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The thing about Reki Kyan was that he didn't do anything halfway.

This was true of skating, obviously— the way he attacked a ramp like it owed him money, the way he'd rebuild a board three times over just to get the weight distribution right, the way he'd stay up until two in the morning watching footage of his own runs and muttering corrections under his breath like he was arguing with himself. It was true of his friendships, his enthusiasm, his opinions on whether pineapple belonged on pizza (it did not, he would die on this hill, he had in fact nearly gotten into a fistfight about it at a convenience store once). It was true of the way he ate, slept, laughed, complained, apologized, and celebrated.

So it probably shouldn't have surprised anyone that when Reki Kyan decided to care about someone, he didn't do that halfway too.

He just hadn't noticed he'd done it yet.

Hasegawa Langa had been in Japan for almost eight months when Shadow first pulled him aside.

It was a Tuesday— not a race night, just a regular session at S, a kind of loose and easy evening where people showed up to skate and hang around and talk trash about each other's technique. Langa had been watching Reki attempt a trick he'd been working on for three weeks, the kind of thing where he'd get the first half perfect and then lose it on the landing, over and over and over, with exactly the same infuriating consistency. Reki would dust himself off, roll back to the start, and do it again. Every single time. Like he was convinced that the universe would eventually run out of ways to make him fall and he just had to outlast it.

Langa had been counting. Seventeen attempts. He was on his eighteenth.

"You." Shadow appeared at his shoulder like a very large, very imposing...well...shadow. He was wearing more eyeliner than usual, which Langa had come to understand meant he was in a serious mood.

"We need to talk.", he said.

Langa looked at him. Then back at Reki, who was setting up for attempt number eighteen. "Now?"

"Now."

Langa looked at Reki one more time— just to make sure he was okay, just to mark his position, just....because— and then followed Shadow around the corner of the concrete structure, out of the direct sightline of the ramp.

Shadow crossed his arms. In the ambient light of S, he looked approximately as intimidating as a man covered in rose-themed accessories could look, which was, Langa had learned, actually quite intimidating.

"I'm going to say this once," Shadow said. "Because I am a man of few words—"

From somewhere behind them, they could both hear Reki slam the landing and whoop loudly. Eighteen attempts. He'd gotten it.

Langa's entire face did something that he was not fully in control of.

Shadow stared at him.

"As I was saying," Shadow said, with slightly more intensity. "I'm going to say this once. Reki is— he's one of the good ones, alright? He's annoying and he talks too much and his fashion sense is a crime, but he-he's a good kid."

"Yes," Langa agreed. This wasn't news.

"And I've been coming to S for five years. I've watched a lot of people come through here. And I've watched the way things go when someone—when someone doesn't— y'know what look." Shadow uncrossed his arms and then crossed them again differently, like he was struggling to find the right configuration for this conversation. "I'm just saying. If you hurt him, there will not be enough of you left to bury."

Langa considered this for a moment. "I won't hurt him," he said. And then, because it seemed important to be precise "I don't want to hurt him. I wouldn't."

Shadow studied him for a long moment with the focused intensity of a man who had seen a lot of people lie to his face and had developed a good sense for it.

"Good," he said finally. He unfolded his arms. "Good. Make sure it stays that way."

He walked off.

Langa stood there for a second, slightly confused in the specific way he often felt at S, where conversations seemed to be about seventeen things at once and he was only catching maybe four of them. Then Reki came skidding around the corner, board under his arm, breathing hard and grinning in a way that used up his whole face.

"Did you see that? Did you see that? I finally got the back foot placement right, I've been— Langa, are you even listening, I'm having a moment here and—"

"I saw," Langa said. "Attempt eighteen."

Reki blinked. "You were counting?"

"You were counting too. I could tell."

There was a pause. Reki's grin went soft at the edges, less performance and more real, like he forgot to manage it.

"Yeah," he said. "Yeah, I was." He bumped Langa's shoulder with his own. "Okay, let's go again. I want to try it three more times to make sure it sticks."

Langa followed him.

