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The reel was about a cat failing to jump onto a counter.
It landed face-first, slid off, and sat on the floor for a long moment with the specific dignity of a creature pretending that had never happened.
She laughed. A real one — the kind that surprised her, short and genuine, escaping before she could stop it. Then it faded, and the exhaustion settled back into her bones like it had never left.
She scrolled.
The street outside was quiet at this hour. That particular stillness of a city that hadn't quite gone to sleep yet but was thinking about it. Street lamps pooled orange on the pavement. Somewhere behind her, a chai stall was closing up, the smell of cardamom still hanging faintly in the air. She had her earphones in one ear, plastic bag of groceries cutting into her left wrist because she had refused, on principle, to pay four rupees for a carry bag.
She was twenty years old. She was wearing her Pizza Hut uniform, which she hated with a focused, personal hatred — the red and black of it, the little logo, the specific way it announced to every person she passed exactly where she had spent the last nine hours of her life. She had meant to change before leaving. She always meant to change before leaving. She never did, because by the time the shift ended she was too tired to care about anything except horizontal.
She smelled like dough and processed cheese and industrial tomato sauce.
Her feet hurt.
Her manager had scheduled her for a double shift tomorrow and had smiled while doing it, which she felt was genuinely criminal behaviour.
She scrolled past a cooking video. A dance trend she was too tired to care about. Someone's cat again — was it the same cat? It didn't matter.
She had been doing this for two years now. Watching cat reels on her phone screen at eleven PM, standing in streets that smelled like chai she hadn't bought, too tired to go home and too tired to stay out. She'd been doing it since she was eighteen and in the flat her parents left her and the silence with it.
She had refused college. Deliberately, stubbornly, with both hands — the one thing people had expected of her after everything, the sensible path forward, and she had looked at it and thought no with a completeness that surprised even her. She couldn't have explained it properly. It wasn't grief, not exactly. It was more like — she had just watched the blueprint for her life get torn up, and she wasn't ready to accept someone else's replacement blueprint yet. So she had taken the Pizza Hut job instead, and stayed in her parents house and watched anime in the evenings because it was free and it was long and it asked nothing of her.
Two years of that.
She was doing fine.
She stopped on a reel.
It was an anime edit. Specifically, a compilation of isekai protagonists getting hit by trucks. The music was dramatic. Each clip was more absurd than the last — a salaryman, a student, a chef, a grandmother — each one meeting their end via vehicular impact and waking up somewhere fantastical.
She watched it with the blank stare of a woman running on four hours of sleep.
Truck-kun, she thought, with zero emotional investment. Classic.
She scrolled on. Stopped. Scrolled back.
A thought occurred to her, small and odd and slightly unhinged in the way that only eleven PM thoughts could be.
Does isekai only work if you're East Asian?
She considered this seriously.
No, genuinely — she had never seen an isekai where the person who got reincarnated was Indian. Korean, yes. Japanese, obviously. Chinese, frequently. But had a single Pizza Hut employee from a mid-sized Indian city, in full uniform, ever been selected by the divine comedy of the universe to go live in a fantasy world?
She thought not.
She thought the truck would hit her and she would simply die. No alternate world. No cheat ability. No mysterious voice in the white void. Just her, dead, and her manager calling the next morning about the double shift. Her flat would sit empty for a while before anyone noticed. She kept to herself. Paid bills on time. Nobody would think to check for at least a week. The only people who cared for her are no more.
She tried to shake off that last though as she stepped off the curb.
She heard it before she saw it. The headlights. The horn, a half-second too late.
Oh, she thought.
Oh no.
The bag of groceries swung. Her earphone fell out. The street tilted in a way streets were not supposed to tilt.
This is such a horrible, horrible way to die.
The thought arrived with complete clarity. She had time — strange, stretched time — to be fully, viscerally aware of how bad this was. How undignified. How she was going to die in her Pizza Hut uniform. Of all the things. Of all the possible final images. The little logo on her chest, facing upward, visible to God.
I am being taken from this earth in a Pizza Hut uniform, she thought, with a fury that was almost impressive given the circumstances. This is a humiliation. This is cosmically unfair—
And then, in that same stretched moment:
Wait.
Truck.
Isekai.
She had approximately two seconds left. She used them.
