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The flame of love
It was cold, too cold. Your presence brought warmth even through you created so much pain till I had to tiptoe around your narcissistic heartbreak, I knew you were gonna leave but why did you have to do it so fast, as I watched the doors poor out I realised I long for you; for your unrealing soberness as it created the most toxic areas until you kissed the bittersweet amongst your arms.
I accepted you would never love me the way that I needed, you had me wishing on stars that have already died turning to the darker skies as you vanished looking upon something greater than my existence, I settled for your love that reminded me of how little I deserved, you had me trying to prove that even though we are both women we are worthy of pure love. but I saw the way your eyes drifted as he swept by as his cologne left a lingering scent of betrayal and unrequited love in the air and your body twitched as he left only leaving nothing but a memorable emotion that I deserved to be a side piece just because you can't come to your longing sense of your sexuality.
alley-rose, why? You promised me a forever that you couldn't keep. You barely know who I am and that it's no other fault than myself, I feel humiliated in my own flesh. I guess that everything comes back around but when.
The first time our eyes met it felt like the sun had exploded, the instant warmth and butterflies that flew around us drew in a memoizable embrace. As the wind blew through the free willow trees along the gate I knew I would love you and I would continue to love you forever until it ended.
Your soft skin glided across my hand and made me feel a way I could never feel again, you made me believe that I was worth something more in my life than just a background character, the way you held my head and brushed your fingers through my hair made my heart skip beats for an eternity. You made me see someone in a different way other than hatred. you had the most beautiful and loving souls I have ever met. words nor actions cannot describe the amount of unconditional love I had for you. I have loved you since we first started talking and everyday you remind me why I fell for such foolishness, the sweet loving soul that continues to flourish and shines radiating light that brings the happiest moments of pure laughter and enjoyment was nothing less than a facade.
Until it wasn't, you changed, a cold breeze came over and turned my sun to rain, destroying the world I had built hand by hand for you. I turned to you for answers yet you gave me nothing, apart from looking beyond my love to something less. I meant the littlest to you when you mistakenly took my love for granted and used it as a way to experiment your way through life.
You had convinced me day by day that I was a burden, deserving little to no love. I felt tolerated in my own relationship causing me to question the ‘love’ we had. I found answers that confirmed that we were two worlds apart, it broke me more than anything. you saw this yet you still acted like we never were together and that made you the actor of manipulation in the end.
It feels like we buried something that never died, a resemblance of our fainted love as I caught you meeting up with him more and more every moment. I just want you to free me due to the love you take and you take just because you know you can, sadly I worship every moment our skin meets, causing a desolate need. And you know I'll come running back to you with every breath you take and I foolishly knew that too.
So give my heart a break as you fiend for the love that I have given you after you were out with another man. you asked what's the matter when I heard his voice in the driveway then you continued to lie to me faster and faster. please let go of my heart before it turns into something we both can't recognise.
Kissing your ghost was my own fault as your lips grazed someone elses. Jane, you need to know that the heartache that you have caused has led to the love I have for no longer. So as you're reading this you will know why I have left you. After all this time gives you endless opportunities to redeem your love. You gave me nothing but lying scandals.
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Oh heather. only if I knew.
Is it wrong to state that I miss you, or to say I cared. I remember there was a shooting star on the night that we kissed and I’ll wait forever until I see your presence once more. I loved you more than everything; more than the air I breathe. But I couldn't stand the thought of touching another woman. But that’s something we can’t change and that was the love I thought we deserved.