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Bobby was still awake. He was not like a jellyfish. The band and Azathoth (now in his body) disappeared from him, to be honest he was trying to stay awake trying his best to not let the lullaby take effect, he was no selfish man, if he's forced in solitude for his life but no one else is in pain then he shall make that sacrifice.
He wasn't lying when he said he was gonna miss them, he did miss them, but their better off like this no more, no more perfectionism,no more bullies, no more their feeling like their too much, no more unrequited love, no more having to be a pushover and no more issues.
It was perfect.
Hell is only for the living.
He was glad.
Not only glad his plan worked but glad the last few moments the group got was happiness and hope and Xavier actually confessed to Simon finally and they agreed to go on dates, too bad they can't.
And too bad Marly couldn't confess her love to Calypso. It was strange even after having the knowledge of the universe she couldn't see Calypso loved her back one of those weird human quirks probably everything bends in their mind to the bad ending.
Or maybe that was just one of the knowledge their human brain didn't get
But come on girl she kissed you it's frustrating
And Adil she finally accepted herself she saw how boring her life was because she diluted herself she never got to live the life where she was truly herself.
Maybe he should then bring back just for them to have a resolution
No he couldn't.
…
Why did Azathoth want to be human? He still didn't understand why he chose suffering instead of peace.
He missed the band, he wanted to hear their music again.
What did yog sothoth say? “You can't fall in love in this plane”
He was in love, platonically.
In love with the band.
He wouldn't miss it if he was sleeping or dead like he should be, their still at peace.
But still he never saw how much he liked it until it was gone.
Why was the group last moment hope when there was already a failed attempt by them they should've felt like nothing else was going to be going right.
It's strange how they were happy there.
Maybe Azathoth wanted little human moments like those even with all the suffering, maybe they all wanted that.
It was interesting how humans can stay so optimistic.
Maybe it wasn't better.
The group told him some people were actually happy with their lives.
Maybe they were right.
Maybe being a human and consciousness isn't a curse.
Its not a blessing though
What was that line from their song
“I am not cursed I am not blessed I am only simply me”
Maybe they were right .
Maybe he should sleep now and dream of them.
He hummed a little lullaby to himself as he closed his eye hoping to become a jellyfish and undo his mistake.