Okay. Okay, God, Universe, whoever runs the reincarnation department — I have requests. Urgent requests. Please not Attack on Titan. Please not Berserk. Not any world where horrible things happen as a personality trait and surviving one chapter just means something worse is coming next chapter—
Something with action but also comedy. Where being strong means something. Where I don't die as backstory motivation for someone else.
And if— she hesitated, because it felt more honest than anything she'd said out loud in two years —if it's not too much to ask. Maybe one of my husbands is there.
She knew exactly what she meant. Silver hair. A mask. One lazy eye perpetually half-lidded with the energy of a man who had read all of Make-Out Paradise and felt entirely at peace with that. She had been carrying that face around in her chest like something she'd found and quietly kept, the way you kept things that were yours even if nobody knew it.
Please.
The truck hit her.
The world went white.
She thought, just before everything stopped: I'm Indian. This probably won't work.
She died smiling anyway.
The first thing she became aware of was warmth.
The second was laughter.
Not her laughter — someone else's, bright and unselfconscious, the kind that came easily. A woman's voice. The soft thud of small feet on grass — her feet, she realised, because the thudding was coming from her own legs, running, with the pure unasked momentum of a child whose legs were simply delighted to exist near grass.
She was running.
She looked down at her legs.
They were very short.
She stopped running. Her body had other ideas — she felt the physical pull of it, the puppy-like urge to just go, the way a young body defaulted to motion the way an older one defaulted to stillness. She stood over it and made herself look.
Small legs. Small arms. The grass came up past her knees. The sky was an almost offensive blue, the kind that existed in anime and nowhere she had actually been. The air smelled clean in a way she had no reference for, nothing like a city, nothing like tomato sauce.
The woman crouched before her was lovely — strong features, long red hair loose around her shoulders, laughing with her whole face. She was clapping her hands together, encouraging some small act of ordinary toddler movement as though it were extraordinary.
"Mito! Again! Run to me again!"
She looked at her hands.
Chubby. Rounded at the knuckles. Still being filled out. The hands of something very new.
So, she thought, with the curious calm of someone whose brain had not yet caught up with the situation. The theory is true after all.
She had read it once, one of those late-night phone rabbit holes — the idea that children were conscious far earlier than anyone believed. That they understood language before they could speak it, felt the full texture of the world before they had words for it, and simply sat inside their small bodies like passengers waiting for the vehicle to catch up. Adults never thought to ask. They looked at babies and saw reflex, saw appetite, saw blankness, and never once considered that behind the wide unblinking eyes there might be someone sitting very quietly, paying attention to everything.
Hello, she thought, to no one in particular. Apparently I'm paying attention.
She spotted the water basin near the garden's edge. Walked to it with the careful, rolling gait of a toddler, crouched down, and looked in.
A baby stared back at her.
Round cheeks. Bright eyes. And the hair — red. Aggressively red. The colour of something that had made a decision about itself. Pulled into two perfectly round buns, one on each side of her head, sitting like two small architectural achievements.
She stared.
Oh, she thought.
Oh, that is the most adorable thing I have ever seen in my entire life. Look at those buns. Look at those cheeks. Whoever made this baby had an extraordinary—
The baby blinked.
She blinked back.
...That's me.
She froze.
That's ME.
She was not looking at a cute baby with outside, objective eyes. She was standing in front of a reflective surface looking at her own face, her own red hair, her own round cheeks, and the buns were hers, the cheeks were hers, this was what she looked like now, this was what she had woken up as—
She reached up very slowly and touched one of the buns.
Soft. Perfectly round.
Oh no, she thought.
The compound was large and warm and full of people who knew exactly where they were going.
She observed them from her mother's arms with the focused attention of someone conducting fieldwork, while appearing, from the outside, to simply be a small child at lunchtime, occasionally reaching up to touch her mother's hair.
Her mother.
The woman who carried her had been carrying her since before she could remember forming thoughts in this body. She moved with the ease of long habit, one arm curved naturally beneath her, and talked the way people talked when they were comfortable — steadily, without needing response.
"...the sealing work is in your blood, Mito. It's always been there. You'll understand when you're older how rare that is, what it means to carry it—"
She was being fed.
Actual food, on a small spoon, bite by patient bite. Her mother watched each swallow with the satisfied expression of someone watching a thing they'd made work correctly.
"...the next clan leader carries more than a title. You carry the name. And the Uzumaki name has never meant nothing — it has always, always meant something—"
Something was happening in her chest. She tried to catalogue it clinically and couldn't.
