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Vivian Dearden had learned, over the years, to treat long-haul flights like liminal spaces—necessary, vaguely uncomfortable, best endured rather than experienced.
She had her routine down to a science. Noise-cancelling headphones on before boarding finished. Laptop out, emails cleared. Phone on airplane mode but face-up, just in case. A bottle of water, untouched until they were airborne. A window seat every time, same posture, same mental checklist.
Professional. Composed. In control.
Which was why the dull, unfamiliar twist in her stomach caught her off guard.
It wasn’t pain, exactly. More like a quiet objection. A low-grade unease that flared briefly as she shifted in her seat and then settled again, easy to ignore.
Vivian frowned at it for half a second before mentally filing it under travel nonsense and returning her attention to her inbox.
Across the aisle, George Russell was already half-turned toward her, one long leg stretched out, hoodie sleeves pushed up. He looked irritatingly relaxed, as if transatlantic flights were a mild inconvenience rather than a logistical ordeal.
“You’re not eating?” he asked, nodding at the untouched tray on her fold-out table.
Vivian glanced down at it. Chicken or pasta or both, she couldn’t tell. Honestly she wasn’t sure if she wanted to tell.
The smell made her stomach roll—not violently but just enough to make her lips press together.
“I am eating,” she said lightly. “I’m just… emotionally preparing.”
George huffed a laugh. “You’ve been emotionally preparing for twenty minutes.”
She raised an eyebrow. “Have you seen airline food lately?”
“Hey,” he said, mock-offended. “This is premium. Very exclusive. Very—”
“—microwaved,” she finished. “Aggressively.”
He grinned, and for a moment she forgot about the nausea entirely. That happened more often than she liked.
George Russell smiled, and Vivan Dearden forgot what she was supposed to be doing.
Or her own name.
Both had happened.
Vivian picked up her fork, stabbed at the tray half-heartedly, then set it down again. The smell hadn’t improved. If anything, it had actively gotten worse.
“Suit yourself,” George said. “More for me.”
He didn’t actually eat it either, but that was beside the point.
Vivian reached into her bag, fingers moving automatically, and popped an antacid from the familiar foil pack. She swallowed it dry, subtle enough that she doubted he noticed.
Still, she felt his eyes on her a second later.
“Everything okay?” he asked, quieter now.
“Yeah,” she said instantly. Too quickly. “Just travel stomach. You know.”
He nodded, accepting it, because George Russell was many things but invasive was not one of them. He turned back to his own tray, rummaging through his backpack a moment later.
“Do you want something else?” he asked. “I’ve got snacks. Proper ones.”
She smiled despite herself. “You say that like you’re about to reveal contraband.”
“I am,” he said solemnly, pulling out a granola bar like it was a prized possession. “Also biscuits. And those weird protein things Alex swears by.”
“That’s incredibly generous,” she said. “But I’m fine. Honestly.”
He studied her for a second longer than necessary, then shrugged. “Offer stands.”
She went back to her laptop, but the words blurred slightly on the screen. The antacid settled things a little, just enough that she could ignore it again. That was fine. Ignoring discomfort was something she was very good at.
She worked for another half hour before George leaned over again, holding out a paper cup.
“Careful,” he said. “Hot.”
Vivian blinked. “What?”
“Tea,” he clarified. “Well. Technically hot water and a tea bag, but still.”
She took it automatically, fingers wrapping around the warmth. “Thanks. I didn’t—”
She stopped.
The tea bag tag was tucked neatly against the rim. The lid was off. There was a small splash of milk already mixed in—just enough to cloud the water, not enough to drown the tea. No sugar. No sweetener.
Exactly how she took it.
Vivian stared at the cup.
George, oblivious to the minor internal earthquake he’d just caused, settled back into his seat. “They were doing drinks. Thought you might want one.”
Her heart kicked, sharp and sudden.
She had spent three years memorizing his world.
His interview schedule. His preferred phrasing. Which journalists needed firmer boundaries, which ones responded better to charm.
The subtle differences between his pre-qualifying nerves and his pre-race focus. The way he got quieter when he was stressed, the way he talked with his hands when he was excited.
She knew how he took his coffee. Black, no sugar, unless it was stupidly early, in which case he pretended to consider milk before rejecting it anyway.
Vivan knew George’s routines because it was her job.
George knew Vivian’s tea order because… because what?
Vivian forced herself to take a sip, partly to prove she could. The warmth settled pleasantly in her chest, a sharp contrast to the cold realization spreading everywhere else.
This was dangerous.
She laughed softly, hoping it sounded casual. “You remembered.”
He glanced at her, faintly puzzled. “Yeah. You always complain if it’s wrong.”
That was true. She did. Lightly. As a joke. Once or twice.
Apparently, it had stuck.
“Oh,” she said. “Right. Of course.”
There was something in his expression then—something searching, tentative. Like he was about to say more.
Vivian closed her laptop with a decisive click.
“I’m actually going to try to sleep,” she said, already reaching for her headphones. “Jet lag mitigation.”
“Already?” he asked.
“Already,” she confirmed. “Early start when we land.”
He nodded, respectful as always, and turned back to his own space. The moment passed. The air shifted back into something neutral, professional.
Vivian slid her headphones on, leaned her head against the window, and closed her eyes.
Her stomach twinged again, sharper this time, but she barely registered it.
All she could think about was the tea.
The milk. The lack of sugar.
The quiet, terrifying realization that somewhere along the line, George Russell had started memorizing her back.
She took a slow breath and did what she always did when something threatened to tip out of control.
She shut it down.
Emotion, attraction, whatever fragile thing had just flared to life—she folded it away neatly, locked it behind professionalism and habit and the unspoken rule she had lived by since the day she took the job.
Drivers were temporary. Careers were not.
The discomfort in her stomach lingered, unresolved.
So did the feeling in her chest.
Vivian ignored both.
***
Text Messages: George Russell & Alex Albon
Alex:
You look suspiciously cheerful for someone about to endure a ten hour flight.
George:
I am always cheerful.
Alex:
No. This is different cheerful.
This is “I’ve made eye contact with someone specific” cheerful.
George:
I don’t know what you’re implying.
Alex:
Oh, I think you do.
George:
I genuinely don’t.
Alex:
Vivian is sitting near you.
George:
She’s sitting next to me.
