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Marlon couldn’t really shake the thought that this person, someone he knew he could trust, someone who made him laugh the hardest, someone who saw him when no one else did and still supported him even now was now making him feel things he couldn’t even dare say.
It hadn’t really been that dramatic when him and Lacy were hanging out at the faze house that’s when it started
that feeling…
He had just entered the faze house that evening to film some content. He’d called Ronaldo a while ago to see if they were still meeting, but got no answer. Marlon still showed up anyway.
He saw a cupcake sitting on the counter and peeked around to see if anyone was there. It seemed like no one was there yet, so he helped himself to it.
“Mmmm.”
Marlon was lying on the couch waiting for everyone to arrive. He’d been scrolling through TikTok seeing random edits that fans would make of him. It usually didn’t take much for him to repost as long as he looked good and the edit was about him…. It was an easy repost.
Some more moments had passed.
He’d been so caught up with his phone that he hadn’t noticed someone had walked in from upstairs and was now hovering over him behind the couch.
Marlon jumped, seeing the biggest eyes paired with a mischievous smile looking down at him.
“Lacy dude you scared me”
Lacy gently smacked Marlon’s head eyeing his phone before sitting across from him.
“You’re such a narcissist do you just look up edits of yourself all day?”
“And you don’t?”
“Uhhh no, I don’t need random people stroking my ego like you do Marlon” he said playfully
Lacy looked around the house.
“You know where everyone went? I tried texting Ronald he hasn’t said anything back”
Marlon shrugged.
“I don’t know man…”
Lacy began to babble on about Ronaldo and his lack of meeting his commitments or something and something else.
Lacy dramatically sighed.
“Are you even listening to me or are you looking at your abs in 4k again?”
Marlon peeped up from his phone to Lacy looking at him like he caught him in a lie.
“Nah I am, Ronaldo should be here…you are so right”
Lacy rolled his eyes.
A beat passed.
“What time did you get here anyway?” Lacy said making himself comfortable on the couch and snacking on chips Marlon hadn’t even noticed he was holding.
“I got here like half an hour ago.”
“Why didn’t you come to my room?” Lacy asked
“Why would I go to your room?”
“To fuck me of course”
Marlon dramatically sighed, bowing his head but couldn’t hold in his laugh.
Lacy was so fucking unhinged.
They would joke like this a lot but it still would leave him surprised.
“Dude…what’s your problem?” He said, shaking his head.
Lacy was cackling across from him, his high pitched laugh heard everywhere in the empty house.
Marlon finally looked up seeing his idiot friend still laughing over his stupid comment.
“Is it really that funny? You’re literally gonna choke on your chips”
Lacy was still busy recovering from his laugh.
Marlon couldn’t really help but smile though the laugh was stupidly infectious.
“No I mean your face when I said it is what’s killing me more”
His face?
What about his face?
“My face?”
“Yeah dude why’d you look scared?”
Scared? Had he been scared?
“Why would I be scared at this point just say you have a crush on me Lace always acting sus.”
Lacy wiped his tears before finally returning to normalcy, face still red from the laugh attack.
“That’s cause I do have a crush on you ” he said, batting his lashes and staring at Marlon flirtatiously a dark look in his eyes.
Markin rolled his eyes “…you play way too much man” he said mumbling under his breath. He returned to his phone but something was off…
His heart.
His cheeks
And even his fingers…
everything felt off
‘I do have a crush on you’
Marlon’s heart was beating fast and his face had grown hot
For the next few minutes Lacy’s stupid comment and the look on his face was the only thing running through his head even while scrolling on TikTok.
‘I do have a crush on you’
What’s going on?
Marlon peeped up to see Lacy laying on the couch. He was no longer eating his chips, instead he was focused on his phone and Marlon thought back to moments earlier of him batting his lashes and looking at him…like that. His eyes were dark that Marlon almost thought he was serious.
It was a fucking joke
Lacy was joking
Marlon knew Lacy was joking but still…
why did he feel so weird?
Why did the thought of Lacy liking him make Marlon feel….
Excited…
He swallowed hard cursing at himself
What the fuck are you even thinking?
That cupcake on the counter hadn’t been spiked right?
Marlon got up slowly before going to the bathroom to clear his head. He stood in front of the bathroom sink staring at himself in front of the mirror. He splashed his face with cold water allowing himself to think rationally.
Marlon get it together
Was Lacy cute? Sure.
I mean he’d even tell Lacy that. You can think your friends are cute. I mean he’d call Lacy his “little chub” after all.
Was Lacy attractive too? I mean sure, he’d been taking care of himself a lot lately minus the chips he was eating earlier but he was really grinding it out at the gym. It was commendable.
But crushing on Lacy? Being attracted to him?
They were friends.
Best friends.
And Lacy was a fucking dude! Marlon was straight.
Whatever happened back there was something else…maybe like a late reaction to the cupcake he ate.
I mean why would Marlon of all people be tweaking over Lacy? The thought was so ridiculous he started laughing to himself like a maniac in front of the bathroom mirror.
There’s just no fucking way.
He shook his head feeling a sense of relief.
