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The world was no longer a place of logic or air; it was a vibrating, 350°C furnace of asphalt and absolute, crushing adrenaline.

Inside the custom-made matte-black AGV helmet, Tilak’s breath was jagged, rhythmic gasps hit against the chin bar. It echoed back at him with a hollow, metallic resonance. Every inhale he took was a battle — the air was thick with the scent of scorched rubber and the sharp, chemical tanginess of racing fuel that bit at the back of his throat. The heat rising off of the Laguna Seca’s tarmac was like a physical entity; it made a shimmering mirage of distorted air that made the stands look like they were slowly melting onto the parched California hillsides.

It was lap 29 of 32. The stakes were higher like never before.

Inside his AGV carbon-fibre shell, Tilak’s universe was exactly the size of his field of vision—a narrow, letterboxed slit behind a dark-tinted visor. Every single breath he took was a conscious, violent struggle against the G-forces. The air he inhaled was not the crisp, salt-tinged breeze of the California coast; it was this toxic soup of unburnt racing fuel, toasted brake pads, recycled air, and the metallic tang of his own growing fear. His lungs felt like they were being roasted from the inside out, the humidity trapped within the leather suit creating waves of sweat that stung his eyes and slicked his skin.

He shifted his weight, and the 300-horsepower satellite Ducati beneath him buckled in protest. It was a prototype machine, hence the name “satellite” Ducati. The Ducati was a collection of titanium, carbon fibre, and raw, harnessed explosions  It didn’t want to be controlled; it wanted to rip itself to shreds, and Tilak was the only thing holding it back from committing suicide.

He felt the “arm pump” beginning to solidify his right forearm — a medical condition where the muscles begin to swell so much that the fascia can no longer contain it, cutting off blood flow and turning his hand into a useless block of wood claw. Every time he reached for the front brake lever at the end of the Rahal Straight, white, hot, searing pain shot through his fingertips and settled in his shoulder. He had to manually command his fingers to squeeze, an effort that stole precious milliseconds from his reaction time.

Ahead of him, weaving through the track like he was dancing, was the obnoxiously red factory Ducati of Mitchell Starc. His bike was an Italian masterpiece, glistening with a deep, rich scarlet that seemed to glow underneath the California sun. Starc’s riding was clinical, almost like he was a surgeon. His ease was almost insulting to Tilak. He was the golden boy of both the paddocks and the stadiums. The man with multi-million-dollar sponsorships and fans who are extremely loyal and adoring of him that they fill the hillsides with yellow. smoke. To the world, Starc was a hero. To Tilak, Starc was a nuisance; a wall he needed to bypass to reach his ultimate goal — winning the race.

Tilak tucked his chin closer to the fuel tank, trying not to become one with the aerodynamics of the bike. At 180-mph, the wind is not a gas at all; it was a solid wall. It hammered against his helmet, trying to rip his head back, sending vibrations to his skull.

The isolation was absolute. Inside the helmet, he wasn't Tilak Varma, the disgraced darling of Indian cricket after his massive scandal which, by the way, wasn’t even true. He wasn't the man whose face was plastered on billboards from Mumbai to Delhi. He was "The Ghost." He was a silhouette in matte-black leather, a rider without a name, a country, or a more comprehensive background outside of him being Indian. There was a terrifying freedom in having that level of anonymity. Behind the visor, he could scream. He could sob. He could grit his teeth until they cracked, and no one—not the BCCI, not the media, not even Surya—would ever know.

He watched Starc’s rear tire. It was a Michelin slick, and as they leaned into Turn 6, Tilak could see the rubber graining, the tiny "marbles" of spent tire being flung off like shrapnel. Starc was pushing, but he was riding with the grace of a man who had everything to lose. Tilak, on the other hand, had already lost everything once. He had been dragged through the dirt by the media’s machinations, his integrity questioned, his career nearly extinguished. He had nothing left but this—this secret, vibrating madness.

