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1. Nevertheless Alive by direwolfdemigod

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Not Rated
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   07 May 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau
   • Grigori Rozanov
   • Polina Rozanova
   • Desjourneys (Heated Rivalry)
   • Episode: s01e02 Olympians (Heated Rivalry)
   • Canon Compliant
   • or as close as i could get
   • POV Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov is Obsessed With Shane Hollander
   • Post-Sochi 2014 Winter Olympics
   • 2014 MLH Awards in Las Vegas (Game Changers)
   • Dom/sub Undertones
   • at the end by default cause 2014 mlh awards
   • Ilya Rozanov-centric
   • like very much so
   • Depression
   • Control Issues
   • Angst
   • (with a happy ending cause canon)
   • eastern european identity
   • and unfortunately dostoevsky's notes from underground lmfao

   Summary

   Ilya's never been one to deny what he wants and it’s almost always been undeniable that he wants Shane Hollander. The fact that that suddenly feels like a problem is a problem in and of itself. And yet, he can't ignore the other emotion, decidedly not bitterness, that's been welling up inside him and now rears its ugly head. His arousal is tainted by nausea. Even the thought of jerking off right now — to Hollander, for the second time in a single afternoon — is crossing some invisible line, is something he can’t afford.

   Hollander’s texted him twice since he got back to Boston.

   Jane
   I’m sorry about Sochi
   Are you okay?

   Is Ilya okay? He will be. As soon as he wins the cup.

   After the Sochi Olympics, Ilya Rozanov returns to Boston determined to glue the crumbling pieces of his life back together. Sometimes control isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.

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