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1.
As you stroll past the mirrors in the chilly blue tent, your hand glides across their surfaces with a feather-light touch. Each pane leaves a trail of icy condensation in your wake, the cold a stark contrast to the relative warmth of the surrounding circus. The chill in the air feels fitting, somehow, mirroring the demeanor of its owner, perhaps.
You’ve been here before, this quiet, breathless corner of the blue tent where time slows and reflections don’t always tell the truth. The mirrors remember you. Or maybe it’s the other way around.
Curiosity has always been sharper than fear.
You stop in front of one mirror, the largest, its frame etched with faint silver glyphs that shimmer if you don’t look directly at them. Your fingers hover just above the glass, not quite touching now. Something stirs beneath your skin, a prickle along your spine.
You feel…kind of watched.
Not by the mirror, but from behind you.
The air shifts, small and careful, as if someone is breathing too quietly on purpose. Someone who knows how to disappear into silence alike but forgot for just one second that you, too... have learned how to notice things?
Slowly, you turn your head just enough to catch its movement in another mirror’s reflection, but there was nothing.
Must've been an illusion. You thought to yourself as you glance back at the mirror again, you press your hand to the cold feeling of it but this time, you don't see any visions.
Ticket Taker's heart beats a fraction quicker as he slips away from the archway, thankfully you didn't notice him. This was just a simple observation of you, nothing more, nothing less.
Ticket Taker stood in a shadowed corner, his gaze fixed upon you again with an intensity that bordered on obsession.
Ordinarily, such an act would be entirely out of character for a man who held a strict adherence to his routines. But in this moment, Ticket Taker found himself unable to look away from you, his gaze tracing every gesture, every shift in your expression with an almost eerie focus.
The fact that you did not notice his attention only seemed to make things worse. It was as if the lack of reaction fueled his desire to watch you even more.
It's been 3 days since he started this.
2.
The weight of the day settled into your bones like stage dust after a final curtain call. You’d watched every performance today, enjoying them a lot but Harlequin’s show… that one now lingered in your mind.
The story of the play was different today from before.
Now, as twilight draped itself over the circus grounds and lanterns blinked on one by one like waking stars, you wandered, shoulders loose, steps slower, drawn by something sweet and savory curling through the air on an invisible thread.
And there it was, that little food stand you'd passed earlier without a second glance.
It looked different now under golden lamplight, the paint still chipped at the edges, glowing with warmth from within. The menu board tilted slightly to one side.
You decide to order something small, something sweet to close the night on a indulgent note. Your eyes land on the candy apple, perched like a forbidden jewel among the treats. It glows unnaturally under the lantern light, crimson and shimmering with a sugary crackle that looks almost alive.
It’s weird.
It’s perfect.
You want it before you even understand why.
The vendor hands it over without a word. And then—
Again.
That prickle at the back of your neck. Not warmth this time. Not cold either. Just being seen. Your head snaps around fast, one sharp turn, but no one seems to be looking. Couples lean into each other by popcorn carts, others idly standing by or other leaving.
And there,farther back than they should be for idle chat, a familiar silhouette, Ticket-Taker.
He stands beside Harlequin, speaking in low tones about something you can't guess. His hands are folded properly at his back. Posture flawless. Eyes forward, or so it appears.
You’d notice how sharply those lenses are angled toward you. Not glancing. Watching.
A slow burn of attention disguised as detachment, like every breath he takes is calibrated so he doesn’t miss when your fingers brush against that sticky red apple skin… or how your lips part slightly when curiosity wins over caution again as it always does.
But you don’t look close enough, not really, and anyway. You sigh softly, shrugging off the feeling.
You turn away, and take a bite from the apple, sweetness exploding across your tongue with an odd metallic aftertaste, and walk onward, not knowing that somewhere behind you.
Ticket-Taker would never allow himself to be caught doing something so… undisciplined… as staring at a human.
He was glad you hadn't noticed him yet.
3.
You step forward under the low arch of the main gate, where brass lanterns hang like captive stars and the ticket booth sits nestled between carved pillars shaped like watching hands. Evening has curled tightly around the circus now, lanterns glowing gold through drifting mist, laughter muffled behind velvet flaps, something old pulsing beneath the music.
And there he is, Ticket-Taker.
Always the first to arrive, always the last to leave. A silhouette carved from silence and schedule, except when you come near.
He sees you before you see him. Of course he does. His eyes don’t dart or flinch, they are already fixed on your path long before your boots tap against that worn wooden plank just so, the one with a slight creak on its third nail. You never notice it.
But he knows every sound it makes under different weights. Yours has a rhythm all to its own.
