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1. A Routine Malaise by 8124_1217

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

   • Not Rated
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   20 Apr 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Irina Rozanova
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov Misses Irina Rozanova
   • Irina Rozanova Haunts the Narrative
   • Canon Compliant
   • iPods
   • No beta we die like Grigori Rozanov
   • Song: Two Weeks (Grizzly Bear)
   • Sad white boy music
   • frisson
   • Pining
   • vinyl

   Summary

   “Hollander. Stay,” he pleaded.

   “I’m sorry, I just … can’t.”

   Still holding Ilya’s shirt, Shane turned and walked out of the room. Out of the apartment. Out of Ilya’s life.

   He keeps replaying the whole day over and over in his head, wondering where he went wrong. He knows the name was the tipping point, but it wasn’t the name alone. It was the everything all at once. It was the wanting him to stay.

   And as soon as that thought popped into Ilya’s head, his brain tortured himself by playing the song, hearing

   * I told you I would stay *

   Every time he thinks about the moment, with his hand outstretched, pleading like a goddamn fool for some idiot with a weak fucking backhand, that goddamn Grizzly Bear song starts up in his head.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

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   Kudos:

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