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Maybe I was just delusional all the way.
I knew it was never going to work yet my heart still flutters when I see you. Yet I still let myself fall because I thought I could trust you.
You were so nice to me at first. You were the one that reached out to me.
I should've listened to my instincts when they told me to stay away but I wanted to be naive, wanted to believe you were different. That for once I wouldn't be let down.
But it was all wishful thinking. You just broke my heart even harder.
I thought I could rely on you and one day I just woke up to nothing.
I build myself a corner and one day you just took away the key. I thought of you all day long and told you every bit of my day and now that you aren't here I'm all alone and everything reminds me of you. Even the things that have nothing to do with you remind me of you.
And the worst part is that is I can't hate you. That I still want you to succeed. I still want to see you shine.
I can't help but dream of a day where I will be back in your arms. Where none of this happened and everything will just go back yo normal.
You lied to me, that's what hurts the most, you lied to me.
I should've listened to my instincts. I think I said that already but I don't care. I'm just pouring my feelings out onto a page. And if that means rewriting and rewriting, if it means saying the same thing over and over again, than that's what I'm going to do.
Maybe one day this will be on the back of my mind. Maybe one day we will see each other again. Maybe one day you'll feel how I feel right now. Maybe I'll just disappear tonight. Or tomorrow. Or after tomorrow.
Fuck you. But the thought of someone actually doing it makes me want to kill them. And the thought of you of being hurt hurts me too.
But still, fuck you. I hope one day you'll know how I feel. I think.
Goodbye. I love you. Fuck you.