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Rozemyne did not understand how this had begun.
That was not entirely true. She remembered the moment with uncomfortable clarity. What eluded her was not the beginning, but the continuation—why it had not stopped, and why she had not stopped it.
Three weeks earlier, she had nearly collapsed in the supply room after pouring too much mana into the foundation. Ferdinand had intervened as he always did: calm, precise, unshaken. A potion had not been enough, so he had taken her hand, drawn her close, and steadied her with his own mana.
It was practical and necessary. That was how she had justified it.
It did not explain the way her heart had responded.
She could still see the faint crease in his brow as he studied her, the intensity of his gaze. Without thinking, she had reached up to smooth it away. He had caught her hand. The contact had stilled her.
Then their lips had brushed. Ferdinand pressed his lips to hers, as if to confirm she’s okay.
It had been slight, so slight it might have been dismissed as accidental. Yet the impression it left behind had been anything but. Something, subtle and irreversible, had shifted.
This memory had not faded.
Worse, it had not remained singular.
Each time she finished supplying Alexandria with mana, Ferdinand drew her into his arms and kissed her. Four times, including the first. It was too many to be explained away, too few to define.
At first, the contact had been light, almost tentative. Recently, it had begun to linger. Once, she had thought she sensed something more in the way he held her, though she could not say what. Perhaps she had imagined it.
What she could not dismiss was the sensation of his mana flowing into her, leaving behind a warmth that spread slowly through her chest—unfamiliar, disquieting, and not unwelcome.
That last part troubled her most.
“Are you alright?” he always asked afterward, his voice even, as though nothing out of the ordinary had occurred.
And each time, she answered yes.
Because it was true. Her thoughts refused to settle, but she did not dislike what had happened. She suspected she ought to.
If Cornelius, her brother—or anyone else—were to learn of it, they would call it improper. Indecent. A failure of judgment unbecoming of her station. They would not be wrong. Cornelius always lectures her about being firm and strict with her own fiancée.
Ferdinand, however, seemed entirely unconcerned with such judgments.
His indifference unsettled her more than the act itself.
She could not bring herself to ask why he continued. More troubling still, she did not know whether she wished him to stop.
She cared for him. That much was beyond question.
But this quiet, persistent warmth—the way it lingered after he released her—belonged to something else. Was this what Yurgenschmitt people called Bluanfa’s dance? Was this what existed between lovers?
He had never said that he desired her in that way. He said he didn’t expect them to have a relationship like other couples, and that he was okay with that. If he could stay by her side and become true family with her, that would be enough. That was what he said when he proposed to her…but that was then.
And so, she was left to wonder what, precisely, this was.
On this day, as on the others, she supplied the foundation with Ferdinand at her side. Her pulse beat louder than she liked, yet he showed no outward sign of change. His composure remained absolute.
She forced herself to match it.
No one suspected anything. Outside the supply room, they kept a proper distance. Anything less would invite whispers, and whispers would not remain contained. She is an Aub, the lord of the land; he was her closest advisor and mentor. To the public, they were not yet married. Even if the gods had acknowledged their bond, it altered nothing here.
And yet everything felt altered.
Her feelings resisted order. She knew she cared for him. She had risked her life for his twice, she would do so again without hesitation. That was simple.
This was not.
She was not certain she deserved the kind of affection he showed her. Nor could she bring herself to ask what he intended by it. To ask would mean accepting whatever answer he gave.
“That’s enough,” Ferdinand said.
The signal to stop. She released her hands from the magic circle.
Her thoughts scattered as he extended his hand. She hesitated only briefly before placing hers in his. He drew her into his arms, and the warmth came at once. Steady, grounding, and familiar in a way it should not have been.
“Ferdinand-sama,” she said quietly.
He looked down at her. There was a focus in his gaze that made it difficult to breathe, as though he saw more than she wished revealed.
Their lips met again.
This time, he did not pull away at once. The contact lingered, and the warmth deepened, tightening in her chest until it was difficult to think. Almost without realizing it, she lifted her arms and rested them behind his neck.
He drew her closer. Then—
She felt it.
A sudden warmth against her chest. His hand—hesitant, yet unmistakable—resting there, as though he had moved without fully intending to.
Everything stilled.
For a moment, neither of them moved. Even the air seemed to hold its breath. She looked up at him, and for the first time, his composure faltered—subtly, but undeniably.
“I’m sorry,” he said, releasing her at once.
The warmth vanished, leaving behind an absence sharper than she expected.
He turned away, smoothing his hair, his expression tightening back into control.
“Ah… it’s nothing,” she said, though heat rushed to her face.
Even to her own ears, the words rang hollow.
“No,” he said quietly. “It is not nothing.”
“Rozemyne, I—”
He stopped.
Whatever he had intended to say remained unspoken.
Her pulse refused to steady. Denial would be a lie. Acceptance…
She did not know what that would make them.
“Ferdinand-sama,” she said at last, her voice softer than she intended, “I do not dislike it.”
He studied her, that faint crease returning to his brow. “What do you mean?”
“I mean…” She lowered her gaze, searching for words that would not quite form. “I do not hate it. Not these past few weeks. Not any of it.” The admission lingered between them—fragile, unresolved, and impossible to take back.
She forced herself to think. Ferdinand was not a man to act without purpose. He never engaged in a battle he did not intend to win. Every touch, every lingering kiss over these past weeks—it could only mean he knew. He must have known exactly how she felt.
