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Cass knew something was wrong before she opened the door.
She'd been awake, she was always awake at 2 AM, her body trained by her father to never fully rest. When she felt it. Not heard it. Felt it. The absence of sound from Damian's room was different tonight. Heavier. Final.
She moved down the hallway on silent feet, her hand hovering over his doorknob. Listened.
No breathing sounds. No shifting of sheets. No quiet counting of ceiling cracks that she'd learned to recognize over the past months.
Nothing.
Her hand turned the knob.
The room was dark except for the moonlight streaming through the window. Damian was on his bed, covers pulled up, perfectly still. Too still. His chest wasn't moving the way it should've been. Shallow, irregular, wrong.
Cass crossed the room in three strides.
His skin was cold when she touched his shoulder. Clammy. His pulse was there but slow, too slow, thready and weak under her fingertips like a bird's heartbeat fading.
Her eyes scanned the room with trained precision. Empty pill bottles on the nightstand, two of them, caps off. A glass of water, mostly empty. And on the desk, weighted down with a paperweight, a folded piece of paper.
She didn't need to read it to know what it said.
Her hands moved to his face, patting his cheeks. "Damian." The word formed in her mind, her hands already moving to sign it, but he couldn't see. His eyes were closed. Her signs meant nothing if he couldn't see them.
She shook his shoulder harder. His head lolled to the side.
No response. His eyelids fluttered but didn't open. His lips were slightly parted, breath barely there. She had to put her cheek close to his mouth to feel it at all. Each exhale was weaker than the last.
Cass grabbed one of the pill bottles. Read the label. Sleeping medication. Prescription. Bruce's name.
The other bottle. Painkillers. Also Bruce's.
Her mind calculated quickly, dosage, body weight, time elapsed based on the coolness of his skin, the depth of unresponsiveness. The math was bad. Very bad.
She needed help. Now.
Her hands moved automatically. Checking his airway, tilting his head back slightly, feeling for the pulse again. Still there. Still too slow. His respirations were maybe six per minute. Maybe less. His brain wasn't getting enough oxygen.
She ran to the door, threw it open, and—
Her throat closed. The familiar tightness. The inability to push sound past the barrier her father had built into her, the years of silence that had become her armor, her identity, her cage.
She tried to sign, frantically, but there was no one in the hallway to see.
Damian was dying.
She looked back at him, so still on the bed, his chest barely moving.
Dying.
Something broke inside her chest.
The sound that came out was inhuman at first. A raw, tearing thing that ripped through her throat like broken glass. Her vocal cords, unused for so long, seized and spasmed. It hurt. God, it hurt. But she forced it, pushed past the pain, past the years of conditioning, past her father's voice in her head telling her that silence was survival.
"BRUCE!"
The word came out mangled, too loud, her voice cracking and breaking on the syllables. She didn't know how to modulate, didn't know how to control the volume. It echoed through the hallway like a gunshot.
"ALFRED!"
Her throat was on fire. She tasted copper. But she kept going, kept screaming, because Damian was dying and silence wouldn't save him.
"HELP! HELP! PLEASE!"
The words were jagged, desperate, each one tearing something inside her. Her hands clutched at her throat, feeling the vibrations, the wrongness of sound coming from her own body. She'd heard her own voice before in her head, but this, this was real, physical, violent.
She heard movement immediately. Bruce's door slamming open, footsteps running.
She stumbled back into Damian's room, her legs shaking, her whole body trembling from the effort of speaking. She pushed him into recovery position with shaking hands, keeping his airway clear. His skin was getting colder. His breathing more shallow.
"Don't leave," she whispered, and even that hurt, even that small sound felt like swallowing razors. Her hand pressed against his chest, feeling the weak rise and fall. "Please don't leave."
Bruce appeared in the doorway, still in pajamas, hair disheveled. His eyes went immediately to Damian, to Cass's position, to the pill bottles.
Then to Cass herself, her hand at her throat, her face twisted in pain and terror.
His face went white.
