the whole time. Even when taking a sip of water his eyes were glued to Yushi’s face on the screen.
“It’s so awkward. When… when can i leave? That’s what you’re thinking.” Riku says while smirking and nodding his head up like he’s subtly flirting.
Yushi can’t hold his smile back and starts giggling.
“No, no~”
Riku starts laughing and Yushi nods his head in disapproval. Yushi was definitely feeling awkward but it was all because of Riku. Why does he keep flirting with him all the time making Yushi lose his mind. They have always said small confessions to each other jokingly. Holding each others waist. Pouting their lips at each other like they want a kiss. Like all the members do of course. But lately it has been feeling a bit too real. Then again – it might just be him losing his mind trying to convince himself it’s not just him feeling this way. It’s driving him crazy.
The next morning Yushi woke up in cold sweat and unable to get Riku out of his mind. He had to get out and clear his mind. He left Daeyoung in the hotel room, who was still sleeping, and went out to the hall to take a small walk alone with his thoughts. As he went out the door – and turned his back to close the door as silently as possible to not wake up Daeyoung – he heard a familiar soft voice, almost whispering.
“Yushi~”
He turned to the side and felt his heart drop at the sight of Riku across the hall. What is he doing here. I should have stayed in bed.
“You’re awake too.” Riku says and steps closer.
“Riku..” He pauses for a moment. “I.. uhh.. I couldn’t sleep any longer.”
Yushi feels as if he could explode any moment. Just two seconds ago he was thinking about how Riku kept calling him cute yesterday and their small glances at each other through the screen.
Riku looks down on his own hands who are almost shaking.
“Me too. I had too much on my mind.”
“Ah. Like what?”
Riku looks back at Yushi while smiling. “Like you.”
Yushi could easily hear the joking tone yet he still felt butterflies everywhere.
“Riku..” Yushi looks away while laughing quietly to himself. He knows this is just another flirty comment that doesn’t mean anything.
“Yuu-chan..” He pauses and smiles. “I’m serious. I can’t stop thinking about you and it’s driving me insane. I don’t know why this is happening but i have to do something.”
Riku looks around then grabs Yushi’s hand and hurries over to a small gap in the hall where no one can see them. He guides him in the corner and gently pushes him against the wall. Yushi’s whole body freezes with his hands dangling on the side.
“I know we both feel this strange feeling between us.” Riku looks at him like he’s about to tear up. “Am i wrong?”
Yushi shakes his head the tiniest bit and looks to the side in shock. Sure he thought about it a lot, if Riku felt the same type of tension between them. But he never imagined any of them would ever act on it – if it was even reciprocated.
Riku slowly grabs his waist and pulls him closer. “Yushi..”
“We shouldn’t do this Riku.”
“Why? It’s just us here. Don’t tell me you haven’t thought about it before..” Riku’s voice is desperate but soft like he’s been wanting to say that for a long time.
Yushi definitely has thought about it before. A lot. It’s almost embarrassing how much. But he knows it’s wrong – and what would the others think if they found out.
“I want to kiss you.” He blurts out as if Yushi is the only person that matters to him in this moment.
Yushi wants to kiss him too. His ears are turning bright red and his face is warm. This all feels like a dream – he can’t even think about how to answer that.
Riku puts his hand on the back of Yushi’s head, running his fingers through his hair. “Please Yushi.”
“Riku.” Yushi lets out a small gasp. Almost silent. Something about Riku saying please made him feel more weak than he already was in this moment. “Is this really okay?”
At this point it’s taking everything in him to not say fuck it and let himself all over Riku and kiss him right then and there. He wants him so bad. He needs him. This kind of moment is exactly what he has been daydreaming about. It had become a daily routine for him to stare at Riku across the living room at the dorms. At dance practice. At filming schedules. Feeling guilty about his imagination and feelings.
Riku nods while giving a small smile like he finds him cute for worrying so much. “Yushi.” He pauses for a moment. “I really don’t know if i can take this anymore.”
Riku’s voice makes him melt almost into the floor. He’s so weak for the way he says his name in that soft tone.
Yushi puts his arms around Riku’s neck while letting out that nervous giggle he can’t help but make when he’s around Riku. At first he hesitates a bit. Then slowly pulls him closer.
Riku tightens his grip on Yushi’s small waist and leans in slowly. As they both lean in they can’t help but smile. Their lips finally meet and it feels soft and eager as if they have both been longing for this moment.
Riku pulls back and looks Yushi in the eyes. His eyes are sparkling and it’s making Riku fold. “Why are you so cute?” His voice is shaking.
Yushi is used to Riku calling him cute all the time, but this time it gave him a feeling he had never felt before. Maybe because this time Riku was holding his waist while being closer than ever.
He pulled Riku even closer to him and put his hands on his cheeks then kissed him again. This time it was more desperate. Riku melted into Yushi’s body and slowly put his hands under Yushi’s oversized shirt, resting them on his cold back. They got lost in each other forgetting about everyone and everything else. The kiss only got more and more intense – until Yushi slowly pulls back with a nervous look on his face. “Is this okay?”
Riku looks at him like he’s about to die. He finds him so cute. All the time. He can’t help but make a big smile full of admiration. Still smiling he lets himself all over Yushi, kissing him even deeper than before. That kiss was the only answer Yushi needed to know that it was more than okay.
A loud bang from a door closing came from down the hall which made them pull a bit away from each other. They looked at each other – Yushi with a shy smile and Riku puffing his cheeks like he always does. Riku moved his hands to Yushi’s waist and put his head on his shoulder. “Let’s do this more often.” He says shamelessly before separating completely. Yushi could hear the smile in his voice.
“Riku..” Yushi starts giggling quietly while resting his head on the wall behind him. “Will you be able to handle that?”