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1. I need you to know (that I did really try)... by pupsucks

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Explicit
   • Major Character Death, Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   29 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • Major Character Death
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Yuna Hollander
   • David Hollander & Shane Hollander
   • David Hollander & Yuna Hollander
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • David Hollander
   • Yuna Hollander
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • The Author Regrets Nothing
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Homophobia
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Anxious Shane Hollander
   • Hurt Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Yuna Hollander Finds Out About Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Call Me By Your Name References
   • Sleepy Kisses
   • Making Out
   • Mild Smut

   Summary

   "Mom. I need you to know that I did really try. I tried really hard, but I just can't help it... And I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry." Shane's voice came out wrinkled and choppy, dripping in shame and regret, tears flowing down his freckle filled face. The silence lasted a long time. Too long.

   Until Yuna turned to him, with venom in her eyes. "Well you didn't try hard enough." Those six words poured into Shane's brain and repeated over and over again.

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