"Cass, did you just—" He stopped. Shook his head. Priorities. "No. Damian. No, no, no—"
He was across the room in an instant, hands on Damian's face, checking his pulse, his breathing. Cass saw the exact moment Bruce registered how bad it was, his whole body went rigid, his hands started shaking.
"How long?" Bruce's voice was Batman-level controlled, which meant he was terrified.
Cass shook her head. Tried to speak again. "Don't... know." The words came out hoarse, broken. "Found him... like this."
Bruce's eyes widened slightly, hearing her voice, processing what that meant, but he forced his focus back to Damian. "His breathing is too shallow. Respiratory depression. Damn it."
Alfred appeared, already moving with purpose. He took in the scene with one sweep of his eyes, including Cass's hand still at her throat, her lips moving soundlessly as if testing the mechanism of speech, and immediately pulled out his phone.
"I'm calling 911," he said, voice steady. Despite the fear Cass could read in every line of his body. "Master Bruce, keep him on his side. Miss Cassandra—" He paused, his eyes meeting hers with something like wonder and grief. "—get the pill bottles. The paramedics will need to know what he took."
Cass grabbed both bottles with shaking hands, reading the labels again, counting what was left. Thirty pills from one bottle. Thirteen from the other. Forty-Three total. Enough to kill him twice over.
More footsteps. Dick appeared, then Tim, then Jason, all drawn by the commotion. By her screaming, Cass realized. They'd heard her voice for the first time.
Dick's face crumpled when he saw Damian. "Oh god. Oh god, is he—"
"He's breathing," Bruce said, but his voice was tight. "Barely. Maybe four breaths a minute. We need that ambulance now."
Tim was already on his phone, pulling up information. "Overdose protocol, we need to keep him conscious if possible, monitor his breathing—"
"He's not conscious," Bruce snapped. "He's barely alive."
Jason pushed past everyone, kneeling next to Bruce. His face was hard, controlled, but Cass could see the terror underneath. "How many pills?"
"Forty-Three," Cass rasped out, her voice still raw and strange in her own ears. "Maybe more."
Jason's jaw tightened. "Jesus Christ."
Alfred was on the phone with 911, giving their address, explaining the situation with clinical precision. "Fourteen-year-old male, unresponsive, suspected overdose of zolpidem and oxycodone. Respirations approximately four per minute, pulse weak and thready at forty beats per minute. He’s cold to the touch, unresponsive to verbal and physical stimuli."
The dispatcher's voice was calm through the phone. Alfred listened, then looked at Bruce. "They're asking if we can perform rescue breaths."
Bruce was already tilting Damian's head back, checking his airway. "His airway is clear but he's not breathing enough. I'm starting rescue breaths."
Cass watched as Bruce sealed his mouth over Damian's, giving two breaths. Damian's chest rose slightly, then fell.
Nothing. No response. No cough, no gag reflex, nothing.
Bruce gave two more breaths. Checked for a pulse. "Pulse is still there. Forty beats per minute. Too slow."
Stephanie appeared in the doorway, took one look at the scene, and her hand flew to her mouth. "No. No, he was doing better. He was—"
"He wasn't," Tim said quietly, his voice shaking. "He was performing. We all missed it."
Bruce continued rescue breathing, his hands trembling each time he pulled away to check Damian's pulse. "Come on, son. Breathe. Just breathe."
Cass watched Damian's face, looking for any sign of response. His lips were blue now. Definitely blue. Cyanosis. Not enough oxygen.
"His lips," she said, her voice cracking. "Blue."
Alfred was already moving, grabbing the emergency oxygen tank they kept in the medical bay. He fitted the mask over Damian's face, turning the flow to maximum. "This will help, but he needs proper medical intervention. Where is that ambulance?"
The sound of sirens in the distance. Getting closer.
Dick was pacing, hands in his hair. "This is my fault. I should have checked on him more. I should have—"
"Not now," Jason said sharply. "Save it for later. Right now we just need him to live."
Bruce's hand was on Damian's chest, feeling each shallow breath. "Come on, Damian. Stay with us. Just a little longer."
Damian's breathing hitched and stopped.