“You think you’re fast because they told you that you were,” Tilak hissed, his voice a gravelly rasp inside the helmet. “I’m fast because the dark is the only place I have left to run.”

Tilak observed Starc’s body language like predator stalking their prey. The Aussie was smooth; Tilak had to give him that. He was a clinical surgeon on two wheels. However, the slight twitch in Starc’s shoulder as they banked through turn 7 didn’t go unnoticed by Tilak. Starc was protecting his line, defending from the looming shadow hunting him. Tilak felt a grim satisfaction. In the cricketing world, Tilak was the one being hunted by not only the very Aussie in front of him and the other cricket teams, but the vultures in the organisation others call the “Board of Control for Cricket in India” (or BCCI, for short) and the public. But here, in the vacuum of the cockpit, he was the predator.

This was the only place where the politics didn't matter. In the paddock, Starc was the hero and Tilak was the disgraced cricketer cowering behind a visor. But on this track, gravity didn't care about reputations. The track didn't care about BCCI bans or tabloid headlines. The only thing that mattered was who could hold the throttle open a millisecond longer. Tilak felt the adrenaline finally begin to mask the pain in his forearms. He wasn't just riding a motorcycle; he was cleansing his soul. He was taking out all the anger, all the betrayal, and all the "what-ifs" of his career and turning them into kinetic energy. He was no longer a man; he was a missile.

He adjusted his positioning, sliding his posterior off the seat and hanging his body  dropped low to the inside of the corner, his elbow mere millimetres from the vibrating curb. The bike protested, the front end "tucking" slightly as the tire struggled for grip on the edge of its profile. It was a warning—a physical signal that he was exceeding the laws of physics. In cricket, if you miscalculate a gap, you lose your wicket. Here, if you miscalculate the gap, you lose your life.

The stakes were intoxicating. Every heartbeat was a gamble. He felt the heat radiating off the engine block, a 100°C blast that cooked his right inner thigh, yet he squeezed the bike tighter. He needed the pain. The pain was the only thing that felt real in a life built on a foundation of lies. He was supposed to be in Bangalore, sitting in a sterile physiotherapy clinic, working on a "strained calf muscle." He was supposed to be the obedient athlete, recovering for the next season of the IPL.

Instead, he was chasing a ghost at Laguna Seca, his heart hammering against his ribs in a frantic rhythm that matched the firing order of the V4 engine. He was living ten lives in a single corner. He was a god, a demon, and a dead man all at once.

Starc braked for the uphill approach to Turn 7. Tilak stayed on the throttle for a heartbeat longer—a terrifying "late-brake" that sent the rear of his Ducati into a gentle, controlled slide. It was a "backing it in" manoeuvre, a display of dirt-track skill that had no business being on a GP circuit. He felt the bike squirm, the frame twisting under the immense load, but he still held it firmly. He was now close enough to see the individual carbon-fibre weaves on Starc’s rear mudguard.

The "Ghost" was no longer a dark smudge in the distance. He was a nightmare in the rearview mirror, a black-clad reaper gaining momentum with every rotation of the wheels. The sensory overload was reaching a breaking point—the noise, the heat, the vibration, and the crushing weight of his secret life all merging into a singular, high-energy scream.

He was at the limit. And the Corkscrew was waiting.

The approach to Turn 8 was not merely a navigational challenge; it was a psychological precipice. To the onlookers, the Corkscrew was a legend that was only whispered about in the paddocks. But to the one behind the wheel, it was a five-foot plunge into the unknown. It consisted of a violent, snapping left-hander that immediately threw you into a hard right. In the span of a few hundred feet, the elevation dropped by 59-feet. The equivalent was driving a 300-horsepower missile off of the roof of a luxury apartment complex and expecting to squarely land on a tightrope.