Alex:
Ah.
George:
She is my press officer. We are on the same team. Of course she’s near me.
Alex:
You didn’t answer the question.
George:
There wasn’t a question.
Alex:
You have a crush on her.
George:
I absolutely do not.
Alex:
George.
George:
Alexander.
Alex:
You do that thing.
George:
What thing.
Alex:
Where you pretend you don’t know what I’m talking about.
But your ears go red.
George:
My ears are not red.
Alex:
Did she just smile at you.
George:
Why are you monitoring my facial expressions via text.
Alex:
Because I know you.
And you get that stupid soft look when she talks to you.
George:
I do not have a “soft look.”
Alex:
You absolutely do.
It’s the same one you had in 2019 when that barista in Monaco spelled your name correctly.
George:
That was impressive penmanship.
Alex:
Sure.
George:
It’s irrelevant anyway.
Alex:
Oh this is good. Go on.
George:
She works for the team.
Alex:
Yes.
George:
I am the driver.
Alex:
Correct.
George:
It would be unprofessional.
Alex:
You’re acting like you’re planning to propose mid-debrief.
George:
I’m not planning anything.
Alex:
Except staring at her when she isn’t looking.
George:
I do not stare at her.
Alex:
You do.
Alex:
Does she know?
George:
No.
Alex:
Does she feel the same?
George:
I don’t know.
Alex:
But you hope she does.
George:
…
Alex:
Oh my God.
George:
It’s complicated.
Alex:
No it’s not. You like her.
You’ve liked her for months. Possibly longer.
You talk about her like she’s part of the engineering spec.
George:
That is not accurate.
Alex:
“Viv prefers early briefings structured with bullet points.”
“Viv doesn’t like when journalists interrupt.”
“Viv hasn’t eaten properly today, I think she’s stressed.”
You have memorized her.
George:
That’s called paying attention.
Alex:
It’s called being gone.
George:
It wouldn’t be fair to put her in that position.
Alex:
You mean tell her how you feel?
George:
Yes.
Alex:
So instead you’re going to pine quietly and hope she reads your mind?
George:
I’m not pining.
Alex:
You are absolutely pining.
George:
I am being respectful.
Alex:
You can be respectful and still tell her you like her, mate.
George:
It could make things awkward.
Alex:
You know what’s more awkward?
When someone else asks her out.
(George doesn’t reply for a full minute.)
Alex:
Ah. There it is.
George:
That’s not funny.
Alex:
It’s a little funny.
George:
It’s not.
Alex:
You’re jealous.
George:
I am not jealous.
Alex:
You’re typing very aggressively for someone not jealous.
George:
She deserves someone uncomplicated.
Alex:
You’re not that complicated.
George:
I drive a Formula One car for a living.
Alex:
Yes. And?
George:
And that tends to complicate things.
Alex:
You know what complicates things more?
Pretending you don’t care.
Alex:
Just saying.
If you don’t tell her, someone else eventually will.
Alex:
And I will absolutely say “I told you so.”
George:
You’re insufferable.
Alex:
And yet I’m right.
Alex:
Go on then.
Offer her one of your weird protein snacks.
Start there.
George:
She hates those.
Alex:
Exactly. You know that.
You’re doomed.
***
Qualifying days always carried a particular kind of electricity for George.
They were sharp-edged, tightly wound things—adrenaline braided with precision, every lap a negotiation between confidence and restraint. He liked that feeling. Lived for it, even. By the time he climbed out of the car after Q3, helmet coming off, pulse still humming in his ears, he already knew.
Pole.
It hit him in a rush—grins, claps on the shoulder, the brief chaos of mechanics and engineers converging. Someone whooped. Someone else told him it was a monster lap. George laughed, breathless, letting the joy settle into his bones.
And then, instinctively, his eyes searched for Vivian.
She was standing a little apart from the immediate frenzy, tablet tucked against her chest, already halfway into work mode. That was normal. Vivian always gave the celebrations space, swooping in only when the cameras demanded it.
What wasn’t normal was how still she looked.
Even from a distance, he could see it. The paleness beneath her makeup. The way her shoulders sloped forward, like she was conserving energy. She smiled when he caught her eye, lifting a hand in a small, congratulatory wave—but it didn’t quite reach her eyes.
George frowned, just slightly.
“Everything okay?” Kimi asked beside him, helmet still perched awkwardly under his arm.
“Yeah,” George said automatically, then hesitated. “I think so.”
Kimi followed his gaze with the blunt curiosity of someone who hadn’t yet learned to mind his own business. “Your press person looks… tired.”
George snorted. “That’s Vivian. She always looks tired on quali days.”
Kimi hummed, unconvinced. “She looks like she might fall over.”
George opened his mouth to argue—and then stopped.
Because Vivian, thinking no one was watching, shifted her weight and pressed her hand briefly to her stomach. Not dramatically. Just a small, instinctive movement. The kind you made when something hurt but you didn’t want to draw attention to it.
The knot in his chest tightened.
By the time the interviews were done and the garage had settled into its post-session rhythm, George made a point of drifting over to her.
Vivian was scrolling through her tablet, fingers moving quickly, but her movements were slower than usual. More deliberate. Like she was forcing herself to keep up.
“Hey,” he said gently. “You alright?”
She looked up, blinked once, then smiled. “Pole Position,” she said instead. “That lap was insane. You should be very pleased with yourself.”
“I am,” he admitted. “But that’s not what I asked.”
For a fraction of a second—so brief he almost missed it—her guard slipped. Something like surprise flickered across her face. Then it was gone, replaced with practiced ease.
“I’m fine,” she said. “Just… period cramps. Long travel, different time zones. You know how it is.”
George did know how it was. Enough to know when not to push.
“Oh,” he said immediately, stepping back half a pace. “Right. Sorry.”
She waved a hand. “Don’t be. I’m just being dramatic.”
But she wasn’t dramatic. Vivian Dearden was many things—efficient, sharp, quietly formidable—but dramatic was not one of them.
George nodded, letting the subject drop like a good, respectful adult. He turned back toward the garage, letting her return to her work.
Outwardly, that was the end of it.
Internally, it was anything but.
Because he knew that tone.
He’d heard it before—during media storms, during sponsor disputes, during moments when something was clearly wrong and Vivian decided it was better if nobody else carried the weight of it. She had a way of smoothing things over, of making problems sound smaller than they were. Of lying gently, convincingly, when the truth might cause worry.