And yet, her chest tightened, her stomach knotted with a fear she could not explain. If he knew, why did he do this? Why did he tease the edge of something forbidden without speaking the words that would anchor her?
Because he could break her. Because he had the power to reshape the rules of their relationship entirely. And she—she was just Rozemyne, an Aub, his student, his ward, his master and a girl who had allowed herself to be vulnerable around him without knowing the full measure of his intent.
Her mind raced. Was this a test? A lesson? Or… was it something else entirely, something deeper that she was not yet ready to understand?
Her pulse surged, and suddenly, the warmth of his hands, the faint scent of him so close, the steadiness of his gaze—all of it became unbearable. She wanted clarity, but she also wanted to hide, to retreat, to pretend this had never happened. And that, perhaps, scared her more than anything.
Because admitting she did not hate it was only the first step. The next step—understanding what it meant, what it could mean—was far more terrifying.
Her words hung between them, fragile and weighty. Ferdinand’s gaze did not waver, but she could feel the pressure of it, steady and unrelenting. It was not harsh, not angry—nothing to defend against—but it made her stomach twist. He knew. He had to know. Every deliberate brush of his hand, every lingering touch over these weeks could only mean he understood the depth of her feelings.
And yet, why did that knowledge make her so afraid?
Because she did not know what she had invited. Because Ferdinand was not a man to act without purpose. And in that quiet, unspoken way, he held the power to redefine everything between them—her role, her position, her heart. All of it.
Her pulse pounded in her ears. The warmth of his body, the faint scent of him, the unshakable intensity of his gaze—all of it pressed in, heavy and intimate. She had admitted she did not hate it, but that admission felt perilous, like stepping onto the edge of a cliff while he held the ropes. She wanted clarity, but she also wanted to retreat. She wanted to pretend this had never happened, to protect herself from whatever came next.
“Rozemyne…” His voice was low, careful, and it made her heart skip a beat. He had never sounded quite like this, and it made her feel both safe and unbearably exposed.
Her hands twitched against his chest, unsure whether to grip him or pull away. She had wanted to speak, to ask, to demand answers—but the words that came were halting, incomplete. Her mind screamed at her to run, and yet her body refused.
He leaned slightly closer, just enough that her breath caught. She could feel the warmth of him in a new, deeper way—closer, deliberate, claiming yet restrained. Her mind reeled. Every touch, every glance he had given these past weeks, every brush of his hand against hers—it had all been calculated. He had known what he was doing.
And she had let it happen.
The thought terrified her more than anything.
Because admitting she did not hate it was only the beginning. The next step—understanding what it meant, what it could mean was far more frightening. Could she survive the truth of it? Could she survive Ferdinand knowing just how much she had allowed herself to care, to want, to be swayed?
Her chest tightened, her fingers trembling slightly against his coat. And still, she did not pull away.
Because in the midst of her fear, there was something else. Something insistent, something undeniable: a small, stubborn spark of hope.
That, perhaps, was what scared her most of all.
Her chest tightened as she waited, every instinct telling her to step back, to flee, to hide from the intensity of his gaze. But she did not move. She could not. Every instinct in her body was held captive by him—by the quiet certainty in the way he looked at her, by the warmth he exuded, by the subtle gravity of his presence.
He reached out, his hand brushing a loose strand of hair from her face. It was a small, deliberate gesture, intimate but not violent—measured, precise. Every movement was controlled, and yet it carried a weight she had not anticipated. He knew how she felt. He had to. And still… he let her stand there, on the edge of everything, letting her tremble, letting her wonder if she could endure what came next.
“Rozemyne,” he said again, low and steady, and it was not a question this time. It was a claim, gentle but undeniable. His hand lingered near her cheek, the warmth of his palm brushing her skin. She swallowed hard, heart hammering.
She wanted to speak, to ask, to demand—yet no words came. Only her breath, quick and shallow, betrayed the storm of emotions roiling inside her. And he did not need words. His eyes, steady and intent, said enough: he understood, he acknowledged, and he chose her anyway.
Slowly, deliberately, he closed the distance between them. This time, there was no hesitation, no accidental brush—only the intentional, careful press of his lips to hers. The world narrowed to that single point of contact. His hand slid fully into place at her back, drawing her close, and the warmth of him spread through her like fire. Her arms lifted instinctively, resting against his shoulders as her heart threatened to burst.
The kiss deepened, long enough to leave her breathless, short enough to leave her senses on edge. Every thought scattered, every fear tempered by the undeniable certainty of his touch. She could feel him—the steadiness, the restraint, the unspoken promise that he would not let her fall, that he would not abandon her to her own anxieties.
When he finally parted, just enough to let her breathe, his forehead rested lightly against hers. Her pulse still raced, and yet she felt, impossibly, a sense of calm. The fear, the longing, the uncertainty—all of it lingered, but it was tempered by the knowledge that he had chosen her, deliberately, with full awareness.
“Rozemyne,” he whispered, barely more than a breath, his lips brushing hers again in a soft, lingering confirmation. “I will not let you regret this.”
Her eyes fluttered closed, and for the first time since that first accidental brush of lips, she allowed herself to believe it. She allowed herself to feel it—the warmth, the closeness, the shared understanding. And she responded, fully, letting the kiss speak what words could not.
In that moment, all fear and uncertainty folded into the simple, undeniable truth: he knew, and she was his.