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I feel this emptiness in my heart, and no one can hear it, I feel this pain in my guts, and no one can see it.
Because I miss you so much but I can handle living, because if I stop that means you will stop existing, and I cannot make you stop.
I look at the sky and I miss you, because I know heaven was never your home.
I look at the ground and I cry because I know you aren't there anymore.
I have this hole in my chest because I couldn't say everything I would love to express.
Because I loved you, and I love you more now that I know you are not here anymore.
I was scared to lose you, I was so scared to ruin everything that I preferred to shut the door of my soul and be the perfect man that I was always meant to be, losing not only you but myself behind the mask that the world built for me.
Because the perfect soldier can't have feelings, the perfect soldier doesn't cry, the perfect soldier doesn't love. And, the most important part, the perfect soldier doesn't love you.
I hope I can meet you again someday, when the sun stops shining for me and the world stops looking at me.
I hope I can see you again, when the bugs eat my body, my flesh, and my blood waters the flowers around my grave.
I hope you hope to look at me one more time and let me say all the things I'm thinking now.
Because if you refuse, then I will die.