She thought about her flat at eleven PM. The specific quality of that silence — not peaceful, not restful, just empty in a way that had a shape. She had learned to fill it the way you learned to move around furniture in the dark: automatically, without acknowledging the obstacles. TV on low. Phone in hand. Earphones in both ears because one was never enough to keep the quiet out. She had eaten standing at the counter for two years because sitting at a table alone felt like a performance of something she didn't have.
She had been eighteen when she stopped having anyone to come home to, and twenty when the truck hit her, and in those two years she had gotten very good at not thinking about it.
Her mother tucked a strand of red hair behind her ear with one finger.
Just that. Automatic. The gesture of someone for whom of course I reach for her required no thought at all.
She cried.
She didn't mean to. It arrived before she could stop it — her face crumpled with the complete, unguarded lack of dignity that only a toddler's face could manage. Two years of countertop meals and both-earphones quiet came up all at once.
Her mother immediately panicked in the warm, low-stakes way of mothers whose child is crying for no visible reason.
"What? What is it? Did you bite your tongue? Is it too hot? Mito—"
She shook her head. There were no words. Not ones she could give.
"Then why are you crying, you silly little thing?"
Her mother didn't wait for an answer. She pulled her in, tucked her against her chest, and rocked her with the steady unhurried patience of someone who had all the time in the world for this specifically.
She sat in it. This feels nice.
Okay, she thought eventually, from somewhere slightly less raw. That's enough. Information gathering. Focus. The word she keeps using. Uzumaki.
She made herself think about it.
Uzumaki?
A memory surfaced — bright and immediate, the kind that arrived with colour and sound: a boy, blonde hair like sunlight had an opinion about it, orange jumpsuit that had no business being that bright, a grin that took up more of his face than faces were designed to accommodate—
"Uzumaki Naruto, dattebayo!"
She stopped breathing.
She stared at her mother's red hair.
She looked at her own reflection in the nearest polished surface — small, red-haired, two buns, sitting in the arms of a woman in a compound full of people with the same hair, in a world that smelled like trees and had never heard of exhaust fumes—
I'm in Naruto.
She sat with that for a moment.
I am in Naruto.
The world where people got stabbed before breakfast. Where wars lasted generations. Where a man could blow himself up as a last resort and it was considered a valid tactical option. Where her beloved Kakashi had experienced more psychological devastation by the age of thirteen than most people—
Wait.
She caught herself.
Uzumaki clan.
She looked around the compound again. Properly this time — large, busy, full of red-haired people moving with purpose, the casual confidence of a people who had been powerful for long enough they no longer needed to prove it. Children in the courtyard. A training ground visible through the far gate. Leadership structure, clear hierarchy, a functioning society—
The Uzumaki clan was destroyed.
She knew this. Wiped out. Scattered. Too powerful, too dangerous, and all the other clans had decided they needed to stop existing.
But she was very clearly sitting inside a living, breathing Uzumaki compound.
What time period is this?
The clan leader was a broad-shouldered man with a red-streaked beard and the unhurried authority of someone who had been the most important person in every room for so long it no longer required maintenance.
He looked at her with genuine, uncomplicated warmth. "How is little Mito today?"
"She cried at lunch for no reason," her mother said.
"Children do that," said the clan leader, entirely undisturbed.
She sat in her mother's lap and listened with absolute predatory focus while appearing to do nothing more threatening than exist.
Trade routes. Political positioning. Two clans being carefully discussed in terms of alliance value. The Uzumaki's neutrality — how long it could be maintained, whether it should be.
Then:
"The Uchiha pressed further into the eastern valley last week. The Senju response was—" The clan leader paused, selecting his word with care. "Considerable."
Her mother's arms tightened around her, just slightly. "How long can they keep bleeding each other like this?"
"As long as there is land to fight over. Which is to say — a long time yet."
She went very still.
Uchiha and Senju are at war.
She thought about Konoha. About the Hidden Leaf. About the Hokage Monument and the Academy and Team 7 running late to their first meeting because their sensei had stopped at a memorial stone—
There is no Konoha.
Of course there wasn't. Because Konoha was what happened after. Konoha was the peace. Konoha was the Uchiha and Senju deciding to stop killing each other. Which meant right now they hadn't decided that yet. Which meant this was before. Which meant this was the Warring States Era and she was sitting inside it, in a four-year-old body, in red pigtail buns, eating rice—
Mito Uzumaki.
