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1. no map and no tour guide, in cells and in sand by wwwjudedotcom

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Not Rated
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   26 Apr 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov & Original Character(s)
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Autistic Shane Hollander
   • Irina Rozanova Haunts the Narrative
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Mild Hurt/Comfort

   Summary

   Ilya can't go back to Russia. He's known this fact since the moment he realized he was in love with Shane Hollander, and it never bothered him before. He had thought there was nothing there for him anyway.

   He didn’t know what it meant, then, that he’d never be able to return to his mother’s grave—to the place her body is. To the last place he’d seen her alive, so full of light and sadness. 

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   Ilya's relationship with his depression, his grief, and his fear of becoming his mother.

   Language:

   English

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