Behind them, from somewhere in the distance, Shadow watched and thought about how obvious it was. How completely, painfully obvious. He shook his head and went to find someone else to threaten on principle.

The thing is, it was obvious from the beginning.

Kojiro had placed the bet in month two. Cherry had refused to participate on the grounds that betting on people's emotional lives was crass and undignified, and then in month three had quietly placed his own bet with someone else because Kojiro was being too smug about it. When Kojiro found out— because he always found out, he had an infuriating sixth sense for Cherry specifically, Cherry found this invasive and refused to examine why— he'd laughed for approximately forty-five seconds straight, which Cherry had endured cus had been enduring Kojiro for twenty-plus years and had developed extraordinary coping mechanisms.

"You said it was undignified," Kojiro said.

"I said your bet was undignified. Mine is an exercise in applied behavioral prediction."

"That's the same thing."

"It is categorically not the same thing. Mine has methodology."

"Your methodology is a spreadsheet you made at two in the morning."

"That is what methodology looks like, yes."

Kojiro stared at him. "You made a spreadsheet."

"Variables require tracking."

"Cherry."

"The Reki coefficient alone has three sub-columns—"

"Kaoru."

"What."

"You made a spreadsheet," Kojiro said, "about two teenagers figuring out they like each other."

A pause.

"It's a small spreadsheet," Cherry said, turning his face in embarrassment.

Kojiro put his face in his hands. His shoulders were shaking. Cherry watched this with the dignified patience of a man who had decided some time ago that the correct response to Kojiro laughing at him was to simply wait it out, like a weather event.

"Are you finished," Cherry said.

"Give me a second."

"Take your time."

Kojiro surfaced, eyes bright, grinning. "Okay. Okay. What's the bet?"

The bet was simple: when would they figure it out?

Joe said month six. Cherry said month ten. He had, he explained, factored in what he referred to as "the Reki coefficient," which was his term for the variable introduced by Reki's extraordinary capacity for emotional obliviousness about himself specifically. (About others, Reki was remarkably perceptive. About himself, he was operating at a consistent three-to-six month delay. This was documented of course. Cherry had the spreadsheet.)

"You're being uncharitable," Joe said.

"I'm being accurate," Cherry said.

"Those are not mutually exclusive."

"Thank you, I know."

Kojiro looked at him for a moment with the expression he reserved for when Cherry was being technically correct in the most annoying possible way, which was an expression he'd had a lot of practice making. "And Langa?"

"Langa," Cherry said, "is a different problem. Langa is not oblivious. Langa simply hasn't finished translating yet."

"Translating?"

"Well yeah, He receives information, processes it, files it somewhere, and retrieves it three weeks later fully formed. It's actually quite..." Cherry paused. "...methodical."

"You like him," Kojiro said, delighted.

"I think he's an interesting skater."

"You like him. You respect him. You think he's got good fundamentals and a surprisingly elegant processing style and you're not going to say any of that out loud—"

"I will close the spreadsheet," Cherry said. "I will close it and I will never open it again and you will lose your bet and have no one to blame but yourself."

"You wouldn't."

"Try me."

Kojiro grinned. Cherry wouldnt close the spreadsheet, because they both knew he wasn't going to.

"Month ten," Cherry repeated. "Final answer."

"You're going to be so wrong."

"Document it in writing so I can reference it when I'm right."

"I love you," Kojiro said, which he said so casually, knowing it would make Cherry lose his train of thought.

It worked. Cherry's expression changed. "That's not—" He stopped to reset. "Month ten. Write it down."

Kojiro was already writing it down, still smiling.

Miya, who had overheard this entire conversation while pretending to look at his phone, put in for month nine just to mess with both of them and also because he thought Cherry was lowballing it.

The rumors, if you wanted to call them that, had started almost immediately. This was the natural consequence of how Reki and Langa simply were with each other, which was— a lot. They arrived together. They left together. During races, Reki stood at the rail and shouted Langa's name with a fervor that most people reserved for sporting events they had a financial stake in. After races, Langa came off the course and immediately found Reki.

