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Tim's heart sank to his stomach
He could hear ringing in his ears and at the same time felt like he was submerged underwater as whoever Ra's picked to care for him delivered the news about his missing organ and other horrowing updates
Oh how much he wished that it was only the missing spleen that he had to deal with right now
Realization was slowly forming, he still didn't register what the doctor said to him "A......." He couldn't voice it, words caught up in his throat "a child?"
"Yes,a fetus" the asshole didn't even care to look at him while talking, not even bothering to hide his disgust "your injury, while severe, didn't affect the pregnancy as much, it's still alive" a train of thoughts barely started forming before it was cut again, this time it was an announcement- order kind of thing "Ra's al ghul is waiting for you"
Tim was left alone in the cold room and he wanted to rip his hair off, everything started weighing on him now that he was left with his thoughts and denial
This can't be happening
It can't be real
How could he be.....
How did it even happen? It was supposed to be impossible,and they were careful-
Pause
Another realization hit him like a plane crash as he counted the months, it's been 5 months since they last did it, his child was at least 5 months along, he's been on this suicide mission for almost 4 months, abandoning his health for longer, is this why there was no obvious signs? his stomach is still on the flatter side, albeit a little round as if he was bloated or had a good meal (it's been a long while since he did) and he doesn't exactly feel that much of a movement-
Another pause
Panic started to rise as he focused more, he couldn't sense any movement, his child wasn't moving, according to what he knows and the timeline he should be feeling something but there was nothing, if it wasn't for the doctor telling him that the baby was still alive he would've thought they were dead
If the doctor didn't tell him he would've never known he was pregnant in the first place
That started another whirlwind of tangled emotions
Pregnant, he's pregnant with his and Kon's kid,kon who's dead, and he was doing a terrible job at it
He pressed his palms onto his eyes so hard he started seeing stars, tears slipping through the closed eyelids as he sobbed and soullessly laughed at his situation. Of course this would happen to him, truly the fucking cherry on top
This has to be a lie, a ploy of some sort to throw him off and rethink his options (he won't admit that it's working a little effectively) Because it was impossible for him to carry a kid, the chances were slim to none and, once again, there was no symptoms nor signs.
But what if it was the unlucky 1% chance? It's not a thing to be easily dismissed or denied
Had he known before he started globetrotting, would he have acted different? Would he have prioritized bringing bruce back or the care of his unborn kid?
Would he have kept it in the first place?
Tim shuddered at the idea, he didn't want to think about it for a second, maybe he would've entertained it at the start but what's done is done,five months have passed and now there's a possible life growing inside of him
An innocent life that's suffering because of his selfish decisions and ignorance
A slap echoed through the very quiet room, and with it all his spiraling thought and dooming guilt came to a screeching hault, that was definitely needed and appreciated.
Okay
Time to recalculate
He needed to find batman,escape Ra's grasp, go back to gotham and do it fast. Ra's must've known already about the......news and god knows what will happen if the demon decided to use it as a leverage or even worse, considering Damian upbringing. Tim would rather die than bestow a cruel fate on a child, even if he wasn't planning on keeping it later, least he could do is ensure the baby has a long happy life ahead of them, if there was a child in the first place
Not the point right now, currently Ra's al ghul is waiting for him, another errand he wanted him to run, probably rub his new predicament in his face as well while he's at it. Whatever, doesn't matter right now, he has more important priorities right now
Tim was in front of the massive door of the room he was supposed to meet Ra's in before he could realize it, his mind too loud for him to take in places and directions, oh well it needed to be quiet right now, he pulled his cowl down and prepped himself
He already got all the clues to find batman, it's just that one final errand, he got the upper hand
With a deep breath he pushed the door, he got this
"Ra's" he said coldly, trying to stay calm
"Timothy" Ra's addressed him "I suppose you got the news"
He didn't dignify that with a response, he got this all under control
Tim will care about other problems later once he leaves this place