She did it to protect people.
Including him.
George caught himself watching her over the next hour, pretending he wasn’t. She missed a cue during a debrief and had to ask someone to repeat a question. She leaned against the worktable longer than necessary. Once, she pressed her lips together and closed her eyes for a second, like she was riding out something unpleasant.
Each small thing, on its own, meant nothing.
Together, they set off a low, persistent alarm in his chest.
Kimi sidled up to him again, peering in Vivian’s direction. “She really doesn’t look good.”
George exhaled slowly. “Yeah.”
“You should make her sit down,” Kimi said, entirely serious.
He almost laughed. “If I try that, she’ll remind me she’s not my responsibility.”
Kimi frowned. “She looks like she should be.”
George startled at that—at the simplicity of it. The unfiltered truth.
He didn’t reply.
Instead, he glanced back at Vivian one more time, watching as she straightened her shoulders and smiled at a passing camera, professionalism snapping back into place like armor.
Pole position should have been all he felt—pride, satisfaction, relief.
And he did feel those things.
But threaded through them now was something else. Something sharper. Something unsettled.
A quiet, creeping fear that Vivian wasn’t nearly as fine as she claimed—and that she wouldn’t tell him when she wasn’t.
George clenched his jaw, forcing his attention back to the present.
Tomorrow was race day.
He told himself he was imagining things.
But he kept watching her anyway.
***
Vivian woke before her alarm.
For a few seconds she didn’t move, suspended in that soft, disoriented space between sleep and consciousness — and then she tried to roll onto her side.
Pain snapped through her abdomen.
She inhaled sharply, the breath catching halfway in her chest as a sharp, precise stab bloomed low on the right side of her stomach. Not the dull, cramping ache from yesterday. Not the vague nausea from the flight.
This was… specific.
She froze, one hand pressing instinctively against the spot. The pressure didn’t help. If anything, it made the sensation brighter, like her body objected to being acknowledged.
“Okay,” she whispered to the empty hotel room, voice thin with sleep. “Alright.”
She sat up slowly.
The world tilted. Not dramatically — just enough to make her pause on the edge of the bed until it steadied again. Her stomach lurched, the kind of rolling nausea that made food feel like a deeply theoretical concept unless she wanted to throw up.
She stared at the complimentary breakfast menu on the desk.
The thought of eating made her throat tighten.
That was… inconvenient.
Vivian pushed herself to her feet and immediately had to straighten carefully, because standing fully upright pulled at the pain in a way that made her teeth clench. She bent forward slightly without thinking, hand still braced against her side.
Period cramps, she decided. Still.
It made sense. Long travel. Time zones. Dehydration. Stress. Race weekend. She probably hadn’t eaten properly in two days and airplane catering alone was a crime against the human body.
That had to be it.
She moved through her routine more slowly than usual — shower, makeup, hair, outfit — pausing once when another sharp wave of pain hit hard enough to make her lean both hands against the bathroom counter. It passed after a moment, leaving behind a faint sheen of sweat across her temples.
“Fine,” she told her reflection firmly. “You are fine.”
She swallowed two over-the-counter painkillers dry, grabbed her tablet and credentials, and left the room.
Because missing a race weekend was not an option.
In five years working in Formula One, Vivian Dearden had never once called in sick during a race. Illness was something that happened in the off-season. Or on Mondays. Or to other people.
Race mornings were sacred.
***
The paddock was already alive when she arrived — generators humming, engineers moving with quiet purpose, the atmosphere crackling with that familiar pre-race tension. The normalcy of it helped. Routine always helped.
She made it almost halfway to the Mercedes hospitality unit before she had to slow, the movement jostling her stomach in a way she deeply resented.
“Viv?”
Hazel’s voice cut through the noise.
Vivian looked up to find her colleague standing by the hospitality entrance, coffee in one hand, radio clipped to her waistband. Hazel took one look at her and frowned.
“…you look awful.”
Vivian managed a small smile. “Good morning to you too.”
“I’m serious,” Hazel said, already stepping closer. “You’re pale.”
“Jet lag,” Vivian said smoothly. “And I think the catering on the flight tried to kill me.”
Hazel didn’t look convinced. “Are you going to faint on live television today? Because if you are, I need warning so I can stand slightly behind you and pretend I don’t know you.”
Vivian huffed a weak laugh — which immediately turned into a tight exhale as another stab of pain flared at her side. She pressed her hand against her stomach before she could stop herself.
Hazel’s eyes sharpened. “Okay. What is that.”
“Nothing,” Vivian said quickly. “Just cramps.”
“Cramps don’t make you look like a Victorian orphan.”
Vivian leaned her shoulder against the wall, trying to look casual and failing. “I’m fine. I just need a minute.”
Hazel stared at her for a long moment, then sighed and dug into her bag. She produced a small packet and held it out.
“Stronger painkillers,” she said. “Take them. And water. Now.”
Vivian hesitated only briefly before accepting them. “You’re a lifesaver.”
“If you die during pre-race prep, I’m telling Toto I tried,” Hazel replied dryly.
Vivian swallowed the pills with a few gulps from Hazel’s water bottle. The nausea churned in protest, but she forced it down.
“Better?” Hazel asked.
“Obviously,” Vivian said, straightening — carefully. “Race day. We’re professionals. We endure.”
Hazel snorted. “You are terrifying.”
“Says the woman voluntarily handling live requests from sponsors during a potential podium weekend.”
That earned a grin. “Fair. George looked good yesterday. If he keeps the lead at Turn One, this place is going to lose its mind.”
Vivian nodded automatically. Thinking about work helped anchor her. “We’ll need post-race mixed zone planning ready for both scenarios — win or podium. Sponsors will want immediate activation if—”
Another wave of nausea cut her off. She pressed her lips together until it passed.
Hazel watched her carefully but didn’t comment this time. Instead she nudged her gently toward the entrance.
“Come on,” she said. “Let’s get inside before the drivers arrive and the chaos begins.”
Race day.
The familiar phrase settled over Vivian like armor.
She took a steadying breath, straightened her shoulders, and pushed herself upright despite the pull in her abdomen.
It was fine.
Travel fatigue. Dehydration. Hormones. Bad food.