Langa held Reki's boards. Reki fixed things on Langa's boards without being asked because he could tell just by looking whether something was off. When Reki was cold, which was apparently a lot despite having grown up in Okinawa, though it was worth noting that Okinawa in November quite cold, Langa gave him his jacket. When Reki was frustrated, which was more often than it should have been given how talented he was, Langa sat next to him and said very little, which was exactly right.

They shared food. They argued about everything. They laughed at each other's terrible jokes with guilty enthusiasm knowing full well the jokes were bad and found that genuinely funny.

So yes. The rumors, if you wanted to call them that, or more accurately, the assumption.

Nobody had quite had the conversation explicitly. It was more that the collective understanding of S had simply shifted at some point, the way a crowd shifts its weight without discussing it, and somewhere in month three or four the baseline assumption had become: yeah, those two.

It was a Wednesday in early December when it happened, or more precisely, when Miya Chinen, age fourteen, current holder of the title of Most Emotionally Intelligent Person at S, a title he was deeply tired of holding, said the thing that detonated everything.

They'd been standing around after a race— Langa had won, Reki had been loudly and enthusiastically right about a wheel adjustment he'd suggested before the race, and now there was the usual post-race decompress happening, everyone half-still on the adrenaline, the night warm and buzzing with activity.

Miya had been minding his own business, which in his case meant standing slightly apart from everyone else and scrolling his phone. He'd been answering a question from one of the younger S regulars, a kid named Takuma who was maybe thirteen and completely starstruck every time Miya acknowledged his existence, which Miya found exhausting and secretly, very secretly, a little bit touching.

Takuma had asked about Langa's technique in the race and whether it was true that Langa had come from a snowboarding background and what that meant for his style, and Miya had answered this with more detail than was strictly necessary because it was actually interesting. And then Takuma, with the fearless directness of the very young, had said:

"Is it true Langa-san is dating the redhead guy?"

Miya had looked up from his phone.

Reki, who was approximately four feet away, turned slightly toward them but clearly mid-conversation with Shadow about something else. Whether he'd heard was unclear.

Langa was maybe ten feet away, talking to Joe, and had definitely not heard.

Miya weighed his options.

He could say: I don't know, mind your own business.

Maybe he could say: Probably, yeah— which was his actual opinion.

Or he could say: Ask them yourself— which would be chaos.

What he actually said, because he was fourteen and tired and a little bit done with the collective obliviousness of everyone involved, was

"Reki's boyfriend?" A pause for clarification. "Practically. Yeah."

Takuma nodded like this was useful information and went away satisfied.

Miya looked up.

Reki was staring at him.

His face had gone the same color as his hair.

Miya met his eyes. Did not look away. Made a face that basically said: you heard that and you know I'm right.

Reki made a face back that was completely unreadable but seemed to involve at least four different emotions happening at the same time.

Then Langa appeared at Reki's shoulder and said something quiet to him, and Reki turned and said something back with a laugh that was maybe five percent more strained than his usual laugh, and Langa looked at him for just a second longer than he needed to and then let it go.

Miya went back to his phone.

And so it began.

Over the next two weeks, Reki was strange.

Langa noticed this, the way he noticed most things about Reki, which was completely and immediately. Reki acted a lot more animated than most people, there was always something happening on his face, always some slight readable shift in how he was moving through space, and Langa had become fluent in Reki. Like the way you became fluent in something when you were genuinely paying attention. So the strangeness registered immediately

It wasn't that Reki was pulling away, exactly. He still showed up. He still fixed Langa's boards and made him try food he'd never heard of and dragged him to spots around Okinawa on his days off, still argued with him about technique and movies and whether the color blue was better described as cool or calm (Langa said calm; Reki said cool; neither of them could explain why they both cared so much about this). He still texted Langa forty-seven times a day and called him a dumbass every time Langa laughed at his own jokes.

But there was a new deliberateness to how Reki managed his own proximity. A small measurable, intentional space he was putting there. The way you'd see him almost reach for Langa's board and then not. The way his shoulder would start to press against Langa's on the rail and then pull back slightly, as if he'd caught himself.

It was making Langa feel strange in a way he couldn't quite place.

