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The ER is loud in the way oceans are loud.
Constant. Endless. A sound you stop noticing after a while because it never truly stops.
Monitors beep in uneven rhythms. Nurses call for labs. Someone laughs too loudly near the nurses’ station while someone else argues with radiology over the phone.
It’s the soundtrack of The Pitt.
Most nights, Mel King moves through it easily.
The chaos makes sense to her.
People come in broken.
You try to fix them.
You move on.
Tonight the noise feels like pressure building behind her eyes.
She’s been awake too long. Worked too many shifts this week. Spent the afternoon before work helping her sister through a neurologist appointment that left them both quietly terrified.
She’s tired in the way that sinks into bone.
Mel leans over the nurses’ station counter, scanning a chart she’s already read twice.
Across the room, Frank Langdon is explaining something to a resident.
He gestures with a pen while he talks, brow furrowed in concentration.
Mel looks away quickly.
She’s gotten good at that.
⸻
The first time she realized something was wrong had been months ago.
Nothing dramatic.
No lightning bolt moment.
Just a quiet shift where Frank had been sitting beside her during charting, shoulders nearly touching, both of them too tired to speak.
He had said something dumb—she can’t even remember what now—and she had laughed.
Not politely.
Not the quick tired laugh people give coworkers.
A real one.
Frank had looked at her like he hadn’t expected that sound from her.
Like it mattered.
That had been the first crack.
After that things started shifting.
Small things.
The way he noticed when she skipped meals.
The way she noticed when his coffee cup had been empty too long.
The way they seemed to find each other across the department during the worst parts of a shift.
None of it meant anything.
Except it did.
And the worst part was they both knew it.
⸻
“King.”
Mel startles slightly.
Frank is standing beside her now.
She didn’t hear him approach.
“Yeah?”
He slides a chart toward her.
“You wrote the wrong dosage here.”
Mel glances down.
“Right.”
Their fingers brush as she takes the paper.
The contact lasts less than a second.
Still.
Something shifts in her chest like a door being opened somewhere it shouldn’t.
“Thanks,” she says.
Frank nods once.
He doesn’t leave immediately.
The moment stretches.
“Quiet tonight,” he says.
Mel snorts.
“You just jinxed it.”
“Probably.”
His mouth lifts slightly.
Mel pretends to focus on the chart again.
Frank leans against the counter beside her.
Close enough that she can feel the warmth of him.
This has become a problem.
Not the proximity.
The awareness.
Her brain tracks where he is now without her trying.
Which hallway he’s in.
Which patient he’s with.
The sound of his voice even in a crowded room.
It’s inconvenient.
Dangerous.
And completely unavoidable.
Frank’s phone buzzes against the counter.
He glances down.
Something soft passes over his expression.
Mel hates that she notices.
“My wife,” he says absently while typing a quick response.
The words settle between them like a weight.
Mel keeps her face neutral.
“Everything okay?”
“Yeah.”
Frank pockets the phone.
“Kids won’t go to sleep.”
Mel nods.
She’s heard about them before.
Soccer games.
Homework meltdowns.
Bedtime negotiations that apparently require more strategy than most trauma cases.
Frank talks about them the way people talk about the center of their lives.
Mel always listens.
She always pretends it doesn’t hurt.
“They’ll crash eventually,” she says lightly.
“Hopefully.”
Frank glances at her.
“You look exhausted.”
“I am exhausted.”
“When was the last time you slept?”
Mel shrugs.
“Define sleep.”
Frank frowns slightly.
“Mel.”
She knows that tone.
It’s the same one he uses when a patient is lying to him about pain levels.
“I’m fine,” she says.
Frank studies her for a moment like he’s deciding whether to argue.
Before he can, a nurse calls his name from across the department.
He pushes off the counter.
“Later,” he says.
Mel nods.
But when he walks away, the air around her feels strangely colder.
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The shift drags.
Two minor traumas.
One overdose.
A fracture.
Nothing catastrophic.
Still, the hours stretch endlessly.
By the time the clock creeps past two in the morning, exhaustion settles over the ER like fog.
Mel slips into the break room mostly in search of coffee.
The lights are dimmer in here.
Quieter.
Frank is sitting at the small table with a paper cup of coffee.
He looks up when she enters.
“Hey.”
Mel hesitates.
“Am I interrupting?”
“No.”
She grabs a cup from the machine and sits across from him.
For a while they just exist in the same space.
Frank stares at his coffee.
Mel watches the steam rising from hers.
“You ever think about leaving?” Frank asks suddenly.
Mel looks up.
“Leaving what?”
“The ER.”
She shakes her head immediately.
“No.”
“Never?”
Mel considers the question.
Then she shrugs slightly.
“I don’t really get that option.”
Frank frowns.
“What do you mean?”
Mel turns the coffee cup slowly in her hands.
“My sister needs pretty consistent care,” she says quietly.
Frank nods slowly.
“You’ve mentioned that.”
“Yeah.”
She keeps her eyes on the cup.
“Her condition’s… unpredictable.”
Frank doesn’t interrupt.
Mel exhales softly.
“Hospital hours actually make it easier.”
“How?”
“I can plan around them,” she says. “Sort of.”
Frank’s expression softens.
“That’s a lot to carry.”
Mel laughs quietly.
“It’s just life.”
“You’re allowed to admit it’s hard.”
She glances up.
Something about the way he’s looking at her makes her chest tighten.
“You’re allowed to admit when you’re tired too,” she says.
Frank leans back slightly.
“Fair.”
The silence that follows feels different.
Heavier.
Frank studies her face for a moment.
“You ever wish things had gone differently?”
The question is soft.
Careful.
Mel knows he doesn’t mean careers.
Or schedules.
Her pulse quickens slightly.
“Differently how?” she asks.
Frank doesn’t answer right away.
Instead he rubs the back of his neck like he’s suddenly unsure of himself.
“Just… differently.”
Mel’s chest feels tight.
Dangerous territory.
She could step around it.
Pretend she doesn’t understand.
But something tired and honest in her refuses.
“Frank,” she says quietly.
He looks up.
For a moment neither of them speaks.
The space between them is filled with things they’ve never said out loud.
Frank exhales slowly.
“I love my family,” he says.
“I know.”
“And my kids…”
“I know.”
Mel’s voice is steady even though her chest hurts.
Frank nods slightly.
“Good.”
The word lands heavier than it should.
Mel stares down at her coffee.
It’s gone cold.
“We’re good at this,” she says after a moment.
“At what?”
“Pretending we don’t notice.”
Frank laughs softly.
There’s no humor in it.
“Yeah.”
Another silence stretches between them.
This one hurts more.
Mel stands.
“I should get back.”
Frank nods.
“Yeah.”
She reaches the door.
Her hand rests on the handle.
“Mel.”
She turns.
Frank is watching her with something painfully honest in his expression.
“I’m glad you’re here,” he says quietly.
The words hit her harder than they should.
She nods once.
“Me too.”
Neither of them says what they’re actually thinking.
Mel opens the door and steps back into the bright noise of the ER.
Behind her, Frank stays sitting at the break room table.
Both of them knowing the same thing.
Some feelings don’t get to become anything.
No matter how much they exist.