I’m normal
He opened the door stepping out to leave the bathroom only to be faced with his friend looking up at him with the cutest smile on his face and merely an inch apart.
So close….
Marlon gulped looking down at Lacy who’s little smile told him Lacy was just about to tell him some juicy thing he found out, that he couldn’t even sit still and wait for Marlon to come back to tell him.
Instead he was looking up at him with those big eyes fluttering his lashes at him again only this time Marlon couldn’t even decipher if Lacy was making it look flirtatious on purpose or Marlon was genuinely losing it.
His chest started to tighten and scarily enoughthat feeling from earlier returned.
He felt his heart racing and his cheeks growing hot the longer he and Lacy stood being oh so close and still holding eye contact.
Shit
What the fuck is this!
Marlon suddenly shoved Lacy out of the way attempting to head back to the couch until he heard a loud thud followed by a groan of pain from behind him.
Marlon quickly turned around to Lacy on the ground holding his arm squinting his eyes in pain.
Fuck
“Lacy? Lacy are you okay?” Marlon said, rushing over frantically inspecting Lacy, worried he might have actually hurt him.
He hadn’t even remembered pushing him this hard.
“Yeah dude I’m fine…geez you didn’t have to fucking throw me on the ground jsut cause I scared you”
Marlin let out a weak laugh, his heart still recovering…from everything.
“Right…sorry” he said softly, pulling Lacy up.
Marlon avoided his gaze subtly before returning to the couch to pick up his phone.
He still couldn’t shake off these weird feelings he was having.
There was no way he could continue being here. He needed to go clear his head. This is usually the kind of thing people seek therapy for right?
He eyed the counter at the crumbs remaining that once had a cupcake sitting on it.
It has to be the fucking cupcake.
“Hey uh Lace… I gotta go actually… if Ronald comes around, say we’ll stream another time I’m uh feeling light headed …and my stomach uh it’s feeling bad actually.”
Yeah that sounds convincing
Lacy was still massaging his arm following Marlon silently as he walked to the front door.
“Oh ….that sucks if you’re really sick…”
Marlon nodded again avoiding Lacy’s eyes before rushing out to his car.
“Well I’ll see ya—!“
SLAM
That was the last thing Marlon heard of Lacy before he ran back to his car.
He sat in the driver’s seat for a beat letting the car heat up before driving home with his music on full blast. He couldn’t even spare a second of silence to even mutter the thought that Marlon if all people had just—
No!
Marlon was just out of his mind
Maybe a temporary health issue that’s why his heart was racing, something like a hormonal imbalance or like a gland issue.
Marlon returned home playing video games with Ray who happened to be online. Marlon had his music blasting louder to avoid thinking about what had happened.
Ray was getting irritated by the noise though.
“Damn, can you turn that shit off? I can’t even hear anything on my end”
Marlon lowered his music but gaming took his mind off of things and had actually helped.
He ended up crashing out on his bed after hours of gaming.
Peaceful… a beautiful bliss
No Lacy.
Marlon was back in the faze house late again. Well the sky was dark but it was really only 6pm. He hadn’t been here since his last visit a week ago, a measure taken to avoid Lacy not because he was scared of whatever that was last week. He just needed to clear his head. He tried not to think about whatever haze he was in last time. He chalked it up to drugs.
The house seemed empty; it felt like he was the only one there.
He called all the members names ….except Lacy but maybe he ought to check if he’s here at least. He called his name a few times too on the first floor but no answer.
He figured today any shit left on the counter he’d avoided at all costs and went up the stairs to check the guys bedrooms.
He swiped his head in every room and…
Empty…
No one was here?
He sighed seeing a subtle hue of light coming from a bedroom. ..the guy he’d been avoiding.
He peeked his head in and surprisingly saw Lacy curled up in his bed taking a nap.
Marlon’s feet were planted at the door, seeing Lacy’s back turned away. He wanted to step away but he let himself in walking over to his bed hovering over Lacy trying to peek at him asleep.
He had definitely been asleep for a while. He smelled good too; he assumed Lacy had recently showered.
Marlon let himself get comfortable kneeling at the edge of the bed right where Lacy was laid and getting a front row seat to his friend sleeping.
He thought maybe taking a picture and sending it to him later might be funny but as he held his phone out zooming in on Lacy’s face Marlon felt his heart skip a beat.
Seeing how peaceful Lacy looked…
If only he could just—
He slowly dropped his phone on his lap letting his hands reach out to Lacy’s hair, hesitating at first worried he’d wake him, but gently patting his blonde hair before eventually running his fingers through it.
How are you so cute when you’re asleep?
Marlon couldn’t look away, he couldn’t stop wanting to keep his fingers where they were and a scary part of him felt something so deep he couldn’t shake it. No he didn’t want to. He liked this.
It seemed like he’d been here for ages just watching, staring, taking Lacy all in; he didn’t know if he cared what was going on. This could be platonic right? Who wouldn’t think Lacy sleeping like this wasn’t just—
Marlon’s hands that had been running through Lacy’s hair drifted to his soft chubby little cheeks and Marlon smiled softly
So fucking cute
Marlon gulped as his eyes landed on Lacy’s lips feeling the rush of heat in his own cheeks.