He ran it past Joe first, because Joe was right there and seemed like the kind of person who understood these things. "Is Reki okay?" he asked.

Joe gave him a look. "Did something happen?"

"I don't know. He's being different."

"Different how?"

Langa tried to explain it. Joe listened with an expression that progressed from neutral to interested to something that looked like it was trying very hard not to become a smile and only partially succeeding.

"My advice," Joe said, "talk to him."

"About what?"

"About what's different."

"I don't know what's different. That's the problem."

"Langa."

"Yes."

Joe looked at him for a moment with the patient intensity of a man who wanted very badly to say something and was physically restraining himself from saying it. "You know how sometimes you're looking for something and it turns out it's been in your hand the whole time?"

Langa considered this. "Yes."

"Great." Joe clapped him on the shoulder. "Think about that."

"That doesn't tell me anything."

"Sure it does."

"It doesn't. You said a thing that sounds meaningful but has no—"

"You'll figure it out," Joe said, and walked away at a pace that suggested he was trying very hard not to laugh.

This was unhelpful.

Langa tried Cherry next.

He found him at the edge of the course, watching a run with his arms folded and his tablet tucked under one elbow. Kojiro was next to him, close enough that their shoulders were nearly touching, apparently doing a very poor job of pretending he was watching the run rather than watching Cherry watch the run. Cherry had, by all appearances, decided not to notice this, which was either dignified or the result of so much practice it had become automatic. Possibly both.

Cherry heard Langa out with the focused and slightly pained attention of a man who had made a bet and now had insider information that felt morally complicated. He was quiet for a moment after Langa finished.

Kojiro, who had also been listening, said: "Oh, this is good."

"Don't," Cherry said.

"I'm just saying, the fact that he came to you specifically..."

"Kojiro."

"...of all people..."

"I will take your portion of the winnings and donate it to a cause you hate."

"You don't know what I hate."

"I know exactly what you hate."

That made him pause. Kojiro, who also knew that Cherry knew exactly what he hated, conceded this with a slight tilt of his head.

Langa looked between them, carefully paying attention to try to read a sign in a language he only half spoke. "Should I come back?"

"No," Cherry said, trying to wrestle control of a situation from its natural chaos. He turned to Langa fully. "My advice is to think carefully about what Reki means to you."

"He's my best friend," Langa said.

Cherry closed his eyes briefly. "Yes. Is he anything else?"

Langa opened his mouth. Closed it. "What does that mean?"

"It means," Cherry said, "that sometimes the words we use for things are not quite—" He paused. Reorganized. "Sometimes we call something one thing when it has in fact been something else for quite a long time and we simply haven't—"

Behind Kaoru, visible over his shoulder, Kojiro was doing something with his face that seemed to be a very focused attempt not to say anything. He was failing. The not-saying-anything was visible from several meters away.

"Go ahead," Cherry said without turning around.

"I didn't say anything," Kojiro said.

"You were about to."

"I was being supportive."

"You were about to make a comparison."

"I was about to make a very apt and relevant comparison."

"To us."

"It would have been helpful."

"It would have been insufferable."

"Those aren't mutually exclusive," Kojiro said, quoting someone back at themselves.

Kaoru turned around.

Kojiro smiled at him. It was the specific smile he used when he knew he'd landed something, warm and entirely too pleased with himself. Cherry looked at it for a moment with the expression of a man who had been making the same mistake for twenty years and had fully accepted that he would continue making it.

"Langa," Cherry said, turning back.

"Yes."

"I can't help you. I'm sorry. I'm too close to the situation."

"What situation?"

Cherry's expression said, 'the situation of watching two people be exactly as oblivious as Kojiro and I were and finding it much less funny now that I'm on the other side of it.'

His mouth said, "Go talk to Miya."

Miya was sitting on top of a concrete barrier at the edge of S, eating a convenience store onigiri, when Langa sat down next to him.

They'd known each other long enough that silence between them wasn't awkward. Miya ate his onigiri. Langa watched the skaters below. Two minutes passed.

"Did I do something wrong?" Langa asked. "To Reki."

