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1. if love and hate are the same, i love you. by t4thollanov

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   14 May 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Jean-Jacques Boiziau | J. J. Dagenais & Shane Hollander & Hayden Pike
   • Hayden Pike
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Jean-Jacques Boiziau | J. J. Dagenais
   • Angst
   • Frotting | Rubbing Penises Together
   • Oral Sex
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Closeted Character
   • Time Skips
   • Ilya Rozanov Misses Irina Rozanova
   • Hockey Player Shane Hollander
   • Hockey Player Ilya Rozanov
   • Frotting
   • Autistic Shane Hollander
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Facials
   • Sexual Overstimulation
   • Fluff
   • Ilya Rozanov calls Shane Hollander "Captain"
   • Barebacking
   • Cock Warming
   • Top Ilya Rozanov
   • Bottom Shane Hollander

   Summary

   Shane wished he could see the sun rise with Ilya, not just watch it set. Shane wanted to walk in the light with Ilya by his side, hand in hand, but a reality where they could be friends publicly felt light years away, one where they would be accepted as lovers and respected as hockey players simultaneously felt even further. Shane couldn’t lose everything he had worked so hard to cultivate, the brand he had built in spite of everything working against him.

   The secrecy killed him because loving Ilya felt so right, but he knew it was wrong. Shane wouldn’t mind being in love with Ilya if it didn’t mean being in love with a boy.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   22,250

   Chapters:

   4/?

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