It was a spectacle of kinetic horrors. Because of the sheer steepness of the Rahal Straight leading up to it, the apex of the corner remained invisible until you were quite literally already starting the descend. You didn’t steer through the corkscrew with your eyes; you steered through it with blind faith, muscle memory and a soul that has already made peace with the possibility of a high side.

As he crested the hill, everything disappeared. For a heartbeat, there was nothing but baby-blue skies and roaring wind. This was the moment of truth. This is where the “Golden Boys” of the factory teams separated themselves from the rest of the grid.

Ahead of him, Starc began his textbook breaking sequence. The red Ducati’s taillights flickered red — the first sign of the carbon-fibre breaks biting. Starc’s rear wheel began to dance, hovering inches of the ground as the massive weight of the bike shifted entirely to the front, compressing them to their limits. Starc was doing everything right. He was shedding speed and preparing his body for the G-force on the left-hand snap.

Tilak, however, didn’t brake.

He remained tucked in; his chin practically fused the fuel tank. The air pressure was a monstrous force now, clawing at the seams of his helmet, trying to snap his neck backward. His brain, wired to put survival first, was screaming a singular command: stop. It pleaded with Tilak to pull the lever, to roll off the throttle, to live to fight another day.

But the Ghost didn’t play by the book. The Ghost didn’t have a reputation to protect, only a destiny he was desperate to seize.

He leaned the bike over with a brutality that defied the laws of friction. His left knee-slider generated a fountain of sparks against the apex like Fourth of July fireworks. And then, with a brute force of the wrists, he did the unimaginable.

He completely ignored the asphalt.

Tilak drove the satellite Ducati into the dirt, sand, and loose, jagged gravel on the inside of the curbing. It was a move immortalized by the legendary Valentino Rossi in 2008 — a manoeuvre so risky it was almost suicidal. The bike buckled underneath him like a wounded animal. The suspension bottomed out with a metallic crunch that Tilak felt in his spine. Dust and grit coated his visor, but he didn’t blink while peeling away the thin plastic layer single-handedly. He felt the rear tire desperately hunting for grip in the dirt, his bike sliding sideways as he plummeted down the hill.

In the media centre, the professional culture of the commentators shattered:

“HE’S GONE INTO THE DIRT! The Ghost has gone into the dirt at the Corkscrew! Absolute, unfiltered audacity! He’s recreating the 2008 pass on Stoner—no, he’s doing it faster! Starc has no answers! The Ghost has quite literally jumped over the factory Ducati! Look at the dirt flying! He’s not a rider, he’s a mountain lion!”

The transition back onto the asphalt was a physical assault. As the tires hit the high-grip surface of Turn 8A, the bike snapped upright with a violence that nearly launched Tilak into the air. The handlebars whipped back and forth—the dreaded "tank-slapper"—threatening to rip the clip-ons from his numb, writhing fingers. Most riders would have let go. Most riders would have just tucked and rolled.

Tilak just pinned the throttle to the max.

The Desmosedici responded with a primal, deafening roar of mechanical triumph. The rubber bit into the track with a screech, the electronics finally finding the logic it needed to propel him forward. He shot out of the shadow of the Corkscrew like a stone from a slingshot, leaving Mitchell Starc a full second behind, choking him in a cloud of dust and disbelief.

Tilak’s heart was beating in sync with the engine’s 18,000 RPM, hammering against his ribs so hard it might’ve jumped out of his ribcage . He didn’t look back, or more accurately, he couldn’t. He didn’t have the breath for it. He just tucked his chin behind the windscreen. He had survived the drop, but it wasn’t over. Not until the checkered flag fell. He was absolutely exhausted physically.

Three laps later, he crossed the finish line. The checkered flag waving in the air was a blur of black and white. The adrenaline, the temporary local anaesthetic, started to wear off, replaced by a crushing wave of physical exhaustion. His lungs felt like they were filled with hot sand, and his vision was tunnelling. The pain was no longer a whisper; instead, it was a scream.

He had won. The Ghost had conquered the United States. But as he rolled off the throttle for the cooldown lap, the weight of the secret he was carrying felt heavier than the bike itself. 

