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The last spring of high school settles over the city like a quiet secret. Everything becomes softer near graduation. Sunlight. Laughter. Goodbyes people pretend are temporary.
Jo notices it first during homeroom. The classroom heater rattles weakly in the corner while students complain about exams they already survived. Someone is playing music too loudly from the back row. Sunlight spills across the windows. And beside him, Yuma is asleep again. Head buried in folded arms. Earphones tangled around his wrist. Tie loose. Entire existence painfully familiar. Jo nudges his foot under the desk.
“You’re drooling.”
Without opening his eyes, Yuma mutters, “Mind your business.”
“You’re embarrassing me.”
“You choose to sit next to me.”
“That’s because no one else tolerates you.”
Yuma cracks one eye open then smiles lazily. It feels unfair every single time. Jo, who used to tolerate everything Yuma did, can finally talk back now.
They are not dating. Nobody asks anymore because the answer has always been complicated. They walk to school together every morning because their train stations are close. They eat lunch together because Yuma hates noisy cafeterias unless Jo is there. They leave cram school together after dark. They know each other’s convenience store orders by memory.
People assume. Teachers assume. Even strangers assume. Once, an old cashier smiled while handing them change and said, “You two make a cute couple.” Yuma nearly died on the spot. Jo just laughed.
“See? Even civilians know.”
“You’re insufferable.”
“You still walked home with me.”
Because Jo always does. That’s the problem. Everything with Yuma becomes routine too quickly.
His shoulder brushing against Yuma’s on crowded trains. Sharing earphone during class breaks. Sleeping through movies together while pretending not to. Sometimes he wonders when friendship crossed into something else.
Maybe it happened gradually. Like spring quietly replacing winter. Or maybe it happened all at once. Like waking up and realizing someone’s voice has become part of your bloodstream.
The first crack appears in February. University acceptance letters arrive. The classroom becomes a battlefield of futures. Tokyo. Kyoto. Osaka. Seoul. Everyone suddenly belongs somewhere else. Jo gets accepted into a university in Seoul. Yuma gets into one in Osaka.
When Jo tells him, it’s after school. They’re sitting on the rooftop sharing canned coffee while sunset spills orange across the city.
“I leave in March,” Jo says quietly.
Yuma’s fingers tighten around the can.
“Oh.”
That’s all he says. Oh. Not don’t go. Not stay. Just one tiny useless syllable.
Jo looks at him carefully. “You okay?”
“Why wouldn’t I be?”
“You’re doing that thing.”
“What thing?”
“The pretending thing.”
Yuma laughs weakly. “You talk like you know me.”
“I do know you.”
The wind moves through the rooftop fence with a hollow metallic sound. Yuma stares at the skyline because looking at Jo suddenly feels dangerous.
“You’ll do well there,” Yuma says.
Jo doesn’t answer immediately. Then: “It won’t be the same without you.”
The sentence lands softly. Still devastating. After that, time becomes cruel. Every ordinary moment starts glowing at the edges. Walking home together under the dim streetlights. Sharing gloves because Yuma forgot his again. Studying in silence at the library while their knees touch beneath the table.
Jo starts memorizing everything unconsciously. The way Yuma hums when he’s tired. The tiny scar near his jaw. How his hands always feel warm even in spring. As if memory alone can keep things from changing. It cannot.
One evening, rain starts drumming against the cram school windows. By the time they leave, the sidewalks are slick with water and scattered leaves. Jo lifts his face to the night sky.
“You know,” he says, “this feels dramatic enough for a confession scene.”
Yuma nearly slips on mud left behind by the afternoon spring rain.
“You’re insane.”
“I’m serious.”
“No, you’re not.”
Yuma looks at him then. Really looks at him. Streetlight gold catches in his eyes.
“I think I liked you for a long time,” he says softly.
Yuma forgets how to breathe. The city keeps moving around them. Cars passing. Leaves falling. People laughing somewhere far away. But the moment itself becomes still. Like the world stepped aside politely. Yuma’s heartbeat crashes violently against his ribs.
“You can’t say stuff like that so casually.”
“I tried not saying it.” Jo smiles faintly. “Didn’t work.”
Yuma stares at him. At this boy he has loved so quietly it became part of his skeleton. And suddenly he’s angry.
Angry because it’s too late. Because graduation is weeks away. Because the universe waited until the ending credits to explain the plot.
“You idiot,” Yuma whispers.
“Probably.”
Then Yuma kisses him. Abruptly. Clumsily. Like he’s been holding it back for years and his body finally gave up pretending otherwise. Jo freezes from shock for half a second before kissing him back. Warm. Careful. Leaves catch in their hair. Yuma can taste canned coffee on his lips. When they pull apart, both of them are breathless. Jo laughs softly against his mouth.
“There it is.”
“What?”
“The confession scene.”
Yuma shoves him weakly. “Shut up.”
But he’s smiling. Actually smiling. And for one terrible beautiful moment, the future disappears. They never officially become lovers. There’s no proper conversation. No anniversary. No label. Just stolen kisses after school. Fingers intertwined beneath desks. Someone resting their head on someone’s shoulder on empty train rides home. A relationship built like a paper house near the ocean. Beautiful. Temporary. Both of them know it. Neither says it aloud.
Graduation arrives too quickly. The ceremony passes in a blur of applause and tears. Everyone promises to stay close forever. Jo doesn’t trust forever anymore. Afterward, he finds Yuma alone behind the gymnasium. Still wearing his graduation flower. Still unfairly beautiful.
“You disappeared,” Jo says.
“You too.”
For a while, they just stand there. Wind rustles through empty branches overhead. The school building glows gold in the afternoon light. Their school. Not for much longer. Yuma steps closer. Close enough that Jo can hear his breathing.
“I don’t know what happens after this,”
Yuma admits quietly. Jo’s throat tightens. Neither does he. Long distance feels enormous at seventeen. Bigger than oceans. Bigger than love itself.
“I wish we had more time,” Jo whispers.
Yuma smiles sadly. “Me too.”
Then he kisses Jo again. Slow this time. Like memorization. Like goodbye already hiding inside affection. Yuma grabs the front of Jo’s uniform desperately, as if holding tighter could stop March from arriving. It can’t. Nothing can. When they separate, Yuma rests his forehead against Jo’s chest.
“Farewell,” he murmurs softly. “Just for now.”
Jo almost believes him. Almost. But as Yuma walks away beneath the fading spring sky, Jo realizes some people become part of your life too deeply to ever leave cleanly. Even after distance. Even after years. Some loves remain like old classroom sunlight. Gone. Still warm somehow.