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mama told me, "never be a liar"
i tried my best to live in her steps, to keep my chin up and follow the path she paved for me. i clung to her every word without question, and i'd defend her breath with my life
i tried my best to be the good kid she expected of me, but never got to see
it still hurts, it really does—every day, it hurts... but, i still try my best. because i know that's what mama would want from me
is she proud of me?
i hope she is
TRANSLATED FROM THE HORRID ENGLISH OF POOR DROPOUT BLUUDUD.
"i ayum prowd of me 2!"
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i am proud of myself, too!
very proud!
sorry mama—I'm trying not to get distracted! but i want to finish this letter, so i am going to focus! and now i will tell you about my awesome day!
you know that girl i was talking about? pr3typriincess. well—i call her pr3ty. everybody else calls her priincess, though.
she sort of freaks me out...every time i look into her eyes i feel like she's going to EAT ME! and she's also really mean. she's a big bully. but that's okay, because she's my friend, and i know she doesn't mean it.
but anyways we were talking today. or, uhm... last night! just an hour ago! eleven PM!
i wanted to write this letter because what she told me really stuck in my head... so i wondered if you could help me get it out or tell me what's going on? i don't really understand this stuff and it's kinda been stressing me out.
she's my friend, but she told me i shouldn't be her friend, that i'm not her friend! she looked really scared and sad... and she told me it's better that way. what did she mean, mama? you always know how to help when things are confusing and scary...! like that one time you helped me get down the stairs when it was dark! that was actually kinda embarrassing, now that i think about it.
i didn't know what to do but she was sad so i tried to hug her... and she just said "you don't know what i am, idiot" which was kind of rude, but that's okay. but the thing is, i don't know what she meant? she's a GUI-bot, a snake, a drakobloxxer, and uh... a butterfly? wait, no, moth! but she tells everyone she's a butterfly!
i just remembered something, mama
one time, i went to visit my friend pr3ty in her home. it's a very big place, not her house—but like, the world! the world is so big!
it wasn't very bluu, though. which sucked...!
anyways, when i went to visit pr3ty, she wasn't in her uh... castle, that day... so i called her on the super-cool GUI you gave me, but instead of her, one of her... team members! her name is "maid!" she's very nice to me, but she's a little scary sometimes too. she once baked me pie like yours, mama! it was really good, but not as good as yours!
anyways, 'maid' asked me what i was doing 'here', and i said i'm here to see my friend!
but... she told me it's dangerous. she calls pr3ty "her majesty," and she told me— "people might try to hurt you if they learn you are friends with her majesty."
i don't like liars, mama. you taught me to never be a liar, and i'm not! i don't like liars!
but—i think liars hurt pr3ty, mama. i think those people are all wrong about pr3ty, and she's really mad and sad because of that.
i snooped around some more... and i found more stuff. i met some scary people. people were calling pr3ty a killer, a murderer, a crazy person, an awful person!
i think she's rude, and she's ugly, and she's annoying, and she'd look WAY better in bluu.
but i don't think she deserves to be called what those people were saying about her ...!
i don't know why it makes me so sad, she's mean to me every day!
i guess i'm just like you, mama... i don't like liars. and those people are all liars.
i know pr3ty can be nice sometimes! nobody thinks so, but i do! and she is not a killer or a bad person, when will they learn it's just a game!?
i think... it's like you said, people should... give people a chance! a second chance! or a first chance...?
i don't think pr3ty is a bad person,
i just think she's... lonely? i don't think people understand her very much. i am lonely too... but together, we'll never be lonely!
i hope she'll be my friend again!
love you mama!
— BLUUDUDTHEC00LANDSWAESOME!!!!! THE BEST SON EVR
i wish you could see what i see in you
i wish you could see what i see in myself.
you're not a monster, why do you listen to liars?
i know what i am, and that's not for you.
you aren't a bad person, stop pretending to be!
i'm not a bad person, i am who i was meant to be.
it was just a dream, anyways.
it was never anything but a dream.
unfortunately, he'll always keep chasing it, until his legs grow tired of running, and his arms grow tired of crawling.