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It was only 8 in the evening but Lewis was checking if the doors were locked and if the dogs still had water in their bowls. Nico was waiting for him in their bedroom, picking a movie for them to watch, before they go to bed. He grabs a bottle of water with him before he heads back to the bedroom. Nico was still looking for a movie while the dogs were by his feet. He smiles before he slides in next to the German as he makes himself comfy.

They were a few minutes into the movie when Lewis thinks he hears someone knocking on their door. He looks down at Nico who was looking up at him as he must have heard it too. "I'll go check." Lewis says before he hops of the bed, Roscoe following him, as he goes towards their front door. Lewis opens a small gap to see who it was. They have their hood pulled up and was also wearing a cap. He opens the door a bit more to let more light out and Lewis finally sees their face. "Pascal?" Lewis says as he furrows his brows at the younger man. "I didn't know where else to go." Pascal says with his voice sounding broken and Lewis notices his red-rimmed eyes. He lets him in and closes the door behind him. He sees that Nico's come out of their bedroom to see what the fuss was about before he hears the two of them share a conversation in German.

Lewis couldn't really understand a thing they were saying but Pascal's face looking more heart breaking with every word he says and Nico's expression getting more worried. He catches Pascal's voice breaking before he sees the younger man burst into tears. Nico looks up at him as if asking for help as Lewis joins them on the couch. "What happened?" Lewis finally asks. Pascal looks up as he furiously wipes away his tears. "It's Jolyon. I don't even know how it happened but we were talking about telling people about us, about how we're together and he just said why is it a big deal telling people and if we really have to tell people." Pascal says before he tries to take a deep breath to calm himself down. "And I said we don't have to tell everyone just the people who matter the most and then he said if should we even be telling people and risk our careers. And we just started screaming at each other and I felt like I couldn't breath that I had to leave and be away from him. I didn't know where else to go where he couldn't find me so I went here." Pascal finishes as he looks at the two of them.

Nico and Lewis share a look before Nico rubs circles on Pascal's back and says something to him in German. "You can stay here. It's okay." Nico says as he looks at Lewis who gives an assuring nod. "Yeah. Clear your mind for a bit here." Lewis says as he smiles at Pascal. "Thank you. I can't say that enough." Pascal says. They hear a small whine before Coco paws at Pascal's leg and he couldn't help but smile at the dog before h scratches behind her ear. "See, even Coco agrees." Lewis jokes which earns him a small laugh from Pascal. "I'll go fix the guest room. It won't take long." Nico says before he goes towards the guest room.

It was about ten minutes later that Nico tells them that the guest room's all set. Pascal take his backpack that he quickly stuffed with his things with him into the room along with the bottle of water that Lewis gave him while they were waiting for Nico. "Just knock if you need anything." Nico says as he fluffs up the last pillow. Pascal smiles at the both of them before he drops his bag on the bed. "I'm really sorry if I bothered the two of you but thank you for letting me in and letting me stay." Pascal says as he looks at the two older men. "It's not like we'd turn you away and you didn't really bother us." Lewis says. "Just get some rest, okay?" Nico adds as he smiles at the younger German. Pascal nods and says goodnight to the two of them before Nico and Lewis head back to their bedroom.

The two of them slip back into bed as Roscoe and Coco settle into their own beds in the corner of the room. Lewis pulls the covers around the two of them as Nico moves closer towards him. "I hope he's going to be okay." Nico murmurs as Lewis wraps an arm around him. "He just needs a break. But I have to admit that seeing him cry hurt a bit." Lewis says as he feels Nico rests his head on his chest, right where his heart is. "I know. I keep forgetting he's so young." Nico says before he lets out a yawn. "Or maybe we're just getting old." Lewis teases as he watches Nico's eyes slowly slide shut and his breathing even out. "Sweet dreams, princess."

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Pascal's been staying with them for about two days now. They've tried their best to distract the young German as much as they can. Nico takes him to the gym with him while Lewis distracts him with the dogs and they were glad when Roscoe and Coco could manage to put a smile on Pascal's face.

They notice small things about Pascal that makes Lewis and Nico share worried glances. Like when they caught Pascal staring forlornly at his phone, as if waiting for a certain someone to call him or even send him a message, when it was clearly turned off. They have no problem feeding him as he gladly joins them for meals but Nico doesn't fail to notice the little flinch Pascal let out when Lewis asked him if he wanted tea.

On the third day of Pascal's stay with them, Lewis had to wake up at 4 AM to head to Brackley for some last minute meeting with the team. Lewis leaves Nico in bed with a soft kiss on his lips and his forehead promising that he'll be back in time for dinner. Nico wake up about four hours later, checking on Pascal if he's awake and ask him if he wanted to go on a hike but the younger man was still asleep and Nico bends down to talk to the dogs to watch over Pascal while he's gone. Nico comes back an hour later to see Pascal just coming out of the guest room. Nico smiles at him and asks if he wants breakfast in which Pascal gives him a grateful smile and nods before following him to the kitchen.

