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i regret many things
but i know that you are not one of them
i was always that type of person to think
to wonder about the world
to learn and understand it
when i was cursed with the knowledge of everything
limitless as it was
i understood you
everything of you
and i thank you.
my time ran out
now it's not known where i am
nor how i am
my life seized
but in that momentary freedom
i saw the beauty of that world
and it was through you
i thank you for this journey
even if i may not be there for the rest of yours
remember what i told you
that when it comes to making that decision
that will change the course of your life
no matter what path you take
no matter what life you'll make
no matter what you'll decide on
that you keep going forward
you owe me nothing
and you've paid me with so much
we are two people
two people that came by chance
by stars and by time
in this stupid game
you tried saving me
from a fate that was mine
i cherish you, avery
with everything
i'll find you in everything
as you sought to find me
amidst those endless books
until you fell into the same pit i was in
after that long journey
i may not even know what you'll say to me
i may not get to hear you or see you again
like how you wanted to find me
will you embark to find me once again?
by now, i truly have no way to stop you.
that first video
i sought for curiosity
that second
you sought for me
what will find us on the third count?
what will lie before us, avery?
as i deteriorate
even with all that i have
i do not know
and you do not either
we weren't meant to learn everything
we were meant to live like people
like how we were supposed to
if you are to find me once again
you do not owe it to me
and even if you do not believe that
even if you still strive to find me
against the odds that push against you
even if you achieve it again
selfishly, to meet you again
is like seeing all the beauty of the world again
all in one form
for that one time we were together
you were all i really had
and knowing you
i was all you really had too
so i thank you for everything
avery, things may not change,
but that's okay.
at that crossroads
it doesn't matter if you turn left or right
even on that decision that you will regret
its fine
what matters is that you keep going
that you go forward
if not for yourself
then for me
for what we had and what we might have in the future
you might've never known me
and i might've known everything of you
for a time and at a time in the future
if ever we are graced with the beauty of learning each other
that would be the only thing i need to learn left
and if i find that contentment
the only thing left would be to bask in that
for the rest of my days
but at the end of my life
that might not be a chance i can take
so thank you
you have a future clearer than what my mind can see
i've seen clearest and i've seen dulled
but the only thing that cannot be denied
is that i see a future for you avery
and i wished that i had that future with you
thank you for everything, avery
love everything as i've known.
as i've known you
love you