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1. Blame it on the black star by rit3s_0f_r0manc3

   Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco  

   • Mature
   • Major Character Death
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   20 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • Major Character Death
   • Ryan Ross/Brendon Urie
   • Ryan Ross
   • Brendon Urie
   • Suicide
   • I Wrote This Instead of Sleeping
   • Angst with No Happy Ending
   • 2008
   • pretty odd era
   • Established Relationship
   • Song: Northern Downpour (Panic! at the Disco)
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Self-Harm
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Emotional Hurt
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Angst
   • Blood

   Summary

   Brendon lies on the bathroom floor, still shirtless. Alternating between screaming Ryan’s name until his throat is raw and hoarse and banging his blood-stained fists against the tile. If only to feel a fraction of the pain Ryan felt. It’s not enough; nothing will ever be enough.

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   English

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