Miya chewed, then swallowed and looked at him.

"What makes you ask?"

"He's being different. I asked Joe and Cherry and they both said to talk to you."

Miya considered the fact that he had been unanimously nominated as the person to have this conversation and decided this was the universe's way of telling him that being emotionally perceptive was a curse.

"He's embarrassed," Miya said.

"About what?"

"About you."

Langa frowned. "What did I do?"

"Nothing." Miya looked at him with a flat patience that had already done the emotional labor once before and was not looking forward to doing it again. "He's embarrassed about you. About how much he— about how he is with you."

Langa turned this over. "How is he with me?"

Miya put down his onigiri.

"Okay," he said. "I'm going to say this slowly because I need you to actually hear me and not do that thing where you nod and then ask a follow-up question that proves you missed the point."

"I don't do that."

"You do it constantly."

Langa made a face but didn't argue.

"A few weeks ago," Miya said, "someone asked if you two were dating. I said basically yes. Reki heard me. He's been weird since then. Are you following so far?"

Langa nodded.

"Why do you think he's been weird since then?"

"I don't know."

"Think harder."

Langa thought. Miya watched him think. He could see the moment it started to land, a slight change in how Langa was holding his face, a stillness that was different from his usual stillness.

"Because..." Langa started.

"Because?" Miya prompted.

"Because it wasn't true. And he was embarrassed that someone thought—"

He stopped.

"Keep going," Miya said.

Silence.

"Or," Langa said slowly. "Because it was true. And he was embarrassed that someone—" He stopped again. His expression had gone somewhere Miya couldn't quite read. "That someone knew."

Miya picked up his onigiri again.

"There you go," he said.

A very long pause.

"Oh," Langa said.

"Yeah."

"Oh." Another pause. Longer this time. "That's..."

"Yeah."

Langa was quiet for a moment. Then, "Is that what I want?"

Miya stared at him. "Is that what you want."

"I'm asking."

"I can't answer that for you."

"I know. I'm just—" Langa pressed his mouth together. He was looking at his own hands, which were resting on his knees. Something was happening on his face that Miya recognized as the expression of someone rearranging a very large amount of information all at once. "I think it might be."

"You think."

"I think it is. Yes." He said it more definitely. "Yes."

Miya ate the last of his onigiri. Crumpled the wrapper. "Cool," he said. "So go talk to him."

"Now?"

"Not now. He's mid-race." Miya jumped down from the barrier. "But soon. Because the two of you are driving the entire population of S insane and I'm not exaggerating when I say that if you don't figure this out, I'm going to quit coming here on principle."

Langa looked at him. "Would you actually?"

"No." Miya didn't look back. "But the threat stands."

He waited until the following night.

Not at S, it felt too public, too chaotic, too many moving pieces. He knew where Reki would be, because Reki always followed the same pattern after a bad session: went home, ate something, slept like a log, and ended up in the garage. The garage was Reki's real habitat. His family's house had a small converted space behind it, barely big enough for two people and a workbench, with the particular smell of grip tape and lacquer and something indefinably Reki about it. Langa had spent more hours in that garage than he could count.

He texted first. Can I come over?

Reki's reply came fast: Yeah, I'm in the garage.

Of course he was.

Langa let himself through the side gate the way he always did and knocked twice on the garage door before pushing it open.

Reki was at the workbench, bent over a deck he'd been reshaping for the last month, sandpaper in hand. He was wearing an old hoodie with the sleeves pushed up and there was a smear of something along his jaw. He looked up when Langa came in and gave him the quick version of the smile— the real one, not the performed one, the one that only came out when he wasn't managing it.

"Hey," he said.

"Hey."

Langa came and sat on the stool at the end of the workbench, the one he'd claimed by proximity over many months. Reki went back to sanding. The sound of it was familiar, a little rhythmic, good company.

They were quiet for a minute.

"Bad race?" Langa asked.

"Meh." Reki kept sanding. "Couldn't get out of my head. You know how it is."

"Yeah."

Another minute. The sandpaper moved in small circles. Outside, a car went past.