Nothing serious.
She had a job to do.
And she had never missed a race weekend in her career.
Vivian walked into the paddock, ignoring the way each step sent a small, sharp reminder through her side — and ignoring, completely, the warning her body was trying very hard to give her.
***
The morning blurred into motion the way race mornings always did.
Headset chatter. Schedule confirmations. Journalists asking last-minute questions that had been answered three emails ago. Social posts timed to the minute. Grid walk contingencies. Sponsor obligations stacked neatly in her mind like files she could pull instantly.
Routine carried her.
Routine meant Vivian didn’t have to think about the constant, nagging ache in her abdomen that had sharpened into something far less ignorable. Every step jarred it. Standing upright pulled at it. Even breathing too deeply made her stomach tighten in protest.
Vivian compensated without noticing—leaning slightly against tables, bracing her hand briefly against counters, pausing half a second longer than necessary before moving again.
Nobody seemed to notice.
Which was good.
She was reviewing post-race media timing on her tablet when a message came through her radio.
“Vivian? Toto would like a word. Office.”
Of course he did.
She took a steadying breath and headed toward his office inside the hospitality unit, straightening her shoulders as she went. Professional posture. Professional expression. Professional voice.
The door was half open.
Toto stood inside, jacket off, shirtsleeves rolled, reading through a printed brief with a pen in his hand. He glanced up as she knocked lightly.
“Ah, Vivian. Come in.”
She stepped inside, closing the door behind her. The enclosed space was warmer than the paddock and for a moment the shift made her head swim.
“Toto,” she said, polite, composed. “You wanted to go over the IWC activation?”
“Yes.” He gestured to the chair but she remained standing automatically, tablet in hand. “They are requesting additional post-race content if George finishes on the podium. We need to confirm feasibility.”
“Of course,” she said smoothly, pulling up her notes. “We can schedule a controlled media capture immediately after cooldown, I think. I’ll coordinate with broadcast to avoid interference and keep it under ninety seconds?”
The pain flickered, sharper.
She ignored it.
Toto watched her as she spoke, his expression attentive but neutral, the way it always was during work discussions.
“I will also brief George pre-race,” she continued, voice steady. “If he is aware beforehand, it will—”
The sentence stalled as a sudden, stabbing pressure tore across the right side of her abdomen.
Her breath caught.
For a fraction of a second her vision greyed at the edges.
She kept talking.
“—minimize disruption and ensure sponsor satisfaction—”
Her hand pressed flat against the edge of the desk without her permission. She focused on the words. On finishing the explanation. On not making this a problem.
Toto’s eyes narrowed slightly.
“Vivian.”
“I’m fine,” she said immediately.
Another wave rose—violent and fast, nausea crashing up her throat with no warning. Her stomach lurched hard enough that she swallowed reflexively, trying to will it down.
She didn’t make it.
The tablet slipped from her hand, clattering softly against the carpet as she turned away instinctively—but not far enough.
She was dimly aware of the sound she made, small and involuntary, and then—
She was sick.
Directly onto Toto’s shoes.
For a second the room went utterly silent.
Vivian froze.
Horror flooded through her faster than the nausea had.
“Oh my God,” she whispered hoarsely, backing away a step, hand over her mouth. “I am so— I am so sorry, I—”
She expected irritation. Shock. At the very least awkwardness.
Instead, Toto moved immediately—not away from her, but closer.
“Sit down,” he said, voice calm but firm, guiding her gently toward the chair she had refused earlier.
“I’m fine,” she tried again weakly. “It’s just— I didn’t— I can clean it, I—”
“Sit.”
It wasn’t loud. It wasn’t angry.
It was absolute.
She sat.
The moment she did, the adrenaline drained and the pain surged, sharp enough that she bent forward slightly, fingers pressing into her side.
Toto crouched in front of her, entirely unconcerned about his now-ruined expensive loafers.
“How long?” he asked quietly.
She blinked. “What?”
“How long have you been unwell?”
“Since— just this morning,” she said quickly. “It’s nothing serious. Probably travel stomach. I just need water and—”
“Vivian.”
The single word stopped her.
Toto’s expression was no longer neutral. It was focused. Assessing.
“You are pale,” he said evenly. “You are sweating. You could not remain standing. And you have clearly been in pain before you entered this room.”
She opened her mouth.
Closed it.
“I didn’t want to make it an issue,” she admitted weakly.
“How long?”
“…a couple of days.”
The silence that followed was heavier than any raised voice.
Toto straightened slowly.
“You have been in pain for days,” he said, voice controlled but unmistakably stern, “and nobody told me?”
“I didn’t think it was—”
“You did not think?” His gaze sharpened, not angry, but deeply serious. “You work in a high-pressure environment, you are responsible for critical communication, and you decided severe pain was something to ignore?”
“I didn’t want to disrupt preparations,” she said, quieter now. “It’s race day.”
Toto stared at her for a moment longer, then reached for his phone.
“This is no longer a discussion.”
He dialed quickly, already moving into action.
“You are not working another minute today,” he said, glancing back at her. “I am arranging medical evaluation immediately.”
“I can still—”
“No.”
The word landed like a closed door.
He ended the call and picked up her credentials from the desk where they had fallen.
“I am suspending your paddock access for the day,” he said, not unkindly but with absolute finality. “You are going to a hospital.”
She shook her head weakly. “I can do the pre-race brief. It will only take—”
“You are going to a hospital,” he repeated. “Now.”
For the first time since she’d started working in Formula One, Vivian Dearden had no argument left.
***
The pre-race briefing room was quiet in the way only Formula One rooms ever were — not silent, but contained. Screens glowed along the wall, telemetry traces frozen mid-corner. The low hum of air conditioning filled the gaps between voices. It was familiar, grounding.
George liked this part.
Helmet still off, fireproof top half-unzipped, water bottle in his hand, he leaned over the table while Marcus Dudley ran through opening-lap scenarios.
“Grip level will be higher than yesterday,” Marcus said, tapping the monitor. “Track evolution overnight plus better temperatures. The start is everything. Protect Turn One and we control the race.”
George nodded, focused. “Tyre warm-up felt strong in formation simulations. I should have traction.”
“Brake temps will spike behind traffic,” Bono added calmly from beside the screen. “If you lose the lead, don’t panic into Turn Three. We’ll manage the undercut window.”
