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"I never want to look back Carl. I don't understand why you always do."
"Rose, I never want Conquest catching up to me."
"I thought this Cecil person already know."
"Rose, we both know that Cecil is more then just a 'person'. "
"Anyway, I know that even though you're younger then me, you been Rose Quartz longer then I've been Carl Quest, so the distance between me and him is far shorter. "
"I always have to look back to make sure he's not catching up."
"Catching up?"
"Rose, I never, ever want to be that monster again. EVER. "
"But I was that monster. I can never change that. So I have to look back and compare myself to him."
"Often, I can't comprehend how and why that life made me so...happy isn't the word I would use, satisfied maybe?
"I dream of my past: the gore, the screams...the devourings, when I wake up I feel horrified."
"Rose, Those are the times I know he is far behind me. I can relax a bit."
"Other times, I turn on the news and I find myself envying his simple 'solutions'. "
"That's when I can feel him sneaking up on me. I do what I can to keep him from putting me in a chokehold."
"I think of what Carl has that Conquest never did: Family. Friends. A world that gave him a name."
"I think of events that Conquest could never experience: Birthdays. Anniversaries. Superbowel parties. The surprising tension of a middle school spelling bee."
"I think of things Conquest could never do: Laugh joyfully. Show sympathy. Wrap a gift so perfectly that it gets complimented. Smile in a way that doesn't frighten others."
"Remembering these help keeps a distance between Carl and Conquest."
"I never feel like there is a distance between Pink Diamond and me because I am Rose Quartz. PERIOD.
"Pink Diamond would have never appreciated the beauty of the constant changes and the briefness of human life."
"I know to treasure it."
"Pink Diamond thought that having power would bring approval from the Diamond Authority, and that would bring true happiness."
"I know that true, genuine connections are what bring true happiness."
"Pink Diamond would not condescend to try biological fuctions like eating."
"I have a favorite style of hot dog!"
"Pink Diamond ...she serioulsy harmed someone who was "assigned" to her."
"I only chose to surround myself with people who want to be with me and I know how to...control myself now."
"I never want to look back because I never want to doubt what I am one tiny bit"
"I know what I am now and you know who you are Carl!"
"I wish you would stop torturing yourself over the past, Carl!"
"Rose , If you had known me as Conquest as for even one minute, you would think I don't torture myself enough."