"Reki," Langa said.

"Mm."

"I talked to Miya."

The sandpaper stopped.

Reki didn't look up. He was still looking at the board, head bent, but the quality of his stillness had changed, it had gone taut, like a string drawn tight.

"Cool," he said. His voice was about two notes higher than normal, which was Reki for I am not even slightly cool with this.

"He told me about what happened. What he said......what you heard."

Reki put the sandpaper down. He still didn't look up. "Okay," he said, which meant nothing.

"You've been weird since then."

"I haven't been weird."

"You have."

A pause. "Okay, maybe a little."

Langa looked at him. The line of his shoulders, the way he was braced, like he was waiting for something. Like he was trying to make himself smaller than he was, which was a trick Reki had never been able to pull off because Reki was not a small-energy person in any version of reality.

"I looked up the word," Langa said. "The one Miya used."

Reki finally looked up. His eyes were very wide. "Which— you mean—"

"Boyfriend." Langa said it in Japanese, careful with the pronunciation. "I know what it means."

Something moved across Reki's face that he didn't have time to manage. "Langa—"

"I looked it up because I wanted to understand what Miya said. And when I understood what it meant—" Langa paused. He was not good at this in English. He was even less good at it in Japanese. But he had decided, on the walk over, that he was going to say it out loud, because Reki had spent two weeks being carefully small and that wasn't right, that was the opposite of right, and if Langa could fix it by just saying the thing, then he was going to say the thing. "I didn't think they were wrong."

Silence.

Reki's mouth was open slightly. He looked like he'd been hit by something medium-sized and was still deciding if he was hurt.

"What?" he said.

"I didn't think Miya was wrong," Langa said. "When he said it."

"He said—"

"I know what he said."

"Langa—" Reki pressed his hands flat on the workbench. He was doing the thing where he was about to talk himself out of something, Langa could see it happening in real time, the gathering of qualifications and reasonable objections. "I mean— he was just— it was a joke, sort of, and I think he was trying to be—"

"Reki."

"—funny, or something, and anyway it doesn't matter what he—"

"Reki." Langa waited until Reki stopped talking and met his eyes. "I'm not saying what Miya said. I'm saying what I think."

Reki stared at him.

The garage was very quiet. The fluorescent light above the workbench buzzed, slightly irregular.

"You think," Reki said.

"Yes."

"You think that we're— that I'm your—"

"I think," Langa said, "that every time you're happy about something I want to be the person there when it happens. I think when you're not okay I want to sit next to you until you are. I think—" he paused, reaching for it, "—I don't know how to be places you're not. I didn't know that about myself before I knew you."

Reki had gone very still.

His face was doing approximately seven things at once, which was unusual even for Reki, who was not a man of simple facial expressions. Langa watched and waited for Reki's response.

"That's," Reki started. Stopped. And started again. "That's the most you've ever said to me at one time."

"I know."

"You hate talking about feelings."

"Yes."

"You said like six whole sentences."

"I know."

A pause.

"I dropped my sandpaper," Reki said.

Langa looked down. The sandpaper was on the floor. He bent and picked it up and put it on the workbench between them.

Reki looked at it. Then back at Langa.

'

"I have been weird," he said.

"Yep."

"Because Miya said it and I thought—I thought you'd heard, and I thought—" He exhaled. Ran a hand through his hair. "I thought if you'd heard and it was weird to you, you'd bring it up and say it wasn't true and it would be fine and I'd just have to— you know. Deal with it."

"Deal with what?"

"The feelings...y'know" Reki made a vague and frustrated gesture. "The— I've been kind of— for a while, I've been kind of—"

"Ok, me too," Langa said.

Reki looked at him. "Yeah?"

"Yeah." A pause. "For a while."

"How long?"

Langa thought about Reki on the ramp the first night he'd ever seen him, all that kinetic chaotic energy, doing something he loved with his whole body. He thought about the garage, about convenicene store runs at midnight, about a hundred ordinary nights that had compounded into something he couldn't measure. "I don't know when it started," he said. "I just know it's there now and it was there before I noticed it."