"He's not breathing," Bruce said, his voice going flat. "He stopped breathing."
Alfred immediately adjusted the oxygen mask, checking the seal. Bruce tilted Damian's head back further, checking his airway again.
"The airway is clear. He's just... not breathing." Bruce's hands moved to Damian's chest, positioning for compressions.
"Wait," Alfred said. "Check his pulse."
Bruce's fingers found Damian's carotid. "Pulse is still there. Thirty beats per minute. Dropping."
"Continue rescue breathing," Alfred instructed. "The ambulance is ninety seconds out."
Bruce gave two more breaths. Damian's chest rose and fell, but he didn't start breathing on his own.
Two more breaths.
Nothing.
"Damn it, Damian, breathe!" Bruce's voice cracked.
Cass found herself moving closer, her hand reaching for Damian's. His fingers were ice cold. She squeezed them, willing him to feel it, to know they were there.
"Damian," she whispered, her ruined voice barely audible. "Please."
Two more breaths from Bruce.
Damian's chest hitched. A shallow breath. Then another.
"He's breathing again," Bruce said, relief flooding his voice. "Shallow, but breathing."
The sirens were right outside now. Footsteps on the stairs, paramedics with equipment, moving fast.
They swarmed into the room, professional and efficient. A woman in her forties took one look at Damian and started barking orders.
"Fourteen-year-old male, overdose?" she asked, already checking his pulse.
"Yes," Bruce said, stepping back to give them room. "Zolpidem and oxycodone. Forty- three pills. We found him unresponsive, respiratory depression, he stopped breathing about two minutes ago but started again with rescue breaths."
The lead paramedic,her name tag said Rodriguez, nodded grimly. "Pulse is thirty-two, respirations are four per minute. We need to intubate. Get the kit."
Her partner, a young man, was already pulling out equipment. "Starting IV access."
They worked with frightening efficiency. IV line in Damian's arm. Medications pushed through. Rodriguez positioned herself at Damian's head with a laryngoscope.
"I need everyone to step back," she said. "We're going to secure his airway."
Cass watched, unable to look away, as Rodriguez tilted Damian's head back and inserted the laryngoscope blade, visualizing his vocal cords. The endotracheal tube slid in smoothly. She inflated the cuff, attached the bag-valve mask, and squeezed.
Damian's chest rose and fell with each squeeze of the bag.
"Airway secured," Rodriguez said. "Let's get him on the stretcher. We need to move now."
They transferred Damian quickly, strapping him down. The younger paramedic was squeezing the bag rhythmically, breathing for him.
"We're taking him to Gotham General," Rodriguez said. "Two of you can ride with us, but we need to leave immediately."
"I'm coming," Bruce said.
"Me too," Cass added, her voice still rough and painful.
Rodriguez's eyes flicked to her, noting something in her tone, but she just nodded. "Let's go."
They moved fast, down the stairs, out to the ambulance. Cass climbed in next to Bruce, her eyes never leaving Damian's face. The oxygen mask was gone, replaced by the tube in his throat and the paramedic's hands squeezing the bag.
The doors closed. The ambulance started moving, sirens wailing.
Rodriguez was doing something with the IV, hanging a bag of clear fluid. "We're giving him IV fluids and naloxone in case there's any opioid component, though it won't help with the zolpidem. His vitals are critically unstable."
The monitor next to Damian showed his heart rate: 28 beats per minute.
Too slow. Way too slow.
"Heart rate is dropping," the younger paramedic said, his voice tight.
Rodriguez checked the monitor. "Twenty-eight. Damn it. Prepare atropine."
She drew up a syringe, pushed it into the IV line.
They waited.
The monitor beeped. 30. 35. 42.
"Heart rate is coming up," Rodriguez said. "But he’s not out of the woods. His respiratory drive is completely suppressed. He's not making any effort to breathe on his own."
The younger paramedic kept squeezing the bag. Squeeze, release. Squeeze, release. Each squeeze was a breath Damian couldn't take himself.
Bruce's hand found Damian's, holding it carefully around the IV line. "You're doing great," he said, his voice shaking. "Just hold on. We're almost there."