The cooldown lap after winning the race was a hallucination. Tilak pulled into the Parc Fermé, the bike making ticking and popping sounds as the metal cooled down. Immediately, his small, trusted team of mechanics surrounded him, acting as a human barrier to block the lenses of aggressive media photographers from capturing his face while travelling to their garage. The “Phantom Crew"— a very select few people that Tilak trusted with his life and double identity—was dressed in charcoal-grey tactical fire-suits. Most importantly, they wore sleek, black fire-retardant balaclavas and dark goggles. Just like the “Ghost”, they concealed their identities too

Under normal circumstances, the winning driver would have stood on the pegs, punch the air in celebration, and pull off their helmets to bask in the roar and attention from the fans.

Tilak, however, sat motionless.

He kept the dark-tinted visor down, his forehead resting heavily against the worn-out handlebars. His lungs were still labouring, drawing in the heavy, humid air of the Parc Fermé. He couldn't take the helmet off. Not yet. If he did, the "Ghost" would die, and the "Once Prince Now Disgrace to Indian Cricket" would be crucified on the world stage for his "reckless" abandonment of his primary duty.

“Keep your head down,” a muffled voice whispered through the gap in his helmet. It was Dewald, his gloved hand resting firmly on Tilak’s shoulder, guiding the bike as they pushed it towards their private garage.

The moment the bike’s tires crossed the threshold of the garage, the atmosphere shifted from the roars of the crowd to the clinical intensity of a war room. Two mechanics instantly rushed to slam the heavy steel garage doors shut. It was a losing battle at first; the media was a frantic tide, shoving high-end DSLR cameras into the narrowing gap, the flashes strobing like lightning against the concrete floor.

When the rhythmic grind of the doors stalled, Hardik and Dewald spun around. Seeing their colleagues buckling under the pressure of the crowd, they abandoned Tilak and threw their weight into the effort. They helped heave the heavy steel shutters down, their boots skidding for purchase until the locks finally clicked, severing the roar of the flashes and shouts.

The moment the shutters hit the floor and the "Closed" light flickered on, the masks came off in a synchronized blur.

"Check the vitals, Naman! Dewald, the tub — get the ice in there right now!" One of the crew members barked, pulling his balaclava down to reveal Hardik Pandya with a face drenched in sweat and adrenaline, his eyes wide with the frantic energy of someone who just helped to pull off a heist.

In the corner of the garage, a portable, industrial-grade recovery tub had already been filled with water. Dewald began dumping bags of crystalline ice into it, the clatter of the cubes sounding like gunfire in the enclosed space. Naman was already beside the bike, his fingers flying across a laptop connected to the bike’s telemetry and the sensors imbedded in Tilak’s undersuit.

“Heart rate is peaking at 188. Core temp is 39.5°C,” Naman shouted over the roar of the fans, “He’s cooking from the inside out. Get him in the water!”

Hardik and Dewald moved with practiced, gentle speed, acting as a two-man pit crew for a human body. They reached for the quick-release tabs of the AGV helmet, clicking them open. As the helmet was lifted up, a cloud of steam literally rose from Tilak’s head, evaporating in the air-conditioned garage. Tilak’s face was…worrying, to say the least. The colour was completely drained from his face, his eyes were bloodshot and his hair was plastered to his forehead in salt-crusted spikes.

“Come on, stay with us, Tilak,” Hardik muttered, his voice dropping the commanding tone to something raw and protective.

He and Dewald began the agonising process of peeling off the sweat-soaked, one-piece Dainese leather off Tilak’s body while the rest of the crew turned away to give them privacy. They opted to either view the telemetry or. It was like peeling fruit; the leather clung to hid damp skin, requiring brute force and careful manoeuvring to avoid agitating the freshly made bruises blooming across his ribs. After struggling for a while, he was only left with his nothing but his compression bae layer pants.