Kimi, perched slightly sideways in his chair, listened with an intensity that bordered on suspicious for a rookie. “Safety car probability?”
“Moderate,” Marcus replied. “Wall proximity. Lap one chaos always possible.”
George allowed himself a small smile. He was calm — the good kind of calm. Pole position gave clarity. The plan was clean. Execute the start, manage tyres, build gap.
For a moment, everything was simple.
The door opened.
All four of them looked up.
Toto stepped inside.
He did not usually attend driver briefings this close to race start unless something operational had changed. His expression was composed, but there was a firmness to it that immediately shifted the atmosphere.
George straightened slightly. “Everything okay?”
Toto closed the door behind him.
“George,” he said, measured. “There has been a situation.”
The word situation landed wrong in George’s chest before the explanation even came.
“It concerns Vivian.”
The calm evaporated instantly.
“What happened?” George asked, already standing.
“She became unwell this morning,” Toto said. “Severely unwell.”
The room stilled.
George felt something cold settle under his ribs. “Unwell how?”
“She was in my office,” Toto continued evenly. “She has been in significant abdominal pain for several days and did not report it. She collapsed and was sick. I have sent Hazel with her to the hospital for immediate evaluation.”
For a second, George didn’t understand the words.
Then he did.
Several days.
His mind snapped back to qualifying — pale skin, distracted answers, the way she’d pressed her hand against her side when she thought no one was watching.
The knot in his chest pulled tight.
“She’s been in pain for days?” he said quietly.
“Yes.”
George scrubbed a hand down his face. “Why didn’t she—”
He stopped himself.
Because he knew why.
Vivian never wanted to be a problem.
“Which hospital?” he asked immediately.
Toto hesitated only briefly. “The medical team suspects appendicitis. They are assessing her now.”
The word hit harder than he expected.
Appendicitis.
His stomach dropped.
“I need to go,” George said, already moving toward the door.
Bono stepped forward automatically, not blocking him but grounding him. “George.”
He stopped.
The reality caught up all at once — the suit hanging in the next room, the car prepared on the grid, the formation lap countdown already ticking closer.
Pole position.
A race he could win.
His jaw tightened.
“I can’t just—” He couldn’t finish the sentence.
Kimi watched him carefully. “They have doctors,” he said quietly, not dismissive, just factual. “You have a race.”
George laughed once under his breath, humorless. “That’s not the point.”
But it was.
He knew it was.
Toto’s voice was steady. “She is receiving medical care. You cannot help her from the hospital waiting room right now. You can help by doing your job.”
George closed his eyes for a second.
Images ran through his head — her on the flight refusing food, her brushing him off after qualifying, her insisting she was fine.
He should have pushed harder.
He opened his eyes again.
“Please,” he said, quieter now. “If you hear anything—anything at all—you tell me immediately.”
“I will,” Toto replied.
George nodded once, sharp, like sealing a decision he hated.
“Alright,” he said to Marcus and Bono, voice steadier than he felt. “Let’s finish the briefing.”
They continued. Strategy, tyre windows, fuel targets. He answered questions, repeated start procedures, confirmed brake settings.
Outwardly, he was composed.
Inside, his focus fractured.
Every few seconds his attention drifted — to his phone on the table, to the door, to the thought of her in a hospital room instead of the paddock where she always was.
He realized, with a clarity that made his chest tighten, that this was the first race weekend since he’d joined Mercedes where Vivian wasn’t managing it beside him.
The absence was louder than the noise outside.
As the briefing ended, Marcus handed him his gloves.
“You good?” his engineer asked quietly.
George nodded automatically.
No.
Not even close.
But he pulled the gloves on anyway.
Because the race was starting whether his world had shifted or not.
And as he walked toward the garage, helmet under his arm, he made a silent promise to himself:
The first thing he would ask when the race ended wouldn’t be about strategy, or tyres, or the win.
It would be about her.
***
The paddock had been noise and motion and urgency — radios crackling, engines screaming in the distance, people moving with purpose. The hospital was the opposite. Quiet in a way that felt almost wrong, fluorescent lights humming softly overhead, everything washed in sterile white and pale blue.
It made the morning feel unreal.
Hazel sat beside her in the emergency room cubicle, still in team kit, headset abandoned somewhere along the way. She hadn’t stopped texting since they’d arrived — short updates to communications staff, carefully neutral messages to Toto, quiet reassurances to people who were very obviously worried.
Vivian clutched the thin hospital blanket in her hands and tried very hard not to move.
Because moving hurt.
Not a dull ache anymore. Not something ignorable. The pain had sharpened into something constant and insistent, radiating across her lower abdomen, every shift of her body making it flare hot enough to steal her breath. Even lying still didn’t fully help. Nausea rolled through her in waves, leaving her exhausted and clammy.
“I feel ridiculous,” she murmured.
Hazel looked up from her phone immediately. “You nearly passed out and threw up on a Toto Wolff, whose shoes cost more than my rent. You’re allowed to stop worrying about dignity for a few hours.”
Vivian closed her eyes briefly. “His loafers.”
“You are not apologizing to him from an operating table,” Hazel said firmly.
“Operating—”
The curtain slid open.
A doctor stepped inside, tablet in hand, expression professional. That alone made Vivian sit a little straighter despite the pain.
“Ms. Dearden,” he said gently. “We have your imaging results.”
Hazel straightened beside her.
Vivian’s fingers tightened on the blanket.
The doctor glanced at the screen once more, then looked at her directly.
“Your appendix is severely inflamed,” he said. “It is very close to rupturing.”
The words didn’t immediately make sense.
“My… appendix?” she repeated.
“Yes,” he said. “You have appendicitis. Given the level of inflammation and the duration of your symptoms, we need to operate immediately.”
Hazel went very still.
Vivian stared at him.
Operate.
Immediately.
“I—” She stopped, her thoughts scrambling for footing. “Today?”
“Yes,” the doctor said calmly. “Soon. We are already preparing a surgical team. A rupture would be dangerous and could lead to serious infection. We need to remove it now.”
For a moment she forgot the pain entirely.
“But—” she said, voice faint. “I have a race weekend.”
The doctor blinked once, clearly not expecting that answer. “I understand you have obligations, but this cannot wait.”
Hazel made a small disbelieving sound. “Viv.”