Cass watched the monitor. Heart rate holding at 45. Blood pressure 80/40. Too low, but stable.
For thirty seconds, everything seemed okay.
Then Damian's body jerked.
"He's seizing!" Rodriguez said sharply.
Damian's back arched, his whole body going rigid. His arms pulled against the stretcher straps, muscles locked in spasm. The monitor started alarming. Heart rate spiking to 120, 140, 160.
"Get the diazepam!" Rodriguez ordered.
The younger paramedic kept one hand on the bag, squeezing air into Damian's lungs while his body convulsed, while his partner drew up medication with shaking hands.
Cass pressed herself against the wall of the ambulance, watching in horror as Damian's body twisted and jerked. His eyes were half-open, rolled back, showing only whites.
"Damian!" Bruce's voice was raw.
Rodriguez pushed the diazepam into the IV. "Come on, come on..."
The seizure continued. Fifteen seconds. Twenty. Damian's jaw was clenched around the endotracheal tube, his whole body rigid.
Then, suddenly, he went limp.
The monitor showed his heart rate dropping rapidly. 140. 120. 90. 60. 40.
"He's crashing," Rodriguez said. "Heart rate is thirty and dropping."
The monitor alarm changed pitch. The rhythm on the screen looked wrong, rregular, chaotic.
"He's in ventricular tachycardia," the younger paramedic said, his voice rising. "V-tach!"
Rodriguez was already moving, drawing up another syringe. "Amiodarone, now. And charge the defibrillator, just in case."
She pushed the medication. They waited, watching the monitor.
The rhythm stayed chaotic. Damian's heart was beating, but not effectively. Not pumping blood the way it should.
"Not converting," Rodriguez said. "Charge to 50 joules. We might need to cardiovert."
"Wait," the younger paramedic said. "Look."
The rhythm on the monitor was changing. Slowly, the chaotic spikes were organizing themselves into something more regular.
"It's converting," Rodriguez breathed. "Come on..."
The rhythm smoothed out. Still fast, 90 beats per minute but regular. Organized.
"Sinus tachycardia," Rodriguez said. "Okay. Okay, we're okay."
Bruce's face was white, his hand gripping Damian's so hard his knuckles were bloodless. "Is he—"
"He's stable," Rodriguez said. "For now. But that was close. Too close."
Cass realized she was shaking. Her whole body was trembling, her hands clenched into fists. She'd been holding her breath.
She forced herself to breathe. In. Out. In. Out.
The younger paramedic was still squeezing the bag, still breathing for Damian. "How much longer to the hospital?"
"Four minutes," the driver called back.
Four minutes. They could do four minutes.
Cass watched Damian's face. His eyes were closed now, his body limp against the stretcher. The only movement was his chest rising and falling with each squeeze of the bag.
Then his stomach contracted.
"He's going to vomit," Rodriguez said sharply. "Turn him—"
But there wasn't time. Damian's body heaved, and vomit came up around the endotracheal tube, spilling out the sides of his mouth.
"Suction!" Rodriguez grabbed the suction catheter, trying to clear his airway, but more vomit kept coming. "Damn it, he's aspirating—"
The monitor alarm started screaming. Oxygen saturation dropping. 95%. 90%. 85%.
"He's not oxygenating," the younger paramedic said, squeezing the bag harder. "The tube might be blocked."
Rodriguez was suctioning frantically, trying to clear the vomit from around the tube. "I can't see— there's too much!"
More vomit. Damian's body heaved again, his stomach emptying itself. The smell was acrid, chemical. Pills that hadn't fully dissolved yet mixed with stomach acid and bile.
"Oxygen sat is 80%," the younger paramedic said, his voice tight with fear. "He needs oxygen now."
Rodriguez made a decision. "I'm going to pull the tube and re-intubate. Keep bagging."
She deflated the cuff, pulled the endotracheal tube out. More vomit came with it, pouring out of Damian's mouth.
"Turn him on his side," she ordered.
They rolled Damian onto his side, letting gravity help drain the vomit. It kept coming, wave after wave, until finally it slowed to a trickle.
