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Dying isn’t such a fun experience for Two Time.
They have always been scared of it, often to a much stronger level than the average survivors here.
But dying by Azure’s hand is… worth it.
They can feel what Azure felt when they stabbed him in the heart. It’s all good, they have to feel it, so that it will be fair with Azure.
This round, it is no different.
Chance had managed to hide Two Time most of the time during the round, with them bitching about how they didn’t get to see Azure for long. Chance is tired, of course, but he failed when they were trying to move places and Azure sniped him on the spot.
Two Time is now lying on the cold ground, with a big head wound as well as a stab in their stomach. It hurts so badly that they just wanted to throw up, but in this condition, as well as their sins, they don't deserve to feel relief.
Seeing Azure is worth it.
Azure is rather conflicted with how he feels about Two Time.
They used to be his whole world, their smile, their voice, their everything, it was all like porcelain to him, pretty, and fragile.
But after experiencing what they’re capable of, Azure… still loves them.
He knows the cult pressured them into doing this, he knows that if they didn’t do it, they would die.
Still, he can’t help but feel angry, why would they be so naive? Why were they so childish and easy to fool?
Whatever happened in the past, Azure thinks it’s different now in Forsaken.
Two Time has grown quite taller, skinnier, and just straight up looks unhealthy, and he can’t do anything about it.
He is forced to kill them, although he just wanted to comfort them on those hard nights, he just wanted to hold Two Time in his hands one more time
and the Spectre said no.
This time is no different. Two Time is on the ground again, looking miserable. Their head had just been bashed on a concrete wall, while their chest was stabbed repeatedly by Azure’s tentacle.
It is a miracle they’re still alive, and Azure wanted to share some thoughts with Two Time, since the Spectre will still count this as “killing”
Azure sits down next to Two Time, admiring their face. After all this time, he still thinks they’re the cutest. It’s Two Time, the love of his life, after all.
“My Nightshade” he said through the hat on his head. His mouth has been sewn shut due to the Spectre hiding his feelings away, his thoughts can still be transcribed to the hat
”yes, Azzzz…ure?” They said through jagged breath.
“How..are you?”
The first words come out hesitantly and weird. He isn’t used to these kinds of interactions. It has been long since the two actually have a conversation.
”better than ever, Azure…better with you here”
He doesn’t, and cannot understand them. Why are they still chasing his heart? Why do they still love them. Especially when he repeatedly hurts them till they’re nothing but a corpse each round.
He has to admit he doesn’t deserve their love for him. Just like how they show devotion to the Spawn, they show their love to him the same way. He knows about how Two Time always calls for him when they’re hurt, when they’re scared, and he can’t do anything about it. He can’t help them, instead, he can only kill them.
Sometimes he doesn’t even have control of his actions. He remembers several times when Two Tike runs up to him, everything turns black and when it fades back in, he could only see a bloody and ruined corpse, with a smile on their face.
Two Time coughs up a bit blood. They think Azure is being merciful today. He lets them live a bit to admire him. He is still as handsome as always, his purple eyes, his hairs. Two Time loves everything about him. They love him as he is. They don’t care if Azure kills them, they don’t care if he breaks his heart. They used to be the safest person, and they believe part of that is still… there, hidden under levels of wrath and the need for revenge
“Why do you still love me, Nightshade?” He asks them. He doesn’t understand Two Time’s love for him. Why do they keep coming back after getting hurt every time? Why can’t they just be like other survivors, who will run if they sense that the killer is coming?
“Because,” Two Time says, ignoring the wounds on their body “I love you… Azure”. They cough up more and more blood. Why won’t Azure understand that they love him with all their hearts?
Feeling safe is not a normal feeling for the survivors in Forsaken, especially with someone like Two Time. They always feel like they’re being watched, they feel like they can’t have privacy. They always feel so exposed, but everything stops when they think about Azure.
Azure was their first friend, first relationship, first everything. He used to stay up with them when they couldn’t sleep because of stress. He was there for them to argue with Amarah. He was there for them in everything. He always protected them, and they spat in his face.
They sacrificed him, all for a “second life”. They were conscious, they knew what they were doing, and yet, they declined it. They don’t want to talk about it, they knew they deserved this, and they should rot in hell. Still, Azure is sitting there with them, moving the hairs out of their face, and he’s crying?
“Leave me, Nightshade,” Azure says “I hate you, and I couldn’t bring myself to hate you ENTIRELY!” Azure yells out. He still remembers how Two Time’s face would light up when they saw him, how they would run to his arms, how they would laugh and lean onto him.
“Why…?” Two Time asks “You always bring me so much hope… Azure.” They are being completely honest.
Forsaken doesn’t allow anyone to feel hopes. The Spectre wants its victims to rot here, to feel what it’s like to be helpless, to be sad, to feel what it’s like to be forsaken.
Two Time hasn’t felt what it’s like to feel hopeless, it’s because they have Azure. Even if his words hurt them, even if his actions hurt them, their love for him remains unyielding. No one was there for them when they cried themself to sleep, it’s just Azure. No one was there for them when they were in fear, except Azure. His action right now is just proof that Azure is the only one who didn’t leave their side when they are dying.
Two Time still hasn’t realised how dangerous Azure is. He can kill them with just one hit, considering how weak they are with lower HP than normal. That doesn’t stop Two Time from running to him and giggling playfully every round. They still think it’s just a cruel game and Azure will eventually come back, laughing with them like how the two were.
Still, Azure is glad that Two Time still finds hope in this place. He thought they would be depressed and unmotivated, but here they are, still being playful with him, someone who can kill everyone within seconds.
The two still have a soft spot for each other, and they both unknowingly defend each other. Two Time will throw their dagger at someone if they say something bad about Azure, and Azure will try to poison someone if they dare to say Two Time is annoying.
“Two Time, leave me, please…” Azure suddenly says “You need serious help, if you run into danger like that”. He secretly enjoys that his partner still loves him, still, they are just wasting themself away trying to gain love from someone who will keep on harming them.
“Azure… you don’t understand how much you matter to me” Two Time says. They know that they’re going to die soon, given that their bleeding gets much worse each second. “I love you, Azure. I need you, please.” They can’t do anything but cry. They can’t control his feelings, and they’re too helpless themself.
Believe it or not, Two Time has sometimes tried not to get attached to Azure before, but it fails as they feel too lonely without him. (Ts not even about azure it's about two time’s hallucination that two time tries to ignore)
“I only cause you harm, please, Two Time, for both of us” Azure cries out. He doesn’t want Two Time to suffer because of him anymore. He just wants Two Time to forget about him and move on, like how swift the dagger reached his heart once.
“Azure… you don’t understand” they coughed out, it’s too painful to even talk now “as long as I’m still alive… I still love you, for eternity”