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1. Of Things That Can’t Be Mine by the_fluff_awakens

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   31 May 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov & Svetlana Vetrova
   • Shane Hollander & Svetlana Vetrova
   • Shane Hollander & Hayden Pike
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau
   • Hayden Pike
   • Tatiana Cormier | OC
   • Grigori Rozanov
   • Alexei Rozanov | Andrei Rozanov
   • Yuna Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Depression
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Suicidal Ideation
   • Drug Use
   • Unmotivated Shane Hollander
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Ilya Rozanov Misses Irina Rozanova
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Jealous Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov seeks therapy
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander's Freckles
   • Happily Ever After
   • Anal Sex
   • Oral Sex
   • Gay Sex
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • Discussion of past childhood trauma
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Irina’s suicide from Ilya’s flashbacks or inner monologue

   Summary

   Months after Shane walked out of his Boston home, Ilya Rozanov goes on LTIR and disappears from the hockey world for almost a year. Russia offers not exactly comfort, but enough distractions to help him deal with the pain.

   Months of playing in a league without Ilya Rozanov, Shane’s love for hockey dissipates until it’s nothing more than a job he has to clock in for. Realizing his love for the game has always been tied to playing against Ilya, he loses the motivation to play at his usual level.

   Broken and lost, Ilya seeks destruction. Alone and lonely, Shane loses his purpose.

   OR

   The story of how Svetlana Vetrova refuses to let two dumb boys destroy their lives.

   Language:

   English

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   Chapters:

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