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1. I Can’t Make You Hang Around, I Can’t Wash You off My Skin by piecesofmyhearts

   Fandoms: Men's Hockey RPF  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   27 May 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Sidney Crosby/Original Male Character(s)
   • Original Male Character(s)
   • Sidney Crosby
   • Ben Kindel
   • Kris Letang
   • Marc-Andre Fleury
   • Dan Muse
   • Evgeni Malkin
   • Various Penguins Players
   • Just whoever i decide to throw in here
   • Original Female Character(s)
   • Denial of Feelings
   • Slow Burn
   • Family Issues
   • I wrote this instead of doing my exam prep
   • Fluff
   • Angst
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Eventual Smut
   • Developing Relationship
   • Every chapter title is a song
   • sidney crosby is a control freak
   • Mentions of Suicide
   • Age Difference

   Summary

   "Outside the frame, is what we're leaving out.

   You won't remember anyway."

    

   Ryder's stuck, he feels like he always is nowadays. He's stuck at home, stuck in the rink, and stuck under his Captain's eyes. Every move he makes is thought through the night before in the quiet sanctuary of his bed. He can smell his mother's cigarettes under the door and hear his sister's heavy breathing as she tries to sit upright too quickly.

   Under the bright lights of a rink, that usually fades away. His panics aren't anymore, and his head can be empty except for hockey, hockey, hockey. Trouble always follows though, and when trouble takes place in the rink as Ryder's Captain, Sidney Crosby, there's no safe space anymore.

   There's no safe space when Sidney starts looking at him with those eyes either.

    

   "I want something good to die for,

   To make it beautiful to live."

   Language:

   English

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   Chapters:

   5/?

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