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Entry 1: Mirrors
RBL0XXER sat at his computer, looking through his phone waiting for a certain special someone. ‘where the fuck is he…’ he thought to himself before that iconic discord ping rings in his headphones from the one and only… tinnyzpot64!
“Hey dudd!! im back what du u wanna play >_>?” RBL0XXER rushed to put his phone down and started typing before stopping to think, then sent; “Idk really man but is WAAPP fine for you?” He then goes to open the roblox page for the game, sighing as he does so. ‘Finally.. he's online ive been waiting for ages.’
“ok !!! ill join u ^_^” tinnyzpot64 replies before quickly following it up with “how r u btw?? u seemed spaced out at school” … “i just wanna check up dw”
RBL0XXER pauses as he was about to open WAAP ‘oh… he noticed…’ RBL0XXER then types up a distractor… Maybe he can avoid the question. “oh? nothing really man its not important”
‘Was it really??’ he thinks to himself. For the past few days he's been thinking about his home life. It wasn’t the greatest but he's got a roof over his head surely wtv he's feeling isn't really important.
“oh ok ! im just worried d thats all”
tinnyzpot64 replies as he then types up “oh btw u wann start a vc in the gc so we can all chat?? i think starzzy_lulz is online.”
RBL0XXER snaps out of it as he hears the discord notification ping again, his hands hovering over the keyboard. ‘well.. she's pretty nice to talk to… I mean the more the merrier right?’ “Alright dude start the call im join WAAP tell her to join me too”
tinnyzpot64 sends a simple “ok” as he starts a call, with Starzzy_lulz joining in with her voice sounding stuffy. “hiii guys!! im a bit sick so uhm– sorry if i sound off”
“It's fine anyways you wanna play WAAPP with me and Eric?” tinnyzpot64 speaks with his squeaky voice, despite being 14. “Sure!!” starryz_lulz replies as RBL0XXER finally joins the call, feeling tired as ever but he can't let his friends down, he did make a promise to actually play with them after all.
“hi guys” - RBL0XXER
“hiii Eric!!” They both say at the same time, matching eachothers pitch before tinnyzpot64 starts giggling. RBL0XXER smiles to himself– only a bit. ‘At least I have my friends right? Now's not the time to be sad cmon Eric..’ “Hey dudes cmon join me we got pizza to cook dude”
They joined the game, playing as normal, trolling people by hitting them with cars and spamming the pizza dough on the floor—well only the work of RBL0XXER and starzzy_lulz making the whole kitchen… uhm wtv they were doing idk… as the players who were there slowly left leaving only 5 people.
After a moment of silence, tinnyzpot64 squealed out “THE MANAGERS POSITION IS OPEN OML” as it was then followed up by starzzy_lulz’ screaming into her mic because she has wayy to much energy, “ILL RACE YOU TO IT BITCH” with RBL0XXER trailing behind muttering to himself about those idiots.
He thought of them as idiots, but in a kind caring type way. He loved them both genuinely but there was a creeping thing in his mind— anxiety perhaps telling him that something was gonna happen but nothing did. Everything was going to be fine, he reassured himself. ‘stupid head… stupid everything.. whatever..’
His mind finally snapped back just in time to hear tinnyzpot64. “HAH beat you Julie!!! That’s what YOU get for last time!!”
“UNFAIR AHEM and what happened last time wasn’t even my fault— it was Eric’s!!” She retorted.
“Hey hey when did I have anything to do with you twos bickering all I remember from last time was—” As RBL0XXER got cut off from tinnyzpot64.
“WELLL… it was YOU TWO who were abusing me last time we got together in WAAPP… throwing all my pizzas onto the floor and burning them up… meanies.” tinnyzpot64 muttering the last part to himself before also adding on “And I know you were trying to do it to me earlier!!!”
“Was not— totally.“ starzzy_lulz returned with her sarcastic trademarked “totally.”
RBL0XXER was now arguing with his friends, laughing for real and finally enjoying himself, something he hadn’t felt in a while, pushing away everything he had felt earlier just to be stuck in the moment.
After hours of hours, later it was dark.’Already 21:36?’ RBL0XXER thought to himself. “Hey guys don’t you think it's late?”
starzzy_lulz who was silent from boredom responded with “Uhm.. out my window is dark so i’d say so— and I'm sick so might head off early.. which is right now.”
“Oh that— fine it’s alright.” He spoke, sounding disappointed before turning his attention to tinnyzpot64. “Hey dude you there?”
“Yeah? I agree with you it is late so.. I think I'll head off with Julie” he answered. His heart skipped a beat, his hope fading. ‘That sucks.. I thought he’d stay on later like usual.’
“It's alright Matt, don't worry about it. I’ll… I'll see you tomorrow..” RBL0XXER muttered.
tinnyzpot64 left first, followed by starzzy_lulz leaving RBL0XXER all alone in the empty call. ‘That was fun wasn’t it?.. cmon dude it’s late lets just go to sleep’ He got up, feet rubbing across the carpet before it met the soft creaking groan of the floor boards as he headed the the bathroom his thoughts everywhere unease linging behind seeming without reason.
‘Get it together Eric, you’re fine. It’s just a weekend night like every other… everythings fine there’s nothing to worry about’ His hand met the cold, metal doorknob as he turned it, a reflection of who he is meeting him behind it.
He stared at it. Was it really him? Of course it was, why wouldn’t it be? Maybe its just the weariness of it all. He hated his reflection, it was weird staring at… yourself. All it did was stare at him in silence mimicking his moves.
After a bit of thought, he finally began to brush his teeth, his copy moving with him.
When he was done, he walked back through the dark hallway, it seeming longer. At last, he reached his room, opening that creaking door and finally laying on top of that soft, safe bed. But it didn’t feel safe to him. His mind was still a mess.
Laying in silence, turning, thinking as that oppressive feeling creeped back into his mind, his worry growing strong and questioning swirling in his mind. After one final turn, his body succumbed to the exhaustion, letting go and drifting away.
[End Entry 1]