The pieces arranged themselves with the horrible, inevitable logic of a puzzle you'd been staring at for too long.
Mito Uzumaki, who would one day become the wife of Hashirama Senju. First Hokage. The man who builds Konoha. The man who ends the war. The man who is either a child right now -
She began walking through the timeline.
Methodical. Calm. She was handling this extremely well.
I am four. If the war is still ongoing, Konoha hasn't been built. Hashirama and Madara builds Konoha as an adult. So Hashirama is either very young right now or—
She was going to have to grow up. In a warring era. Master sealing jutsu. Become clan leader. Outlive this entire political landscape. And then, eventually, somewhere in the future, she would apparently marry the man who would become the First Hokage, about whom she knew the following things: he liked sake, he cried easily, he could use Wood Release,he will be considered as God of shinbo going forward and....and his best friend/maybe first love was Madara Uchiha which was a whole separate problem—
Fine.
That was manageable.
She could be strategic.
The important thing — the thing she needed everyone, including God and the reincarnation department, to understand — was that when she had prayed, in her last two seconds, with the last sincere feeling she'd had before the truck hit her, she had not been praying for Hashirama Senju.
She had meant Kakashi.
Hatake Kakashi. Silver hair like someone had argued with gravity and won. A mask that had never once come off on camera, which she felt was a personal attack. One Sharingan he'd been given by a dying friend and had carried every day since — she had never, ever recovered from that, not once, and she had tried. The way he was always late because he stopped to put flowers on a memorial stone. The way he pretended not to care about his students with the transparent effort of someone who cared enormously. The collected works of Jiraiya, dog-eared, carried everywhere, completely unashamed.
Where is he?
She looked around the compound, like he will be there.
He's not here, her brain supplied.
He's not anywhere.
He hasn't been born.
His father hasn't been born.
hell, even His grandfather hasn't been born.
The entire Hatake lineage is currently just a philosophical possibility.
She stared at the wall with a look of profound injustice.
I prayed, she thought. I was dying, which is supposed to be when prayers count the most, and I was very specific. I had the silver hair. I had the mask. I had the little eye-crinkle he does when he's pretending he isn't fond of someone and I SAID PLEASE—
The clan leader laughed and ruffled her hair.
She continued to stared at the wall.
Rest in peace, Kakashi Hatake, she thought, in the tone of someone delivering a eulogy for something they had never technically possessed. You were so real to me. You were emotionally unavailable in such a compelling way. You read your little books with such complete lack of shame. I had plans for you. I had a whole internal monologue prepared for the moment we met.
But you are not even born.
Your father is not born.
I will be old by the time you are a concept.
I am going to have to wait for so long.
I am going to have to seal a nine-tailed fox inside my body, and somewhere in the distant future while I am doing that, your grandfather will be learning to walk.
She took a very small, very measured breath.
I cannot believe, she thought, with the exhausted devastation of someone confronting a cosmic injustice, that I died in my Pizza Hut uniform for THIS.
She passed out.
The chaos in the Uzumaki compound was brief but genuine.
Her mother's voice went sharp and frightened. The clan leader moved fast for a big man. Someone was fetched. She was checked, prodded, found to be physically unharmed, and placed on a cushion to recover.
The consensus was that children sometimes fainted. It happened. Nothing to worry about.
Mito Uzumaki lay on her cushion, tiny and red-haired and superficially peaceful, and somewhere behind her closed eyes a twenty-year-old woman from India — who had died in a Pizza Hut uniform, which she would carry as a personal grievance into the next life — took stock of what she had.
A warm compound. Red-haired people everywhere she looked. A mother who reached for her hair without thinking, who rocked her without being asked, who called her a silly little thing in a voice that meant you are mine and I have all the time in the world for you.
She had not had anything that felt like that in two years.
It wasn't nothing.
It wasn't nothing at all.
She thought about the silver-haired man who was not yet a bloodline. She thought about the war outside the compound walls. She thought about everything she knew and everything she didn't and the very long road between now and any version of the future she could picture.
I've been waiting already, she thought. I'm good at waiting. I've had practice.
I'll figure it out.
(She had absolutely no idea how she was going to figure it out.)
(But she was going to try.)
(In the morning.)
(After she processed the Pizza Hut thing.)