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1. Was it only in my mind? by P4ranoix

   Fandoms: ATEEZ (Band)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   23 Apr 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Kim Hongjoong/Park Seonghwa
   • Minor or Background Relationship(s)
   • Jeong Yunho/Song Mingi (ATEEZ)
   • Choi San/Jung Wooyoung (ATEEZ)
   • Choi Jongho/Kang Yeosang
   • Jeong Yunho & Kim Hongjoong
   • Kim Hongjoong
   • Park Seonghwa
   • Jeong Yunho (ATEEZ)
   • Kang Yeosang
   • Choi San (ATEEZ)
   • Song Mingi (ATEEZ)
   • Jung Wooyoung (ATEEZ)
   • Choi Jongho (ATEEZ)
   • Unreliable Narrator
   • Misunderstandings
   • Miscommunication
   • Idiots in Love
   • Hurt Kim Hongjoong
   • Hurt Park Seonghwa
   • Hurt Song Mingi (ATEEZ)
   • Everyone is Bad at Feelings
   • everyone is hurt
   • why is this not a tag?
   • Sad Kim Hongjoong
   • Sad Park Seonghwa
   • Sad Jeong Yunho (ATEEZ)
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Crying
   • Lots of it
   • author is sorry
   • no beta we die like men
   • English Is Not The Author's First Language
   • Overthinking
   • Kim Hongjoong is a Mess
   • Kim Hongjoong is Bad at Feelings
   • Park Seonghwa is Bad at Feelings
   • Kim Hongjoong Needs a Hug
   • Jeong Yunho is a Good Friend
   • Why Did I Write This?
   • Good Leader Kim Hongjoong
   • Kim Hongjoong-centric
   • But also
   • Jeong Yunho-centric (ATEEZ)
   • and
   • Park Seonghwa-centric
   • Making Up
   • Getting Together
   • Not Beta Read
   • Canon Compliant

   Summary

   Looking back, Hongjoong felt stupid. Seonghwa had stopped hugging him altogether, the only exception had been that day, in front of the cameras. Seonghwa had drawn a line and Hongjoong had completely missed it, Seonghwa had left him behind.

   Had Hongjoong just been blind? Had it been just fanservice?

   Had he not been… special to Seonghwa?

   A MATZ fanfic about overthinking, miscommunication, and misunderstandings. Not every path to healing is linear.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   19,456

   Chapters:

   4/5

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

   65

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