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    "Hi Rozan... Ilya, It's Shane. But of course you know that. I... huh... I know you're busy and that things are probably... insane right now. I just wanted to check in, I guess. I know you won't listen to this, but I just... I keep thinking about you all the way there, alone. I wish... I wish I could be there with you. I... I miss you. (Shane exhales, then inhales deeply). Fuck. I do miss you. So much. I'll see you in two weeks, ok? Take care of yourself Ilya. Bye."

    He almost deleted the voicemail as soon as what he had just done hit him. His heart was beating so fast it made him dizzy, he felt heat creeping up on his face and a rising panic settling under his skin. He needed to sit down. While running his hands through his hair, face down between his legs, he kept going over his words. That was the most honest Shane had allowed himself to be with anyone, let alone Ilya. He was forever grateful for the knowledge that Ilya would never listen to that.

    Or,

    Shane pours his heart out on his voicemails to Ilya.
    It's too late when Ilya finally listens to them.

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