His fingers shook daring to hover over Lacy’s lips but Marlon let his fingers drift back to Lacy’s cheeks and sighed deeply.
He waited for a beat.
Still watching him
An overwhelming urge bubbling up inside him to do the unthinkable.
An overwhelming urge to kiss him.
Was this…normal?
His eyes dropped to Lacy’s lips again, swallowing hard.
He felt his body move closer to him, his heart racing faster than it ever had. It’s like his body was under a spell.
He hovered over Lacy again eyes dropping to his slightly pouted lips. He felt himself rapidly blinking before closing his eyes and deciding to gently press his lips on Lacy’s slightly pink cheeks instead.
Marlon felt his whole demeanor soften melting into the soft peck.
mmmm
he made sure to be especially gentle to not wake Lacy up, but Marlon’s efforts were in vain as he released from the kiss to find the horrifying sight of Lacy wide awake.
Shit! Shit!
“L-Lacy!”
Marlon pulled back immediately trying to play it cool as best as he could now after nearly freaking out. I mean they did gay shit like this all the time he could chalk it up to him joking around ?? Right??? I mean it’s not like Marlon did anything out of the ordinary….? Right?
Lacy blinked a few times still adjusting himself to reality but not leaving his laid position. Meanwhile Marlon felt like he was about to die.
“When did you get here?” Lacy asked in a throaty voice
Marlon stood up at this point stretching pretending like nothing had happened “uh a few minutes ago I just got up here.”
He subtly looked at the alarm clock in the room…
wow….
He’d actually like a fucking creep been up here for half an hour?
What was his problem?
“Really? A few minutes ago?” Lacy questioned sitting up.
Marlon faked a yawn trying to move the topic along “yeah…actually so we should probably start packing for the skit right?”
Lacy nodded his gaze falling on his computer in front of him “oh right… I was recording my sleep”
What?….
“W-what do you mean?” Marlon asked, trying not to give away how anxious and downright terrified he felt over what he’d just heard.
“Yeah uh it’s to track my snoring” Lacy got out from his bed to hopping on his chair in front of the computer.
Marlon watched as he minimized a window to reveal a mirrored reflection of Lacy and that’s when Marlon noticed the green light glowing on the computer.
Fuck that was there the whole time?!
Lacy had ended the recording which consisted of more than one hour of footage which meant it would have shown everything Marlon had been doing for the last 30 minutes…to Lacy.
He couldn’t—-
Fuck he couldn’t let Lacy see that!
How would he even explain this shit!?
Marlon felt his heart racing watching Lacy.
Lacy was already getting comfy already attempting to watch it.
“Hey uh shouldn’t we go down already?” Marlon asked desperately hopping Lacy would hop off and forget he ever recorded anything.
“Uh in a minute…”Lacy said, pulling his chair up closer to the screen.
“Hey let me go to the last few minutes you got here why’d it seem like you were all up and personal? You for sure did something” he said looking at Marlon mischievously.
Marlons heart was ready to explode from the impending doom of Lacy seeing that footage. He had no choice he had to delete the video. Even if it looked suspicious.
Here goes
Without warning Marlon zoomed to Lacy pushing him forcibly to back of his room making Lacy tumble off his chair.
“Dude what the fuck!”
Lacy groaned in the back
Delete
Delete
Delete
Delete!
Yes!
Marlon had deleted the footage and let out a psychotic laugh falling his head forward.
“Why’d you delete my video!?” Lacy ran up shoving Marlon in the back looking through his trash folder.
Marlon stood up acting like Lacy wasn’t yelling at him and decided to leave his room.
He didn’t care because a bigger disaster was avoided
Mission accomplished
———-
They’d finished streaming after 3 hours of walking around the mall on top of driving around with Ronald.
It was now 2am. Lacy was exhausted even after his long nap. He was in bed now scrolling through TikTok before he closed out and opened his saved nap recording. Marlon’s dumbass really thought he deleted the video.
He wondered what he was hiding so badly that he had to practically break his arm to over it.
Lacy scrolled to the last few minutes of the recording seeing Marlon over him like he had vaguely remembered. He then went back to when Marlon apparently showed up.
He was knelt …looking at Lacy probably getting ready to attack him.
Weirdo
Lacy chuckled then scrolled back attempting to observe his sleep but
Wait shouldn’t Marlon have walked in by now? It’s been like 5 minutes
I thought he said he’d just showed up?
Lacy dragged the video back even further and further as he saw Marlon in the frame in the same position ….staring
Just staring
What the fuck….
20 minutes? Of Marlon just… staring at him?
He zoomed in at one of the frames.
Marlon was running his fingers through Lacy’s hair… Why was he going so slowly? And was he caressing his cheeks just now?!
Holy shit….
Lacy was stunned he didn’t know what to make of this and the way Marlon was acting earlier didn’t help how weird this all felt.
No way….
Lacy shook his head, throwing his phone on the bed and widened his eyes to think straight before burying his face into his hands, cursing under his breath.
“There’s no fucking way bro….”
Lacy left his phone in the position it got mindlessly thrown and dropped down to his pillow facing the ceiling.
Does Marlon have….a crush on me?