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1. the shards of who you were by rnelody

   Fandoms: Critical Role: Exandria (Web Series)  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   10 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Rape/Non-Con
   • Essek Thelyss/Caleb Widogast
   • The Mighty Nein & Essek Thelyss
   • Essek Thelyss
   • Caleb Widogast
   • Beauregard Lionett
   • Feeblemind Spell (Dungeons & Dragons)
   • Non-Chronological
   • Trauma Recovery
   • Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms
   • Disordered Eating
   • Self-Esteem Issues
   • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Flashbacks
   • Panic Attacks
   • essek tries to pretend everything is fine while screaming internally: the fic
   • Self-Flagellation
   • Gifted Kid Burnout

   Summary

   Freed from both Ludinus Da'leth and the grip of the Feeblemind spell, Essek tries his best to recover from his many new traumas. But recovery is hard with a shattered self-image and a head full of broken memories, and will only become harder the more help he rejects.

   Part 5 of a series, read the other parts first for context.

   Series

   • Part 5 of the mind electric

   Language:

   English

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   10,219

   Chapters:

   2/7

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