Reki made a sound that was something between a laugh and an exhale. "Yeah. Same." He rubbed the back of his neck. "Okay. Wow. Okay."

"Okay?"

"I'm just—" Reki laughed again, properly this time, slightly helpless. "I'm just thinking. Give me a second."

Langa gave him a second.

Then he gave him a few more, because Reki was worth them.

When Reki looked back up, the smile was different. His eyes were a little bright.

"Langa," he said.

"Yeah."

"I really like you."

"I know," Langa said. "I really like you too."

Reki laughed. "You're supposed to say it differently. You're supposed to—"

"I like you and I don't want to be places you're not," Langa said. "That's how I say it."

A pause.

"Okay," Reki said, soft. "Okay, yeah. That's—" He exhaled. "Yeah. That works."

They were quiet for a moment. The fluorescent light above them buzzed. Outside, another car went past and then it was just the two of them in the garage with the smell of grip tape and lacquer and the workbench between them.

Langa reached across the workbench and put his hand over Reki's.

Reki looked down at it. Then up at Langa. Then he turned his hand over and held on.

They stayed like that for a while. It wasn't dramatic. There was no music, no backdrop, no particular lighting. Just the two of them in a small garage in Okinawa with a half-finished board between them and their hands in the same space, which was somehow exactly the right amount.

"This is embarrassing," Reki said eventually.

"Why?"

"Because I've been weird about this for two weeks and then you just came over and said it."

"You would have said it eventually."

"Would I?"

"Yes." Langa thought about it. "Maybe by month ten."

Reki made an offended noise. "Month ten! I'm not that—" He stopped. "Okay maybe month ten."

Langa didn't laugh, which was almost the same as laughing.

"Rude," Reki said. But he was smiling.

They showed up together, which they always did.

Reki was carrying both boards because he always did, because he liked holding things, and Langa was two steps to his left, which was where he always was. They were arguing about the traction of Reki's new wheels configuration and whether it was better suited to the main course or the side tracj, which they were always arguing about.

Nobody at S paid much attention to this. They'd seen it a hundred times.

What nobody had seen before was the way Reki reached over mid-argument and grabbed Langa's hand, not looking at him, still talking about wheels, just taking it. Casual, confident. Like it was something he'd already done a thousand times and just happened to be doing it outside voice.

Langa didn't break stride either. He held on.

They kept arguing about wheels.

Silence rippled out from them like a stone dropped in water. One person noticed. Then the person next to them noticed. Then the person next to that person. Within about forty-five seconds the group around the entrance to S had gone from normal ambient noise to a very specific charged quiet, the kind that happens when a large group of people are all pretending very hard not to look at something.

Reki didn't notice, because he was talking about wheels.

Langa noticed, because he noticed most things, but he looked at the side of Reki's face and decided he didn't mind.

Somewhere on the upper level, Miya observed this from behind a concrete pillar with the satisfaction of someone who had been waiting for a very specific thing to happen and had finally watched it happen.

He pulled out his phone and texted Cherry: month 8.5, pay up.

Cherry replied: I'm aware. I can see them.

And then, two seconds later: Don't say I told you so.

Miya typed back: I'm not saying anything.

Cherry: You're saying it in your head.

Cherry: I can tell.

Joe texted into the group approximately four seconds later: FINALLY

And then: I had month 6 so technically

                  I want the money

                 Kaoru pay up

Cherry: You were four months off, Kojiro, I don't see how you think–

Joe: I was CLOSER

Cherry: Proximity to correct is not the same as correct

Joe: that is SUCH a you thing to say

Cherry: I'm going to mute this conversation.

Joe: no you're not

Cherry: No I'm not.

Joe: 🥳🥳🥳🎉🎉🎊🎊🎊🥳🥳

Miya stared at this exchange for a moment, then put his phone away like closing a window they'd accidentally opened onto something they hadn't needed to see.

Below, Reki had apparently made his point about wheels because he was holding his board up triumphantly and Langa was giving him the blank look that meant he agreed but wasn't going to say so yet. Their hands were still together. They were still talking. Everything was exactly the same and completely different.

