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The ballroom shimmered with light, every chandelier ablaze as though determined to outshine the stars themselves. Music swelled and dipped in practiced elegance, the steady rhythm of a waltz carrying couples across the polished floor in a blur of silk and smiles. Laughter lingered too loudly in the air, bright and hollow, as though rehearsed just as carefully as every step and curtsy.
At the edge of it all stood Penelope Featherington.
She had long since perfected the art of stillness. Positioned just so beside a marble column, fan resting idly in her hands, she existed in that peculiar space between presence and absence, seen, but not regarded. It was a talent, truly, to be so thoroughly overlooked in a room that demanded attention from everyone within it.
Her gaze drifted, not with expectation, but with habit. She observed because there was little else afforded to her. Observed the eager mamas, the calculating glances, the practiced flirtations. Observed the way affection was bartered like currency and admiration worn like decoration.
And then, inevitably her attention settled on him.
Simon Basset stood not far from the dance floor, though one might argue he existed entirely apart from it. Where others leaned in, he leaned back. Where others smiled, he merely inclined his head. There was a detachment to him that did not invite curiosity so much as defy it.
Several young ladies had already attempted to engage him that evening. Penelope had watched each effort with quiet fascination.
She watched debutantes enter his circle with a hopeful approach, a polite exchange and then a swift retreat.
It was not cruelty that defined his refusals, no, that would have been simpler to understand. Instead, there was something far more deliberate in the way he kept himself removed. As though every interaction was measured and dismissed before it could take root. As though connection itself were something to be avoided, not merely neglected.
Penelope’s fingers tightened slightly around her fan. How strange, she thought, that such a thing could be chosen. Her gaze lingered longer than it ought to have. Long enough to notice the subtle shifts others would miss like the faint tension in his jaw when laughter rang too close, the way his eyes flickered, not with boredom, but with something sharper. Awareness, perhaps or restraint. It didn't seem he was indifferent to it all, but he was careful.
The realization settled uneasily within her.
Across the room, a burst of laughter rose bright, careless, effortless. Penelope did not need to turn to know she was not included in it. She rarely was. The knowledge did not sting as sharply as it once had; time had dulled it into something quieter, more familiar. Still, the feeling of being left out lingered, it still pressed into her mind uncomfortably.
Her mother’s voice cut through the air moments later, sharp with expectation, though not directed at her. It never was, unless disappointment required an audience. Penelope lowered her gaze briefly, her posture remaining perfectly composed even as something within her shifted, restless and unsteady.
Invisible. The word had never felt entirely accurate. For invisibility suggested absence, and Penelope was not absent. She was… disregarded. There was a difference.
And yet her eyes lifted once more, drawn back to the Duke as though by instinct rather than intention. He had moved little, if at all. Still positioned at the edge, still removed, still untouched by the current of the room. But where Penelope was pushed to the margins, he stood there by design. Where she was dismissed, he dismissed.
He had taken the very thing that confined her…
…and turned it into power.
The thought struck with a sharpness she had not anticipated. How easy it must be, to reject what others so desperately sought. To stand apart and call it freedom. To wear solitude not as consequence, but as choice.
Her breath caught, just slightly.
Did it feel as effortless as he made it seem? Did the quiet not press in, eventually? Did the distance not hollow, over time?
Or was it simply easier...simpler to claim one did not want what one feared could never be kept?
Penelope swallowed, her gaze faltering at last. It was a foolish line of thinking. Impertinent. Entirely improper. The Duke of Hastings was not a puzzle for her to solve, nor a subject for her scrutiny beyond the safe distance of observation she maintained with everyone else.
And yet… she could not quite dismiss it. Because for one fleeting, dangerous moment, she understood him. Or believed she did.
The music shifted, the dance drawing to a close as applause rippled politely through the room. Movement resumed almost immediately, conversations picking up as though they had never paused at all.
Penelope remained where she was, unmoved and unnoticed.
Unremarkable.
Across the ballroom, the Duke turned slightly, his expression unchanged, his composure as effortless as ever. No one would question his distance. No one would dare. A strange, unwelcome heat rose in her chest. How dare he. How dare he stand so assured in his solitude, when she had spent years learning how to survive hers.
It was not envy, no, not quite. It wasn't admiration. It was something far less comfortable and more sharper that struck her. The kind of thought that refused to settle once stirred.
Her grip on her fan tightened, then loosened just as quickly, as though she had caught herself in the act of something improper. This was nothing. A passing curiosity. A moment of misplaced introspection.
By morning, it would fade.
It had to.
And yet, as her gaze drifted once more, just once more toward the man who had unknowingly unsettled her entire evening, Penelope felt the faint, unmistakable pull of something she could not name. She wouldn't call it outright fascination that swirled through her mind but it was something that whispered, quietly and persistently
*Ask him.*
Penelope looked away at once, her heart beating far faster than the moment warranted.
The thought was absurd, reckless...impossible.
And still…It lingered.