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1. I am tired, and I am wanting by purple_sunbeams

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   24 Apr 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Luca Haas
   • Irina Rozanova
   • Depression
   • OCD
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Put on your grippy socks
   • We are going to psychiatric inpatient!
   • the author is going through shit
   • And exorcising her demons by making the gays sad
   • but dont worry
   • Eventually the gays will be happy
   • I know nothing about ice hockey or psychiatric inpatient
   • Whoever said write what you know is boring
   • Other Additional Tags to Be Added

   Summary

   Shane Hollander dropped out of the 2009 draft for reasons unknown to the public.

   After impulsively attempting suicide, Ilya Rozanov, controversial and reckless captain of The Ottawa Centaurs, meets Shane again almost 10 years later, whilst they are both completing a psychiatric inpatient stint.

   Time has not been kind to either of them. But the extinguished flames of their once hotly anticipated rivalry unexpectedly rekindle into something new.

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   English

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