Vivian’s mind raced uselessly. Grid times. Media sessions. Post-race interviews. Sponsor activations. She pictured the schedule she had finalized last night, the brief she hadn’t delivered yet, the controlled media capture she had promised.
George.
“He has pole today,” she said, more to herself than anyone else. “He’ll need— someone has to— the cooldown interview, the mixed zone—”
“Vivian,” Hazel said softly but firmly, taking her hand. “Stop.”
The doctor’s tone remained steady. “Right now your health is the priority. If we delay, your appendix may rupture. That becomes significantly more serious than a communication schedule.”
She looked down at her hospital bracelet, at the IV line now taped to her arm.
It felt surreal.
“I didn’t realize it was that bad,” she whispered.
“You have likely been in pain for several days,” he said gently. “You waited longer than most people would.”
Hazel squeezed her hand. “You idiot,” she murmured, not unkindly.
Vivian swallowed, throat tight. “Did… did someone tell the team?”
“Yes,” Hazel said. “Toto already knows. I messaged the group. They’re aware you’re being treated.”
A fresh wave of nausea rolled through her and she closed her eyes, breathing shallowly until it passed.
George will be in the briefing now, she thought.
He’ll ask where I am.
Guilt settled heavily in her chest.
“He’s going to worry,” she said quietly.
Hazel didn’t pretend otherwise. “Yes.”
Vivian pressed her lips together. “I didn’t want to distract George before the race.”
The doctor gave a small, understanding nod. “Right now, the best thing you can do for anyone — including your colleague — is allow us to treat you.”
Footsteps approached outside the curtain. Nurses entered, beginning to prepare equipment with calm efficiency.
The reality finally landed.
Surgery. Now.
Her hands trembled slightly. “Will I… be okay?”
“Yes,” the doctor said reassuringly. “We caught it in time. But we should not wait any longer.”
She nodded slowly.
As they began wheeling her bed out of the cubicle toward the operating area, the hospital ceiling lights passing overhead in slow repetition, her mind clung stubbornly to one last thought.
She wouldn’t see the race.
She wouldn’t be on the pit wall, wouldn’t hand him the post-session notes, wouldn’t be there when he climbed out of the car.
For the first race weekend since she started working with him, George Russell would finish a race without her there to meet him.
Vivian closed her eyes against the sting behind them.
“I hope he gets a good start,” she murmured quietly.
Hazel walked beside the bed, keeping pace as they moved down the corridor.
“He will,” Hazel said gently. “Now you focus on this. He’ll focus on the race.”
Vivian nodded, though the ache in her chest had very little to do with the appendicitis anymore.
Old habits, apparently, were harder to remove than an appendix.
***
The car always simplified things.
That was what George usually loved about it.
Once the visor came down and the engine ignited behind him, the world narrowed to inputs and outputs — brake pressure, throttle modulation, apex speed. No speculation. No ambiguity. You either did the lap or you didn’t.
Today it didn’t quiet his mind.
He sat on the grid, hands steady on the wheel, watching the mechanics clear around him. The grandstands vibrated with noise. Engines echoed up and down the straight. It should have felt familiar.
Instead, his focus kept slipping sideways.
He had already checked his phone twice before climbing into the car even though he knew he wouldn’t have an update yet.
Hazel was with her.
Doctors were with her.
Appendicitis.
He tightened his grip slightly on the steering wheel.
“George, radio check,” Marcus’ voice came through his earpiece.
“Loud and clear.”
“You’re good. Nice and clean into Turn One. Trust the grip.”
“Copy.”
He exhaled slowly as the formation lap began. Tyres warming, brakes building temperature. Muscle memory took over, but his thoughts still drifted — hospital corridors, sterile lights, the way she’d looked yesterday, pale and insisting she was fine.
He should have noticed sooner.
He should have pushed harder.
The lights went out.
The start was clean.
He covered the inside line into Turn One automatically, instinct overriding distraction. Lap one unfolded in sharp, precise movements — defending, managing traction, building a gap. By lap five the rhythm returned, the car responding exactly as he needed.
And still—
“Marcus,” he said on lap nine, voice controlled but quieter than usual. “Any news from… from the hospital?”
A brief pause.
“Nothing yet, George. We’ll tell you as soon as we know.”
“Copy.”
He focused on the braking zone. Hit the apex perfectly.
Three laps later his mind wandered again.
“Still nothing?”
“Still nothing.”
He nodded to himself, even though nobody could see it.
For the first time in years, racing felt secondary.
Every lap was technically flawless — braking points exact, traction consistent, strategy unfolding exactly as planned.
Marcus’s voice came through periodically with gap updates. Competitors. Tyre wear.
George answered, but automatically.
Because every few laps, the same question pressed forward no matter how much he tried to suppress it.
Lap 34.
“Any update?”
“Not yet, George.”
Lap 42.
“Anything?”
“No news yet.”
He hated the phrase no news. It left too much space for his imagination.
The final stint stretched longer than it should have. The laps ticked down. The car remained stable. The gap behind him was comfortable.
He was going to win.
Normally he would feel it building — the anticipation, the controlled adrenaline before the checkered flag.
Instead there was only a strange hollowness.
He pictured pulling into parc fermé and not seeing her waiting near the barrier with a headset and tablet, already organizing the post-race chaos before he even removed his helmet.
He had never noticed how constant she was until she wasn’t.
“Final lap,” Marcus said calmly. “Bring it home.”
George barely heard the crowd.
He crossed the line.
“P1, George! That’s a race win! Brilliant drive!”
Cheers erupted in his ear — mechanics shouting, engineers clapping, relief and excitement flooding the radio.
George exhaled, but the release he expected never came.
Instead his first thought was immediate and singular.
He slowed on the cooldown lap.
“Marcus,” he said, voice tight despite the victory. “Is there any news about Vivian?”
There was a short pause — not operational, not technical.
Personal.
“Yes,” Marcus said gently. “She’s in surgery. It was appendicitis. Doctors caught it in time.”
George closed his eyes briefly behind the visor.
The tension that had been sitting in his chest since the briefing finally loosened just enough for him to breathe properly.
“Okay,” he said quietly.
Only then did the win feel real at all.
***
The champagne was still drying in his hair when George left the paddock.
