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    After getting deleted, Caine ends up in the computer's recycling bin, and the crew realizes that to keep the circus running, they need to get him back.

    "He'd really fucked it all up. He'd thought torturing them would dull the ache in his chest, the writhing mess of emotions he didn't think he'd ever been programmed to handle. But it hadn't. He felt every bit as inadequate and unloved as before, with the added heaviness of guilt thrown on top. It hadn't been fun, or satisfying, or anything he'd imagined it would be. He just felt emptier.

    He didn't hate them. Even now. He still wanted them to love him, to tell him he was good, to tell him they wanted him.

    The recycling bin was dim, the only light at the top filtering down like a pale distant star. The metal sides were cold, and there was enough room at the bottom for him to lay stretched out twice, and not much more. He curled up in the corner and waited. He wondered what being deleted forever would feel like. Would it hurt?"

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