"Okay, back on his back. I need to re-intubate."
They positioned Damian flat again. Rodriguez suctioned his mouth and throat, clearing as much as she could. Then she grabbed the laryngoscope again.
"I need good visualization," she muttered, inserting the blade. "Come on, come on..."
The oxygen saturation alarm was still screaming. 75%. 70%.
"I can't see the cords," Rodriguez said. "There's still too much secretions—"
"Sat is 68%," the younger paramedic said. "Rodriguez—"
"I know! Just—there!" Rodriguez slid a new endotracheal tube in, inflated the cuff. "Bag him. Now."
The younger paramedic squeezed the bag.
Damian's chest rose.
They waited, watching the monitor.
Oxygen saturation: 68%. 70%. 75%. 80%. 85%.
"It's coming up," Rodriguez said. "Keep bagging. Good seal on the tube."
90%. 92%. 94%.
"Okay," Rodriguez breathed. "Okay, we're okay. Airway is secure. He's oxygenating."
Cass realized she'd been holding her breath again. She let it out in a shaky exhale, her hand pressed against her chest. Her heart was racing, her whole body flooded with adrenaline.
Bruce looked like he'd aged ten years in the last five minutes. His face was gray, his eyes hollow.
"One minute out," the driver called.
One minute. Just one more minute.
Cass looked at Damian's face. His skin was pale, almost gray. Vomit was still crusted around his mouth despite Rodriguez's attempts to clean it. The endotracheal tube protruded from between his lips, taped in place.
He looked dead.
But the monitor showed his heart beating. 85 beats per minute. Blood pressure 90/50. Oxygen saturation 94%.
Alive. Barely, but alive.
The ambulance took a sharp turn. Cass braced herself, her hand finding the wall.
Then Damian's eyes opened.
Just a crack. Just slits. But they opened.
Cass leaned forward. "Damian?"
His eyes moved, unfocused, trying to find the source of the sound. They landed on her face.
She saw the moment of recognition. The confusion. The question in his eyes.
"It's me," she said, her voice still rough and painful. "It's Cassie."
His eyes widened slightly. His lips moved around the endotracheal tube, trying to form words.
"Don't try to talk," Rodriguez said quickly. "You have a breathing tube. Just stay calm."
But Damian kept trying, his lips moving, his throat working. A sound came out, muffled by the tube, barely audible, but there.
"...Cass..."
The word was slurred, distorted by the tube and the drugs still in his system. But it was there. Her name. In his voice.
Cass felt something break open in her chest. Tears burned in her eyes, spilling over before she could stop them.
"I'm here," she said, her voice cracking. "I'm right here."
Damian's eyes were trying to focus on her face. His lips moved again.
"...you... talked..."
Three words. Barely intelligible. But she understood.
"Yes," she whispered. "I talked. For you."
His eyes started to drift closed again.
"No, stay awake," Rodriguez said, her hand on his shoulder. "Stay with us, Damian. We're almost at the hospital."
But his eyes kept closing, his body going limp again.
"Damian!" Bruce's voice was sharp. "Open your eyes. Look at me."
Nothing.
"He's unconscious," Rodriguez said, checking his pupils with a penlight. "Pupils are sluggish but reactive. He's still in there, just heavily sedated."
The ambulance pulled up to the emergency entrance. Doors flying open.
More paramedics, more equipment, more controlled chaos.
"Fourteen-year-old male, overdose of approximately forty- three, zolpidem and oxycodone," Rodriguez was saying as they pulled the stretcher out. "Found unresponsive with respiratory depression progressing to respiratory failure. We intubated in the field. Patient had a grand mal seizure en route, went into V-tach, converted with amiodarone. Then vomited and aspirated, requiring re-intubation. He was briefly conscious about thirty seconds ago, spoke a few words, then lost consciousness again. Current vitals: heart rate 88, BP 92/52, oxygen sat 94% on bag-valve mask."
