Chapter Text
Chuuya and Dazai were always bickering in port mafia like an old couple always saying they hated eachother but the truth was they cared about eachother more than anyone ever can behind all those threaths and punches there was a silent crush that none of them could utter. After Odasaku's death Dazai left Port Mafia everyone through he was dead..well he wasnt. Mori searched for him because of his power Chuuya searched for him too , he searched for him the most. And the reason? if you ask him he would say because he cant use corruption but the real reason is that he cares about Dazai, more than anyone.
At first Chuuya would search for him at night knowing Dazai loved silently walking around at night then he started searching day and night but at a point he understood that he was gone for real so he stoped the search but he kept walking around at night becoming a routine thinking he might be hiding at a random alley but his route would always lead to a bar so one day he just started drinking so he can sleep peacfully and not think about that bastard 24/7
İt was a normal sunday night Chuuya was at the bar drinking whatever knocks him out easiest so he finnialy can sleep peacfully he took one sip after another the screams in his heart finnialy geting more silent..he wasnt like this before the first week Dazai dissapeared he didnt belive he died so he was calm..but now that its been 2 years since his dissapearence he finnialy accepted that Dazai was dead.Then Chuuya took another sip finishing the drink in one go and slamming the glass on the table both angryly and sad every eye on the bar was turned towards him
The barmen looked at him pityfully he knew Chuuya because he was a regular at first times Chuuya came he would he would angryly talk to the barmen about how angry he was and how we was gonna find Dazai but each time he came he was more desperate the barmen saw the difference too he used to see him mad first then sad but now.. he wouldnt even look up hed just silently cry then leave withouth saying a word ,How pitifull.
Noticing the glances in his way Chuuya silently pays and gets off the bar his steps firm walking to his apartment then he saw someone, no he saw Dazai. He quickly turned around to take a glance again it surely was Dazai, that lenght that hair the bandages the voice he definetly was Dazai. Thanks to his sixth sense or whatever Dazai turned back too and he saw Chuuya they both locked eyes for a moment and Chuuyas eyes got teared.
What was he doing? he should run to Dazai now he should beat him he should ask him where the hell was he he should....do something! But his legs didnt let him instead he turned back and ran to his apartment but with the drunkness and sadness his legs were weak but he still ran fast as he could.İt was almost like the loud city got quiter all of a sudden ignoring his colleagues behind Dazai ran after Chuuya he entered Chuuyas apartment Chuuya tried walking up the stairs but his legs were weak he could hardly get up the stairs then Dazai appeared behind him
Dazai grabbed Chuuya by his waist the dim lighting in the hall creating a tension then Dazai spoke softly "Running after our first meeting since two years? Youre realy a bad dog Chuuya.." Dazai said to Chuuyas ear his voice low then Chuuya replied firmly but his voice cracking "Let go of me...you damn mackerel!" he said his voice coming out silent despite his efforts "Aww is my dog crying because of me~?" Dazai said obviously flirting "İm not your dog!" Chuuya said his voice stern but silent "Come on now Chuuya i let go of my colleagues to meet you again we have lot to talk right?" Even tho Chuuya didnt wanna agree with Dazai he silently nodded
After then Dazai finnialy let go of Chuuya then they walked into Chuuyas apartment Chuuya still couldnt believe his eyes, the person he though was dead, his first love , Dazai was alive. After entering the apartment Dazai sat on the couch like he owned the place and sighed and looked around, it was the same as he last remembered seeing Chuuya anxious Dazai pattes the seat next to him so Chuuya sits next to him
"Why didnt you tell me?" Chuuya says breaking the silence his words coming out unnecesarily rude Dazai's smile fading "İ wanted you to move on from me and have actual good memories i would just burden you" Dazai said with a neutural voice but Chuuya got angry and grabbed Dazai by the collar "How do you know what İ will feel! İ didnt move on at all! You...couldve told me!" Chuuya says his firm voice getting more desperate bu each word his eyes getting teary "You could have atleast told some-..!" just then Dazai cuts his sentence "Otherwise the mafia would kill me..then you next i did it because i cared about you Chuuya so please stop hiding behind a tough act" Dazai says his voice stern but carrying a hint of softness
Withouth another word Chuuya hugs Dazai while still shouting him names while tears pour down his cheeks was Chuuya this sensitive because of the alhocol or because he saw his first love after two years well nothing mattered that time anyways he would forget it but the real question..would his body forget it? Dazai lifted Chuuyas chin to look at him at the moment their eyes meet they both went in for a kiss the moment their lips met the atmosphere changed instantly Dazai hold Chuuyas back to hold him instictively and the moment they broke the kiss both of them was very embarresed their cheeks red then Dazai stood up suddenly "İ..i have to go back im sure my colleagues are worried about me" Dazai mumbled something then left quickly Chuuya wanted to tell him to stay but it was useless he had already left..