Time flies by as Nico gets some chores done with the help of Pascal, even though Nico insisted that he was their guest and he shouldn't do anything, they get things done in half the time and Nico starts on making lunch a bit earlier than planned. Nico looks over to where Pascal was fixing up a bowl of salad. "I hope you don't mind me asking but how's Jolyon like?" Nico asks, fully prepared for Pascal to brush off the question. But instead he gets a small smile from the young German before he answers the question. "He's great. Maybe that's a bit vague but he really is." Pascal says.

"When did you two start dating?" Nico asks as he shuts off the stove and plates their food. "We first met in 2014, at the Race of Champions, we were teammates but we didn't really mind each other then. But we got paired up again in 2015 and this time it was different. He was already guaranteed a seat and I just won my championship. It just seemed different that time, like it wasn't the same Jolyon in 2014 and I wasn't the same Pascal and everything felt right. I don't know how to describe it. But things just felt right and we were chatting more and smiling at each other more. Next thing I know we were going out to get dinner in London after the event." Pascal says, the smile still on his face.

"Is he your first?" Nico asks as he watches Pascal blush before nodding yes. "He's my first everything. I've never felt this way for anyone before. Maybe it wasn't love at first sight but it felt like if you meet someone and it's not the right time then they're not the right person. But then you can meet each other again and it's the right place, right time and the right person then it just feels amazing, like everything falling into place. Every moment in your life leading up to it was worth it." Pascal finishes as he looks at Nico who was taken aback by what he said. Pascal sounding wiser than his years and Nico can see how much love Pascal has for Jolyon and it just hurts to remember why Pascal was sitting here with him than back in London with Jolyon.

They finish up their lunch and decide on crashing out on the couch to watch some movies before Nico starts on dinner and they wait for Lewis to arrive. Pascal has Coco cuddled up on his chest while Roscoe was by Nico's feet when Nico gets a message from Lewis. 'Heading home soon. I'm bringing someone with me.' The message says and Nico furrows his brows but doesn't think much of it. Usually it's Lewis' brother that he lets stay over with them whenever Lewis picks him up when he's in the UK. But surely Lewis must remember that Pascal's staying with them so where's Nicholas going to be staying at?

They finish their movie and was about to put on another one when Lewis enters the apartment followed by another Britt that wasn't his brother. Jolyon was looking sheepish and tired, his eyes were a bit red and he has this aura of feeling lost, as Nico gives him a curt nod before he steps aside. "Pascal?" Jolyon says tentatively, scared that Pascal might bolt the moment he sees him. "Jo? What, how are you here?" Pascal asks looking at Jolyon with wide eyes. "I called him and said that you two needed to talk." Lewis speaks up, his voice unusually stern as Jolyon tenses up as Lewis eyes him up even though he was facing the other way. Nico walks towards Lewis who grabs Nico's jacket and leads him out of their apartment to give the younger pair some space.

"I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry." Jolyon blurts out the moment the door closes behind him and the two of them were finally alone. "I'm so stupid to let you walk out the door and I thought I'd lost you for good." Jolyon says as he steps closer towards Pascal. "No. I understood why you said those things but I didn't expect it to hurt that much. I felt like I couldn't breath, that I had to get as far away from you, that's how I ended up here." Pascal says, avoiding Jo's eyes and how crestfallen Jo looked when he said that. "Oh god, Pascal. I shouldn't have said those things. I'm so stupid and scared of people finding out but when you walked out I realized I was more scared of loosing you." Jolyon says as he tentatively reaches out towards Pascal who fell into his arms as he lets out some tears he's been holding back. "I love you and sometimes it scares me that I'll do something wrong and you'll leave me just like that." Pascal says in between labored breaths as Jo rubs circles on his back. "And I love you that you won't do anything wrong in my eyes. Because I know that everything you do is out of love and I'll be the biggest idiot in the world if I ever let you go." Jolyon says as he lifts Pascal's head so they can look at each other properly before he leans in and gives him a kiss. Pascal lets out a sigh as they kiss, relieved that he can still have Jolyon like this, that they can still hold each other and share kisses. Everything can be alright again.

It was already late when Lewis and Nico got back in. Lewis was in an adventurous mood and they ended up picking up dinner to go and driving off to have an impromptu picnic as they drive off to one of their favorite spots in Monaco. It was nice and peaceful, just the two of them as they tune out the rest of the world, it was moments like this that remind them that everything's worth it in the end because they have this. "You think they made up?" Nico asks Lewis as they share some fruits as the stars shine down on them. "They better have. I don't really want to kick Jo's ass if ever." Lewis says as he chews on a grape. Nico snorts as he pops another grape into his mouth. "You beating up someone? Please, you're such a softy." Nico chuckles as Lewis tries to kick him but misses. "You're lucky I love you or I'll beat you up." Lewis jokes and a moment passes between them, just looking at each other, grateful to have the other in their life. "Yeah, well lucky me." Nico says before he sticks his tongue out. "Damn right you're lucky."