Miya dropped off the pillar and went to get ready for his race.

Shadow found Langa at the starting line an hour later.

Langa was gearing up, focused, running through the course in his head the way he always did before a race, you could tell by the slight distance in his eyes, the way he went somewhere else while still being physically present.

"I see things have progressed," Shadow said.

Langa looked at him. "Yes."

Shadow was quiet for a moment. Then, gruffly: "Good."

"Thank you," Langa said. "For the conversation. Before."

Shadow blinked. "I— that was months ago."

"I know. But you were the first person who helped..I guess—I think it helped. Even if I didn't understand all of it at the time."

Shadow looked like he didn't know what to do with this information. His face cycled through several expressions before landing on something that he was clearly trying to make look stern but wasn't really succeeding at. "Right," he said. "Well. Just—" He gathered himself. "Don't make me regret it."

"I won't," Langa said.

Shadow walked away. He may or may not have been slightly more upright than usual, a little lighter in the step. Nobody needed to know about that.

Reki was at the rail when Langa started his run.

He was always at the rail when Langa started his races. This wasn't new though. What was new was the way, when Langa crested the first big drop and executed a clean one-eighty that drew genuine noise from the crowd, Reki turned to the person next to him, a skater named Hiro who'd been coming to S for about a month, and said without any particular self-consciousness:

"That's my boyfriend."

Hiro looked at him. Looked at the course. "Oh, nice," he said. "He's really good."

"Yeah," Reki said. "I know."

He watched Langa through the whole race, start to finish, the way he always did, his hands on the rail and his eyes tracking every movement and his mouth doing the thing where it moved slightly like he was calling out instructions or encouragements under his breath, which he was, which he always was. The race was clean and precise and also Langa had added something new at the end— a small unexpected flourish on the final turn, showy in the quiet way that Langa did showy, like the skating equivalent of a raised eyebrow.

Langa came off the course, pulled up his board, and walked directly to where Reki was standing.

"The ending," Reki said immediately. "Was that new?"

"Yes."

"When did you add that?"

"This week. Did it work?"

"It absolutely worked, you infuriating—" Reki was already grinning. "Yeah. It worked."

"I was worried about the back edge."

"It was perfect."

Langa relaxed in the specific way he only relaxed when Reki said something was good — like the last thing he needed to know had been confirmed and now he could let the whole thing settle.

"Good," he said.

Reki shook his head, still grinning. "Dumbass," he said, which was how Reki said I'm proud of you, which Langa knew.

Around them, S did what it always did: moved and shouted and crashed and laughed, its own ecosystem, its own small world. The lights were out across the course. Somewhere up on the barriers, Miya was preparing for his own run. Somewhere nearby, Joe and Cherry were having the same argument they'd been having for years, comfortable as old furniture. Shadow was intimidating some newcomer for what were probably good reasons.

Reki reached out and fixed something on Langa's gear— just a small thing, a strap, automatic. His hands were quick and certain.

Langa watched him do it.

"What?" Reki asked without looking up.

"Nothing," Langa said.

"You're staring."

"I know."

Reki looked up then. His face was close, still focused on the gear, but now he was looking at Langa, and the closeness was just... present and easy . His eyes were warm.

"Dumbass," he said again, softer.

"Yeah," Langa agreed.

Later, much later, after the night had wound down and the crowd had thinned and S was doing its slow exhale into quiet, they left together, boards under their arms, talking about nothing in particular. The street was cool and mostly empty. Their footsteps were easy in the dark.

Reki was telling a story about something that had happened at school that week, some disagreement about a group project, already laughing at his own retelling. Langa walked next to him and listened and said things at the right moments and felt— not for the first time, but maybe more consciously than usual — the particular quality of what this was.

It wasn't dramatic. It didn't feel like something new so much as something that had finally caught up with itself, a word finally matched to a feeling that had existed for a long time before it had a name. Reki was talking. The night was cool. Their shoulders were close.

Langa reached over and took Reki's hand again.

Reki, mid-sentence, glanced down. Then up. Then kept talking.

He held on.

They walked home together.

Obviously.