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1. The Hands That Hit, Hurt and Love by LonyGohan

   Fandoms: Neon Genesis Evangelion  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • F/F, F/M, Multi
   • Work in Progress

   04 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Ayanami Rei/Ikari Shinji
   • noothershipspoiler
   • Ikari Shinji
   • Ikari Yui
   • Ikari Gendou
   • Ayanami Rei
   • Lilith (Evangelion)
   • Nagisa Kaworu
   • Adam (Evangelion)
   • Horaki Hikari
   • Suzuhara Touji
   • Suzuhara Sakura
   • Yamagishi Mayumi
   • Kirishima Mana
   • Souryuu Asuka Langley
   • Katsuragi Misato
   • Kaji Ryouji
   • Kaji Ryouji's Brother
   • Kaji Ren
   • Aida Kensuke
   • Romance
   • Bullying
   • Mystery
   • Not all characters are marked.

   Summary

   I'm sorry to say goodbye, I'm fading away, turning to ashes, falling upon this world. Your desire is inside me, -----. But I wanted so much to be with you, I wanted to see you, to show you what you taught me. Why is this so unfair, -----?

   ...

   What would you do if you could have a second chance? What if you could see all those you loved once again? You will also feel the warmth of their hands, you will feel cold and hurt others once again.

   But this desire does not come for free.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   20,374

   Chapters:

   2/?

   Comments:

   6

   Kudos:

   4

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