As they lowered him into the tub, the reaction was instantaneous and violent. The second the 4°C water hit the small of his back; Tilak’s body underwent a massive psychological shock. A sharp, involuntary intake breath, almost sounding like a sob, rang out of Tilak’s mouth.

The cold wasn’t just cold; it was war against his body. It felt like a thousand needles were being driven into his skin simultaneously. His heart, already racing from the 200-mph adrenaline, suddenly stuttered. The sudden vasoconstriction of his arterioles sent his blood pressure through the roof, and for a moment, the world went white.

Then, the panic set it.

Tilak’s hands flew to the edges of the tub, his knuckles turning white as he tried to pull himself out of the tub. His chest was heaving hard, but he couldn’t seem to catch a full breath. The air in the garage felt too thin and too hot. On top of that, the weight of the water felt like a mountain was on top of his lungs, pressing down on them.

“I can’t — I can’t breathe,” Tilak gasped, his eyes wide and unfocused, “Hardik, get me out, get me out, get me — please, get me out!”

“No, you have to stay inside Tilak! Look at me!” Hardik dropped to his knees beside the tub, splashing his own face with the freezing water to try and calm him down by showing that he would be ok, his hands gripping Tilak’s shaking shoulders to keep him submerged, his face laced with guilt and sorrow, “It’s just the shock from the cold water. You’re safe. The ghost is gone; you’re just Tilak now.”

“It’s too much,” Tilak choked out, his teeth beginning to chatter violently as he began shivering. He was caught in a terrifying loop—his mind still back at the Corkscrew, seeing the dirt fly, seeing the bike buckle, while his body was being frozen in a metal box. The walls of the garage seemed to be closing in. The smell of oil and rubber felt suffocating.

Dewald, noticing Tilak wasn’t calming down but instead panicking even more, plunged his hands into the freezing waters to hold onto Tilak’s hands.

“Focus on my voice, Tilak,” Dewald spoke with a soft face and voice, trying not to scare Tilak even more, “One, Two, Three, In. One, Two Three, Out.”

Tilak followed his instructions, letting out a shaky breath as he exhaled when Dewald said “Out”.

For three agonizing minutes, the crew held him there. They were a human anchor for a man drifting into a storm in his mind. Naman kept his eyes glued to the vitals, watching the red lines on the screen slowly dip toward blue.

Slowly, the frantic heaving of Tilak’s chest began to level out. The white in his vision faded, replaced by the blurred, concerned faces of his brothers and crew. The freezing water, which had felt like fire moments ago, now felt like a dull, heavy ache. The panic subsided, leaving behind a hollow, trembling exhaustion.

“How are you feeling?” Naman asked cautiously.

“Like shit,” Tilak rasped, his head falling back against the rim of the tub, a single tear escaping his eye and disappearing into the ice, “Sorry, I must’ve looked embarrassing…” he whispered, his voice barely audible over the humming of the fans.

“Don’t you dare apologize,” Hardik snapped, although, his voice was thick with relief. He grabbed a heavy cotton towel, waiting for the signal to pull him out. “You just did the impossible. You’re allowed to feel it.”

In the corner of the garage, tucked away on a workbench, a private, encrypted phone buzzed. Naman walked over picked it up, checked the screen, and handed it toward the tub.

It was a message from his boyfriend, Surya.

Tilak looked at the screen through the steam of his own breath. The sweetness of the message was a knife to the heart. He was sitting in a tub of  freezing water and ice in California, recovering from a panic attack after nearly dying for a trophy, while the man he loved was at home, planning a quiet dinner for a version of Tilak that didn’t always exist.

‘Podium in five minutes,” A voice crackled over their radio, interrupting them, “The Ghost is being called on.”

Tilak looked up with glassy eyes, he was still vibrating from the cold, but the edge of the attack had already passed.

