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1. she would've loved you (like i do) by isabellarozanov, thisisloonacy

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   18 Jun 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • David Hollander & Shane Hollander & Yuna Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Rose Landry & Ilya Rozanov & Svetlana Vetrova
   • Montreal Voyageurs | Montreal Metros Team Ensemble & Ottawa Centaurs Team Ensemble (Game Changers)
   • Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • POV Ilya Rozanov
   • POV Shane Hollander
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Coming Out
   • Implied/Referenced Homophobia
   • Fix-It of Sorts
   • Shane Hollander's Redemption Arc
   • Ilya Rozanov Misses Irina Rozanova
   • Depression
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Spoilers for Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Canon Divergence
   • Ilya Rozanov is Obsessed With Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Walks Ilya Rozanov Like A Dog
   • Bad Parent Grigori Rozanov
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Homophobia
   • Anxiety Attacks
   • Repetitive Thoughts due to Mental Health
   • it will get better
   • don't worry i can't write a story where the character doesn't heal
   • It will be worth it though I swear
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • Anal Sex
   • Blow Jobs
   • Masturbation
   • Rimming
   • Orgasm Edging
   • Dry Humping
   • inaccurate hockey
   • Hockey Brawl
   • I already chose you
   • character study of sorts

   Summary

   “Go home, please." Would Shane ever forget the hurt in Ilya’s voice when he asked Shane to please leave? The crack those words opened between them was palpable. Shane could feel the panic spreading through his body. How the hell would he fix this? Maybe he wouldn’t.

   ---

   They had a plan, one that had once fallen over Ilya like the most devoted love he had ever known. That same plan, which had once made him feel claimed, now made him feel confined and he couldn’t explain it. Why the hell did he ask Shane to go to that fucking party? Why was he being so stupid? Why was he making himself so hard to love?

   After the 'I already chose you' fight, Shane Hollander faces the fact that, while he was busy protecting their careers, Ilya was alone, losing himself - and decides to make his own manual on how to fix a lonely, breaking heart. If he wants to keep Ilya, he has to stop waiting for permission and start building a world where they can actually breathe.

   Or:
   The version where Shane and Ilya dive into their memories and feelings, face their demons - and Shane comes up with a plan to love Ilya the way he deserves.

   Or:
   A well-kissed brick.

   Language:

   English

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