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    Chan thinks he's good at hiding the fact he's in love with Felix.

    He's not.

    For years, Chan loves him in all the quiet ways he can survive: love letters that he will never send, warm baths drawn after difficult nights, fingers brushing together against piano keys, slow dances stolen between royal obligations, and marigolds blooming faithfully beneath palace windows.

    But love like this cannot survive silence forever.

    Or: Chan spends years loving Felix silently and as Chan stands in a ballroom while another person waits to marry him, he finally realises there is no version of his future that survives losing Felix.

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