“I have to… the mask,” He whispered with a hoarse voice. With a grim efficiency, the crew dried him off and put him back into a fresh, dry set of leathers. He looked like a corpse being prepped for display, but as soon as they slid the AGV helmet back onto his head and snapped the visor shut, the Ghost returned. He walked out of the garage, flanked by the phantom crew with their balaclavas and goggles. The transition back into the light was unpleasant. The crowd’s roar hit him like a shockwave as he stepped onto the podium. He stood in the centre, the tallest step of the three, looking out at the sea of fans screaming for a person they didn’t actually know.

The anthem of India began to play, but Tilak didn’t hear it. He watched as the race director approached with the massive, gold-plated trophy. It was heavy, the metal cold against his gloved hands. He lifted it high, the flashes of a thousand cameras were reflecting off his visor. To the rest of the world, he was a god of speed, and untouchable enigma. To only himself, he was a man who had just been crying in a tub of ice, terrified that the pasta waiting for him at home in Mumbai wasn’t a meal he deserved at all.

As the champagne spray began, Tilak didn’t join in. He stood stoic, the trophy clutched to his chest like a shield. He stood like that for two whole minutes. He stayed for the minimum amount of time required, and then, without a single word uttered to the media, he turned and walked off of the stage.

"The flight is ready," Naman said in his ear as they reached the SUV. "Direct drive to the airport."

Tilak got into the SUV first, followed by Dewald, Hardik and finally Naman. Tilak leaned back in the seat as the vehicle sped away. He didn't look at the trophy sitting on the floorboards. He only looked at his phone, where a new message from Surya sat on the screen: "The cricket board is calling. They're asking about Bangalore. Just tell me you're safe, meri jaan. That's all I care about."

He turned the phone off and stared into the darkness of the tinted windows, the silence of the car feeling louder than the race he had just won.

(After the flight back to Mumbai)

Mumbai at 2:30 a.m. was a city caught in a fever dream. The humid air was thick with the scent of the Arabian Sea — a metallic tang that clawed at the back of Tilak’s throat, replacing the fuel fumes from the racetrack in the California desert. As the blacked-out SUV the team had hired glided through the deserted stretches of the Sea Link, the streetlights flickered across the cabin like a strobe light, illuminating the deep, purple shadows underneath Tilak’s eyes.

Tilak was a man made of glass and static. Every joint in his body, from his swollen wrists to his bruised hips, was screaming in an unsynchronised chorus of agony and suffering. With the adrenaline all gone, it left behind not someone fit but a man who looked like a corpse, his exhaustion very evident in his face. In his lap, his hands were still stained with the faint scent of grease from the paddock that was obstinate. He even had a smudge of black oil still underneath his fingernails that he desperately tried to scrub clean with a wet wipe, his movements so obsessive it was borderline destructive. He had to be clean. He had to be just Tilak before those doors opened.

His “Safe House”, a luxury high-rise apartment that overlooked the city, was supposed to be his safe space. But as the car pulled into the basement, the silence felt more like a threat than it felt like comfort.

“We’re clear,” Naman whispered from the front seat, his eyes never leaving the tablet, “No BCCI scouts, no paparazzi. You’re home, Tilak.”

Tilak didn’t move for a long moment. He stared at his reflection in the tinted window. The Ghost everyone adored was gone, replaced by a man in a rumpled hoodie and a baseball cap, but the eyes were still the same: haunted by the memory of the corkscrew. He stepped out of the car; his legs nearly buckling ah his feet hit the concrete.

The elevator ride felt like it went for an eternity. He watched as the floor number on the LED board slowly climbed, his heart rate spiking the closer he got to his floor. This was the real danger. The Corkscrew was just physics, but Surya… he was the heart. The ding of the elevator shook him out of his trance, signalling that he had arrived on his floor.

When the door to the apartment finally clicked open, his sensors were completely flipped. The air smelled like home— scents of roasted cumin, ginger, and the faint, clean scent of the sandalwood incense Surya loved filled the house.