Tonight, you're late again, not by much, but enough that most have already passed through. The air is thinner here now. Quieter in a way that feels dangerous if someone were paying attention to things they shouldn’t, heartbeats not matching steps… breath catching for no reason at all…
You pull out your ticket, folded in half diagonally. He’s noticed this quirk, edged with smudges from fingers that don't follow protocol, and hold it out towards him without looking directly into his face.
That’s when time bends again. Not dramatically, no sudden wind or echoing bells, but subtly, like fabric stretched too thin over something restless underneath reality itself.
His gloved hand emerges slowly, from inside his coat pocket where it had lingered too long, and reaches across the counter space meant for impersonal exchange only meant for paper passing, not skin brushing skin, not warmth bleeding into places meant to stay cold and clean and controlled.
But then— Your fingers brush as he takes the ticket from you.
Not an accident.
The touch lingers, one heartbeat longer than allowed, and though neither of you speak nor look fully at each other during this moment… something shifts behind his eyes.
He doesn’t pull away fast enough. His thumb grazes paper… but also nearly catches yours as if torn between letting go and holding tighter than rules allow, or worse yet.
Because humans?
They’re dangerous things disguised as fragile creatures who bleed easily yet somehow break everything else around them simply by existing warmly in spaces built for stillness, for order, for observers who know better than to become involved in performance narratives outside their role description.
You shift slightly, you’re waiting for acknowledgment, a nod maybe? A scan stamp? Something ordinary?
Instead?
Silence stretches taut until another sound snaps nearby, a fluttering pennant caught mid-flap, and suddenly Ticket-Taker inhales sharply as if returning from very far away... somewhere dark and vivid with unwanted thoughts best left unclassified within operational boundaries.
Then, with mechanical precision returned just barely, he lifts pen-hand upward toward pad-stamp-device sitting dormant since 8:47 PM exactly two entries ago... taps twice unnecessarily... clears throat once louder than needed...
You take your pass gently, unaware, entirely oblivious, and completely innocent.
Ticket-Taker watches your every step until the curtain swallows your figure whole.
He doesn't blink.
He doesn't move.
He only whispers something silently, to empty air.
As you enter the tent of the red tent you glance back at Ticket Taker. That same neck prickling feeling was back again.
…
1.
The circus was winding down—lanterns dimming, tents sagging slightly with tired breath, the air thick with the scent of extinguished flames and warm canvas. You lingered near the edge of the main walkway, adjusting the strap of your boot, when it hit you again, that weight.
Not physical.
Heavier.
Watched.
Only this time, it didn’t slip away like mist. It pressed against you. A presence not hidden behind schedules or side glances or fake conversations with Harlequin about lighting cues he already memorized weeks ago.
No.
This was different.
You straightened slowly… and turned your head.
And there he was, Ticket-Taker, standing just outside his booth despite it being well past closing time. His coat buttoned to the top, gloves still on (of course), posture rigid as if carved from old iron…
But his eyes?
They weren’t supposed to look like that.
They were locked on you, completely stripped of pretense, with a kind of stillness that made your breath stutter. Not blinking. Not looking away when caught, even for a second too long after realizing he'd been seen doing what he’s done a thousand times before in secret.
Staring at you like you’re something sacred.
Like you’re something dangerous.
Like watching wasn’t enough anymore, but stopping would feel worse than breaking every rule he lives by.
And for once… you saw it all.
Your fingers stilled against your laces.
His chest didn't move, he wasn't even breathing right now.
The space between seconds stretched thin and electric, charged with everything unspoken, how many nights he stayed late just hoping to catch one more glimpse; how often his hand hovered over lights only turning them off after confirming your shadow had passed through certain corridors; how silence became louder whenever you stepped near—
You didn’t move.
He didn’t apologize, didn't explain, didn't pretend someone else had drawn his gaze this entire time, as always before, the way shadows don’t claim light but steal from it anyway.
It hit you then, the realization that he was the one causing that familiar neck-prickling sensation whenever he was near.
Funny, you'd had a crush on him this whole damn time... and yet, discovering that he'd been secretly obsessing you this entire time seemed almost too unbelievable.
It was strange, really, you'd harbored a crush on him for so long, never suspecting that he'd been harboring... well, something far beyond idle affection.
Now, as the reality of this revelation sank in, a mix of emotions washed over you: surprise, confusion, and... a hint of anticipation.
Ticket-taker had always been a man of routine and precision. Observing was part of his job, that much was true. But this... this felt like something entirely different.
An obsession.
You caught sight of him gripping something in his hand, a ticket, you noticed, its edges worn as if handled countless times. The color was unmistakable, deep blue, like the fabric of his own tent.
Could it be...?
Your heart quickened as you stared at the small folded slip of paper clutched in his hand. Was this a chance? An invitation?
If it were... you would accept it without hesitation.