The podium had been a blur — noise, cameras, the weight of the trophy in his hands, Max clapping his shoulder with a grin, Kimi looking equal parts stunned and delighted beside them. He’d smiled, laughed, sprayed champagne when expected.
He couldn’t remember a single thing anyone had said to him.
Because even while standing on the top step, one thought had sat immovably in the center of his mind:
Hospital.
He barely waited for the last media obligation to end. The moment the final required interview wrapped and the PR handlers released him, he handed off the trophy to a mechanic, grabbed the first hoodie he could find, and left.
The drive felt longer than it was.
He checked his phone at every red light, every stop, every moment the car slowed — messages from the team, congratulations flooding in, group chats exploding, Toto confirming surgery had started.
Then, finally:
Hazel: Out of surgery. Stable. Recovery now.
He didn’t remember the last ten minutes of the ride after that.
The hospital lobby was too bright.
George pushed through the doors still in partial race kit — team trousers, fireproof top under the hoodie, damp hair betraying exactly where he’d come from. The receptionist barely had time to look up before he reached the desk.
“Vivian Dearden,” he said. “I— I was told she’s here.”
Before she could answer, a familiar voice called his name.
“George.”
He turned.
Hazel stood from one of the waiting chairs, looking as tired as he felt. Relief crossed her face immediately when she saw him.
“You actually came straight here,” she said softly.
“Of course I did.” The words came out faster than he intended. “Is she—”
“She’s okay,” Hazel reassured quickly. “They got the appendix out before it ruptured.”
His shoulders dropped a fraction for the first time all day.
“Can I see her?”
“They’re moving her to a room now,” Hazel said. “She just got out of recovery.”
George exhaled, hand briefly pressing to the back of his neck. Only then did he realize how tightly wound he’d been since the morning.
“What happened?” he asked quietly.
Hazel shook her head. “She’d been in pain for days, George. Proper pain. And she kept insisting it was cramps or jet lag or literally anything else.”
He closed his eyes for a moment.
“I knew something was wrong,” he said, voice low. “I just… didn’t push.”
“She wouldn’t have told you,” Hazel replied gently. “She didn’t want to distract you before the race.”
That made something twist sharply in his chest.
He looked down at his hands — faint traces of champagne still sticky across his knuckles.
“I kept asking during the race,” he admitted. “Every few laps.”
Hazel’s expression softened. “She asked about you before they took her into surgery.”
He looked up immediately.
“What?”
“She hoped that you would get a good start.”
George let out a small breath that almost turned into a laugh, except his throat was too tight for it.
“Of course she did.”
A nurse appeared down the corridor and spoke quietly to Hazel. She nodded, then turned back to him.
“They’re bringing her to her room,” she said. “You can come.”
They walked down the hall together. The sounds were muted — distant monitors, rolling carts, quiet voices behind closed doors. The adrenaline that had carried him through the race drained away with every step, leaving only a nervous anticipation he hadn’t felt before a start in years.
At the end of the corridor, a hospital bed was being wheeled into a room.
Vivian lay under thin white sheets, an IV line taped to her arm, hair slightly mussed, face pale but peaceful in a way he had never seen at the track. Without the headset, the tablet, the purposeful movement — she looked smaller. Younger.
Vulnerable.
George stopped just inside the doorway.
For the first time all day, the tension in his chest finally released completely.
She was here.
She was alive.
And suddenly, the race — the win, the podium, the noise — felt very far away compared to the quiet of that hospital room.
***
Vivian woke like someone surfacing from deep water.
Slowly. Disoriented. One thought at a time, none of them especially helpful.
George was sitting beside the bed when her eyes finally fluttered open.
He’d been trying not to stare at the steady rise and fall of her chest, at the IV line taped to her arm, at the way her face looked softer without the constant focus she wore at the track. He still looked up immediately, instinctive, relief hitting him so hard it almost made him dizzy.
“Hey,” he said softly. “Careful. You just had surgery.”
Her eyes shifted toward the sound of his voice. They didn’t quite focus at first. She squinted at him, head tilting slightly like she was trying to place a face she almost recognized.
“…George?” she said uncertainly.
“Yeah.”
She blinked slowly. Very slowly. Then nodded once, as if confirming a theory to herself.
“That makes sense,” she murmured.
He smiled a little. “Does it?”
“You’re usually near a race car,” she explained seriously. “Hospitals are less on brand, but I suppose schedules evolve.”
George had to bite the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing.
“You’re in hospital,” he reminded gently. “You had appendicitis. They operated.”
She absorbed this information for several long seconds.
“…did I die?” she asked.
“No,” he said quickly.
“Okay,” she said, satisfied. “Good. Because I have emails.”
He exhaled a quiet breath that was half relief, half disbelief.
Her gaze drifted again, unfocused, then suddenly sharpened with alarm.
“Oh no.”
Here it comes, he thought.
“What is it?” he asked carefully.
She looked at him with genuine distress.
“I threw up on Toto Wolff.”
George blinked.
“Yes,” he said cautiously.
Her hand twitched weakly under the blanket as if she wanted to cover her face but forgot how halfway there.
“I assaulted management,” she whispered. “HR is going to have a field day.”
“You did not assault management.”
“I remember the shoes,” she continued, voice wobbling. “Very shiny. Italian. Possibly handcrafted. I ruined a luxury item in a leadership environment.”
A tear slid sideways across her temple.
“I am never working in Formula One again.”
George’s chest tightened painfully.
“Vivian,” he said softly, leaning closer. “Toto is not firing you. He sent you to the hospital.”
She sniffed. “He was being polite. That’s what rich people do before lawsuits.”
He couldn’t help it — he laughed quietly, shaking his head.
“You nearly had a ruptured appendix.”
“But the loafers,” she insisted, eyes glassy. “They were suede. That makes stains worse.”
He gently took her hand before she could work herself into a painkiller-fueled spiral.
“You’re okay,” he said. “That’s the important part.”
Her gaze dropped to their hands like she’d only just realized they were touching. She stared at it with intense concentration, as if it were a complicated puzzle.
“Oh,” she said softly.
Then her eyes filled again — not frantic now, just open, unguarded in a way he had never seen.
“I tried not to,” she whispered.
George’s breath caught. “Not to what?”
Her words came slow and unfiltered, drifting out without her usual careful control.
“I tried not to fall in love with you,” she announced.
The words were abrupt, completely unguarded.