The apartment was bathed in silence, a sharp contrast to the roar of the California crowd still echoing in Tilak's skull. He froze in the entryway, his hand trembling as he let go of his luggage. The living room was bathed in the soft, low-energy glow of a single lamp.

There was Surya.

He was asleep on the sofa, his head tilted at a sharp, uncomfortable angle that would usually prompt Tilak to tease him. On the table, the laptop screen had timed out, but the surrounding papers. thick with cricket match analysis, annotations in bright red on field placements, and training schedules, told the story of a man who had worked until exhaustion.

Tilak’s heart was clenched. It was an innate pull of adoration, sharp enough to momentarily dull the fire in his muscles. He looked so grounded, so safe. Everything Tilak had just come from—the 300 km/h straights, the smell of scorching rubber, the terrifying lean of a bike at Laguna Seca—felt like an absolute fever dream compared to the reality of Surya’s steady breathing.

He moved like a ghost towards the kitchen, every step a calculated negotiation with his screaming nerves. He abandoned his bags there and crept back, sinking onto the rug beside Surya’s head. He didn't move. He just watched, terrified that even a heavy breath might shatter the peacefulness.

Surya stirred. His eyelids fluttered, blinking slowly against the dimness.

"Tilak...?"

The name was a murmur, thick with sleep. Surya shifted, rubbing his eyes with a sluggish hand. "You're back late. Did the flight... get delayed or something?"

Tilak went rigid. His heart hammered against his ribs—not with the adrenaline of the track, but with the cold panic of a lie. He had spent the last forty-eight hours defying gravity in California; Surya thought he was getting a deep-tissue massage from a specialist in Bangalore.

"Yeah, sorry," Tilak whispered, forcing a playful smile to mask the grey exhaustion on his face. He leaned in, the movement pulling at the taped bruises on his ribs, and placed a soft, lingering kiss on Surya’s cheek. "Traffic from the airport was an absolute nightmare. I didn't mean to wake you."

Surya smiled, his eyes still half-closed like crescents, and instinctively reached out. He wrapped an arm around Tilak’s waist, trying to pull him up and into the warmth of the cushions. "You look drained, Tillu. Get over here."

Tilak hesitated. His brain, foggy from the 15-hour flight and the lingering effects of the race, scrambled for a cover. If he laid down on Surya, the heat from his road rash and the stiffness of his bandages would betray him instantly.

"I'm actually super sweaty from traveling," Tilak lied through his teeth, pulling back with a forced, quiet laugh. "I’ll shower quickly. Why don’t you go to bed? I’ll join you in a few minutes."

Surya looked at him then—really looked at him. Even like this, the elite athlete in him sensed a disruption in the rhythm. Tilak was too pale, his movements too deliberate, like a man made of glass.

"Are you sure you're okay, Tillu?" Surya asked, his voice now laced with genuine concern. "Your physio session in Bangalore... it didn't wear you out too much, did it?"

Tilak swallowed hard, the irony of the name "Sky" hitting him—the nickname for the man who was his whole world, while Tilak was out there chasing the actual horizon. He forced a bright, reassuring smile. "I'm fine. Just a long day of traveling, I promise. Go to sleep."

Surya stared for a second longer, searching for a slip up, a crack in the armor, before finally nodding. "Okay. Don't take too long. I missed you."

"I missed you too," Tilak whispered.

He watched Surya untangle himself from the blanket and shuffle down the hallway. The second the bedroom door clicked shut, Tilak’s mask shattered. He let out a long, shuddering breath and let his head drop back against the couch.

His body felt like it was melting onto the floor. Every breath was a serrated blade stabbing into his chest. His hands shook so violently he couldn't even manage the buttons on his shirt. The weight of the world finally settled over him. Out there, he was the Ghost, the mysterious rider leading the MotoGP championship, the most famous athlete no one could seem to identify. But in here, the only thing that mattered was the crushing guilt of the secret he carried to protect the man in the other room