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Maybe in another life?

Summary:

I wrote this to somehow vent my deepest, most buried thoughts about a situation.

Notes:

Hi everyone! I hope you're having a great week.
This is my first time writing and posting a poem like this, so I’m a bit nervous. I had some help polishing it, and I’m really grateful for that.
English isn’t my first language, but I like using it because it helps me express thoughts I usually keep to myself. In a way, it gives me a sense of distance and comfort.
This piece is mostly a way for me to vent.

Feel free to comment! Any feedback, advice, or corrections are welcome :3

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Work Text:

I'm the toxic one,

I wanted you to beg me,
To talk to me,
To need me,
TO DEPEND ON ME,

Maybe I'm the toxic one

I wanted you,
But as my...
...
Why do I actually want you?
I can live without you,
Work without you,
Breathe without you

But I can't understand,
Why I have this feeling,
I can't understand,
Why I need your attention

I may fear,
That I crave you
I may fear,
That I need you

What is this feeling?

Maybe... jealousy?
When you’re with someone?
When you have a good day?
When i'm not on your mind?

But I feel something different,

I feel... happiness
When you have a bad day,
When you get hurt,
When you look at me with those eyes,

You make me feel this,
Maybe I was wrong,
We do have something in common,

We love to hurt people,
To be the victim,
To see each other's lives destroyed,
TO FEEL LIKE THE WINNER

But...

I hope I can change my mind,
To work on myself,
To be a better version of me,
To learn from my mistakes,

Maybe in another life?
I hope not.
We complement each other so well,
We could become the same poison.

Notes:

This was inspired by a “situationship” that ended badly and left a lasting impact on me.
It explores the confusion of not knowing whether your feelings were real, while dealing with betrayal, broken trust, and being forced to see that person every day.
Some elements reflect personal experiences with boundary issues and emotional conflict.