George froze.
She blinked slowly, eyes glossy. “It’s not professional. I know the handbook probably covers that. Page… something. I read it.”
“Viv—”
“You matter too much,” she said, voice small and earnest. “You’re important and I’m supposed to make your life easier, not complicated. I was being careful. Very careful. Except today I also threw up on your boss, so clearly I am failing across multiple categories.”
Another tear escaped.
“I’m sorry if I made work weird,” she whispered. “You can ignore this. I’m very medicated. I barely understand gravity right now.”
For a moment he just looked at her, the relief and affection hitting him so suddenly it almost hurt.
Then he laughed — soft, breathless, not at her but at the absurdity of how long they had both carried this.
He squeezed her hand gently.
“We are not ignoring this,” he said warmly.
She frowned, trying to focus. “We’re not?”
“No,” he said. “But we are going to talk about it when you are conscious.”
“…I am conscious.”
“Barely.”
She considered that for a long moment, eyelids drooping.
“…fair.”
Her grip on his fingers slackened as sleep pulled at her again.
“But tell Toto,” she mumbled, already fading, “that I respect him greatly and I apologize to his footwear personally.”
George brushed his thumb lightly over her knuckles.
“I will,” he promised softly.
She was asleep again within seconds, leaving him alone in the quiet room — smiling helplessly at the ceiling and realizing he had never, in his life, won a race that mattered less than this moment right here.
***
The second time Vivian woke, the world was clearer.
Not comfortable — every muscle felt heavy, her abdomen ached in a deep, careful way that made her afraid to breathe too hard — but clearer. The fog that had wrapped around her thoughts earlier was gone, replaced by awareness.
And awareness brought memory.
Her eyes opened slowly.
Hospital ceiling. IV line. Monitors quietly beeping beside her.
And then—
George.
Sitting in the chair beside her bed, elbows resting on his knees, head tipped slightly forward like he’d been watching her long enough to forget to do anything else.
The last few hours hit her all at once.
The office.
Toto.
The hospital.
The… talking.
Her stomach dropped.
“Oh no,” she whispered hoarsely.
George looked up immediately. Relief softened his expression the moment he saw her awake.
“Hey,” he said gently. “Welcome back.”
She stared at him.
“You’re still here.”
He smiled faintly. “Of course.”
Memory sharpened further.
The words she’d said — or thought she might have said — flickered through her mind in humiliating fragments.
She closed her eyes briefly.
“…I need you to be honest with me,” she said carefully. “Did I say anything… unusual earlier?”
George’s mouth twitched.
“Define unusual.”
Her face flushed instantly. “George.”
He leaned back slightly in the chair, far too calm for someone holding this much power over her dignity.
“Well,” he said thoughtfully, “you were very concerned about Toto’s shoes.”
She covered her face with her hands and immediately regretted it when it pulled at her stitches.
“I’m going to quit my job and move to antarctica,” she muttered into the pillow.
“You’re not quitting your job.”
“I threw up on the Team Principal.”
“You had emergency surgery.”
“I cried about his loafers.”
George laughed softly, not unkindly, and she wanted the hospital bed to open up and swallow her whole.
“I already spoke to Toto,” he said. “He’s more worried about you than his wardrobe.”
She lowered her hands slowly, peeking at him.
“…really?”
“Yes. He also said you are forbidden from attending meetings while actively dying from now on.”
She let out a weak breath that almost resembled a laugh.
Silence settled for a moment — softer now, but charged with something else.
Vivian focused very hard on the blanket.
“You didn’t have to stay,” she said quietly. “You had a race.”
“I know.”
“Did you win?”
“I did.”
“You should be celebrating.”
“I did the podium,” he said simply. “Then I came here.”
Her gaze lifted to his.
“You came straight here?”
He nodded once.
The reality of that landed somewhere deep and unsteady inside her chest.
“You shouldn’t have,” she said softly, though the words lacked conviction.
“I wanted to.”
Her throat tightened.
The silence stretched, no longer awkward — just honest.
Vivian inhaled slowly. “I don’t… remember everything I said earlier.”
George watched her carefully. “You remember some of it.”
It wasn’t a question.
Color crept back into her face.
“I was medicated,” she said quickly. “I wasn’t entirely coherent.”
“You were honest.”
She swallowed. “You don’t have to respond to anything I said. I understand the situation it puts you in and I would never—”
“Viv.”
She stopped.
He leaned forward slightly, voice gentler than she’d ever heard it.
“I didn’t come because I felt obligated.”
Her hands twisted slightly in the blanket.
“I tried very hard not to cross that line,” she admitted quietly. “You’re my driver. My responsibility. And you matter too much to risk making your life complicated.”
His gaze didn’t leave hers.
“You never made it complicated.”
“I did,” she said softly. “I just hid it well.” A small, nervous breath escaped her. “I care about you more than I’m supposed to. I have for a while. I didn’t want to make you uncomfortable. Or make work difficult. So I decided it would just… stay my problem.”
He was very quiet for a moment.
Then he said, gently, “It was never just yours.”
She blinked.
“What?”
“I came after the race,” he said. “Not because you work for the team. Because it was you.”
Her heart stuttered.
“I kept asking about you during the race,” he admitted. “Every few laps. Winning didn’t feel right when you weren’t there to tell me where I needed to stand for interviews.”
A breath caught in her throat.
“George…”
He smiled softly. “You’ve been important to me for a long time. I just thought you didn’t see me that way.”
“I was trying very hard not to,” she whispered.
“Why?”
“Because if it went wrong,” she said, voice barely audible, “I’d lose more than a crush.”
His expression softened further.
“You won’t.”
The certainty in it made her chest ache.
He reached out slowly, giving her time to pull away.
She didn’t.
His hand rested lightly over hers.
“You matter to me,” he said quietly. “Not as a colleague. Not because of the job.”
The last of the fear she’d been holding onto loosened.
“Okay,” she whispered.
He leaned closer, pausing just long enough for her to understand what he was asking.
She met him halfway.
The kiss was gentle — careful of IV lines and stitches and the fragile newness of it — but it settled something that had been unresolved between them for far longer than either wanted to admit.
When they pulled back, her forehead rested lightly against his.
“…I’m still very embarrassed about the shoes,” she murmured.
George laughed softly.
“Toto will survive.”