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1. i’d tell them “put me back in it,” and i would do it again. by andmynewlymeltedheart

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Not Rated
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   02 Apr 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Angst
   • Post Tuna Melt and Pre Tampa
   • Yearning
   • Idiots in Love
   • One Shot
   • jerking off but he’s sad about it :(
   • Homophobia
   • Homophobic Language
   • Hate Crimes

   Summary

   “Where is he…I need him…” Shane’s breathing becomes a little erratic, and Ilya tries to keep him calm.

   “Who do you need? Who are you talking about? I will get him.”

   “Where is my…my Ilya…I need him.”

   The road blurs, and Ilya catches a sob in his throat. No part of him considered he might be talking about him, and his stomach drops. Why didn’t he run after him that day? Why didn’t he reassure him, make him feel safe? Ilya can’t say how, but he feels— no, he knows that this, right now, is his fault, and he hates himself for it.

   Or; Shane gets mugged on the way back to his hotel from a team night in Boston, and he calls the one person he’s not supposed to.

   Series

   • Part 1 of psychopomp

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   English

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