The ER doctor, a woman in her fifties with steel-gray hair, nodded grimly. "Get him to trauma bay one. I want a full tox screen, chest X-ray to check for aspiration pneumonia, continuous cardiac monitoring, and get toxicology on the phone. We need to know if there's anything we can do to speed up the elimination of these drugs."
They disappeared through a set of double doors, the younger paramedic still squeezing the bag, still breathing for Damian.
A nurse stopped Bruce and Cass.
"You'll need to wait here," she said gently. "We'll update you as soon as we can."
Bruce looked like he wanted to argue. His hand was still reaching toward where Damian had been, as if he could pull him back through sheer force of will.
But he just nodded, his shoulders sagging.
Cass took his hand. Squeezed.
Her throat was on fire. Her voice was gone again, used up in those desperate minutes. But she'd done it. She'd spoken. She'd screamed for help, and help had came.
And Damian had heard her. Had spoken back.
They stood there in the harsh fluorescent light of the ER waiting room, and for the first time since she'd opened Damian's door, Cass let herself feel it.
The terror. The guilt. The desperate, aching fear that they were too late.
Behind them, the rest of the family was arriving. Dick, Tim, Jason, Stephanie, Alfred. They clustered together, a tight knot of worry and love and determination.
Dick's eyes were red. Tim was pale, his hands shaking. Jason's face was a mask, but Cass could read the terror underneath. Stephanie was crying silently, and Alfred looked older than she'd ever seen him.
No one spoke. There was nothing to say.
They just waited.
And hoped that Damian would choose to stay.
Bruce's hand was still in hers when the doctor finally came out, two hours later. Two hours of sitting in plastic chairs, of watching the clock, of jumping every time the doors opened.
The doctor's face was carefully neutral. Professional.
"Mr. Wayne?" she said. "I'm Dr. Patel. I've been treating your son."
Bruce stood immediately. "Is he—"
"He's alive," Dr. Patel said, and the relief that flooded the room was almost physical. "But he's critical. The overdose caused significant respiratory depression and he aspirated vomit into his lungs during transport. We have him on a ventilator now, and we're treating him with activated charcoal and IV fluids to help clear the drugs from his system. He also had a seizure and a cardiac arrhythmia, both of which we've managed to stabilize."
"Can we see him?" Dick asked, his voice hoarse.
Dr. Patel hesitated. "He's in the ICU. We're keeping him sedated for now to let his body recover and to protect his airway. He's going to need to stay on the ventilator for at least twenty-four hours, possibly longer depending on how quickly the drugs clear his system and whether he develops aspiration pneumonia."
"But he'll be okay?" Bruce's voice was barely a whisper.
"The next forty-eight hours are critical," Dr. Patel said carefully. "He's young and otherwise healthy, which works in his favor. But he took a massive overdose, and the aspiration complicates things. We're doing everything we can."
It wasn't a yes. But it wasn't a no.
"Two visitors at a time in the ICU," Dr. Patel continued. "He's in room 3. A nurse will take you up."
Bruce looked at Cass. "You should come. You... he heard you. He spoke to you."
Cass nodded, her throat too raw to speak again.
They followed the nurse through the maze of hallways, up an elevator, through more hallways. The ICU was quiet, just the sound of machines beeping and whooshing.
Room 3.
The nurse opened the door.
Damian was in the bed, looking impossibly small. The ventilator tube was still in his throat, taped in place. A machine next to the bed was breathing for him. Whoosh, click, whoosh, click. IVs in both arms. Monitors everywhere, showing numbers that Cass didn't fully understand but knew were important.
His eyes were closed. His face was peaceful, almost serene.
He looked like he was sleeping.
Bruce moved to the bedside, his hand finding Damian's. "I'm here," he said softly. "We're all here. You're not alone."
Cass stood on the other side of the bed, looking down at her brother. Her throat ached. Her voice was gone. But she'd found it when it mattered.
And he'd heard her.
She reached out, her hand covering his. His skin was warmer now, not the cold clamminess from before.
Alive.
She closed her eyes, feeling the steady beep of the heart monitor, the whoosh of the ventilator.
He was alive.
And eventually, when he woke up, they would figure out the rest.
Together.